THOUGHTS: MONTH #181
"doing quite some recording getting to walk alone at times for instance helping out our poor greek and spanish friends bringing them to the hospital and in the waiting spitting out a flow of throughts perhaps also very much inspired by my interest in the anarchist movement after the reading or orwell and later having less occasions to record alone always with silvester and at times his sister taking anyway walks but having to also entertain them"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #183
"still feeling quite prolific with my thinking despite having to take care of silvester full time and not being able to fully express myself also very much concentrating in entertain him while walking together having however a few occasions to walk a bit alone like going out with also myrthe walking ahead or behind with the children also taking quite a walk across eindhoven to meet an old english colleague from stockholm having more focus to record my thinking growing a bit out of all the anarchist ideology"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #183
"more and more with the kids with less occasions to just walk alone and fully concentrate on my thinking but having either way very regular thoughts popping out in my head especially in the forest like picking up the car in the south west of apeldoorn and alwhaays feeling quite uncomfortable in recording my thinking in the shaved landscape of our city resulting in not so well formulated thoughts"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #184
"embarking with the massive project of building a garage in the backyard by myself reducing quite dramatically the time to record my thoughts while walking and still having thoughts and mostly recording them taking silvester out to the fields with livia now more and more settled at school"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #186
"always pretty much home taking care of the kids and in my free time building a garage nonetheless feeling rather prolific in my head especially after understanding my role in life not seeking for a carrier nor to get my project established but simply taking care of my local nature and demonstrating the possibility to do especially with the political and social and environmental and economic situation turning upside down world wide"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #186
"beginning to walk more with silvester putting less effort in the building of my new garage and dedicating myself to him to improve his mood in nature recording thoughts soon using my new dutch phone with a crisper voice recorded feeling quite inspired by the reading of bakunin and his distinction between the german obeying middle class drawn towards the state and the manual workers defying this idea of state"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #187
"a month spent traveling with the children through europe all the way to our mountain apartment in the alps and very much focusing in schooling them on the road especially while walking explaining them many things and only at times getting some thoughts and recording them but always having to be careful about them and entertain them also in the mountains taking many walks with them but having to fully focus in stimulating them to walk up the challenging paths nonetheless also keeping up my reading of bakunin and having some thoughts related to his idea of state"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #188
"spending some nice last sunny time in the mountains recording some thoughts also while walking with myrthe and the kids and finally only being able to walk alone on our way back to the netherlands walking at night along a trafficked road to get to a supermarket for some grocery feeling in general rather sad about returning to holland and still have my brain in italy and its decaying environment slowly however shifting away from anarchism and embracing once more the universal importance of a stoic self"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #189
"with august now visiting us in holland just focusing on him not really recording any thoughts but taking many walks together and in the end getting quite charged especially later discovering by chance ted kaczynski's manifesto reviving pretty much my core thinking and finding at last ways to relate to both my sympathy for libertarian thoughts as well as my archival practice and the theory i built around it"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #190
"still affected by kaczynski's manifesto and generally is withdrawn from society but also getting much of my brain occupied thinking of a manifesto of a doctrine i called anarcarkism and with myrthe and the children always around having a hard time to record all the thoughts popping up in my head at times just recording thoughts without developing them but either way at times getting very good insight despite the clear revoking of my old sentiments against an industrial society so much corrupting our nature"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #191
"camping in france with the family getting some good air walking on the northern coast with always the family around still having some moments to also record my thoughts even back in holland now fully occupied with my brain in the writing of the anarcarkist manifesto and sort of reproducing the same thinking in my recordings still never really alone and with alway either the kids along or just the uncomfortable feeling of dutch people listening from their tightly built houses"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #192
"having a lot of thoughts daily but always spending my time with little silvester and myrthe still homesich from work making it difficult to record them also while in the netherlands feeling not so free to speak with constantly houses in the near of me even in the total deserted streets but then traveling to italy and in the mountains finding some moments of peace to record my thoughts while playing around with the idea of building more sculptures as part of our property generally however feeling rather emptied out by all the focus put on the writing of the anarcarkist manifesto"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #193
"still living a quite hectic life with no moments of complete solitude but for some small walks i took in germany camping there with the family and always walking around with little silvester and at times with myrthe still with my brain rather full from all the writings i am doing as part of the anrcarkist manifesto"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #194
"with the coming of the summer weather in holland managing to take small walks by the river especially in the evening finding it perhaps the only place in the village where to freely express myself without having to worry to be heard elaborating thus more on my thoughts despite being still sucked in all the writings of the anarcarkist manifesto as well as all the reading of anarchist theories siding more and more with non-violent and stoic approaches"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #195
"traveling with august to sardinia and having there some time alone to record my thoughts talking long walks along the beautiful coast at times being left alone with also my friend davide busy editing videos and august wanting to sleep long during the day and then also traveling with him and my youngest silvester through germany and switzerland taking occasional walks and at times taking a bit of distance from them to record"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #196
"in the mountains at first alone with silvester trying to at times record my thinking but always being interrupted by him constantly on a talking mood and then with his mother and sister coming making it often up to the ark recording my thoughts despite the steep and wild valley having to catch my breath and generally still being very much affected by my reading of anarchist authors and in the direction of social ecology"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #197
"feeling in the air the possible retaliation of the local politicians against my project but now with all my reading into anarchism also feeling much stronger to stand against such coercive power and having some very clear moments in my thinking making it as much as twice a day on foot up and down to the ark in the wild valley only paying attention to the animals there especially with the sun rising and still some darkness in the ever growing forest"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #198
"spending a last period in the mountains alone with the children still however getting the opportunity to record my thoughts then recording much less traveling through austria eventually making it back to the netherlands and at first having my old friend davide over having no time to record and then having quite some good ideas to record but as usual feeling too much the presence of other people who could hear me in the narrow alleys of our dutch village"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #199
"a period writing most intensively and as a result also getting out some pretty obvious thoughts or anyway too related to the libertarian manifesto i am working on but also getting here and there some more profound and unexpected insights clarifying in my head certain concepts i only grasped before reading mumford and listening to bookchin's interviews"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #200
"still processing all my readings but also all my writings and in general not going for very long walks alone keeping mostly in our dutch village but nonetheless having some strong insights at times getting a bit into repeating myself and not really elaborating after exchanging my opinion with myrthe who doesn't see a problem with certain "cultural discourses getting more and more mainstream and in this way oppressing any other discourses"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #201
"quite prolific period managing to take walks alone and in nature despite at times feeling quite tired and also exhausted from all the intense period of wirtings and only while in the town setting not really feeling so free to record my thoughts but generally getting very good insights especially during a walk in the forest in breda while the children kept with myrthe and her father"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #202
"still in a frenzy writing very much about my project now that both my children are at school but for the sake of sleeping better also taking walks especially by the river recording my thoughts there and elaborating mostly on my anarchist readings and writings also at times walking with the children and recording the thoughts that naturally pop up in my head despite also a strong wind making it hard to record later however losing a bit of my prolific state going more into solving technical issues related to my website"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #203
"a good period for thoughts especially during a period i spent in the near of maastricht taking care of the dog of my partner's older brother and with it going for several long walks in the lonely hills recovering the sort of peace of mind i can never fully obtain in the more urbanized setting of our countryside village nd back to it still getting good thoughts but never fully be able to express myself with also the bad weather hindering me"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #204
"beside the bad weather and myself really working hard writing mostly my thoughts and reflections as part of a book about my practice and one about the arkist movement still finding some good insights when walking alone trying to avoid the more inhabited places to also have some peace of mind and rethink all the anarchist literature i have thus far read"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #205
"making it a habit now to walk every day while the children are at school to the arboretum having some peace and quiet there to record my thought despite the wind and the rain making it too hard to record and at times also getting some very good insights but never really walking long enough to elaborate properly on them and getting in my philosophizing mood"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #206
"feeling quite disturbed about the winning of the nationalists in the dutch elections and reflecting on how the solution is not really in the authoritarian left or right but in resuming the sort of communities and guilds that made the german nations so peaceful before they turned to horrific state enterprises"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #207
"taking daily walks out in the dutch village still reflecting on its inhabitants suddenly picking up the role of angry nationalist reclaiming their private properties and willing within to undergo a cleansing they do not really manifest in their day to day monotonous and highly regulated lives and either way standing my ground but being quite careful not to be heard in my thinking out loud with only on one occasion walking far out along the river and feeling more at ease to talk"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #208
"finally alone for a long walk in the woods north of arnhem really able to concentrate and get some meanings off my head prior returning to our dutch village and still feeling very prolific but having less liberty to express myself with always some people around but out in the arboretum where i have been trying to make it daily despite the weather"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #209
"in italy for the winter holiday taking many walks with my family but unable to record my thoughts being always with them and back in holland with the landscape getting suddenly frozen and covered with ice and snow taking several long walks out in the most remote nature at times just feeling too cold to cold in my hands to even hold my phone but managing to get some thinking back in my head"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #210
"having often good thoughts taking my walks but really feeling always that people could hear me and never maturing them that well also feeling rather taken by the renovation of the children's rooms and never venturing too far out in the nature to have some proper time with my thinking also feeling rather burn out trying to find a way to stow a physical copy of my project inside the ark but getting some inspiration reading peter marshall's reflections on ecological society despite him being quite redundant and repetitive"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #211
"starting to work for a bakery and losing a bit of routine of going out for walks to record my thoughts also later with the holidays spending much time with the children and august coming for a visit and also my old brazilian friend mario but still getting sharp thoughts in my head only not really having the right conditions to record them always disturbed of the idea i could be heard by others while taking shorter walks possibly only in one occasion having the lucidity in my head and the space to record reaching amsterdam from the stadium covering long and empty stretches on foot"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #212
"beginning to work more regularly for the local bakery and feeling a bit worn in my head and at times unable to focus but still feeling very much inspired by my readings of stateless societies prior to the nation-state and picking up once again my anti-authoritarian voice yet also having to look after my youngest son refusing to go to school and often taking walks with him recovering our getting back to nature custom the very school interrupted getting to also reflect about this sort of imposition and that beauty and wisdom that is lost pursuing it"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #213
"feeling quite taken by work with little possibilities to record my thoughts or in general to be fully alone having to take walks on the river and later also feeling strangely more alone walking across amsterdam from the stadium to the city center getting some good insights and reviving all the sort of anarchist theories i have been incessantly writing about in this respect also feeling i have turned temporarily more of a writer than an orator"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #214
"taking a break from all the routine of taking care of my children and work going to italy for the spring holidays having at time the possibility to walk alone up to the project museum to finish attaching the tags on the last floor and recording in general a few thoughts on these occasions despite feeling rather dizzy from all the gluing and the glue itself and also when walking with my family at times keeping a bit on the distance to record a compelling thought but never managing to find the total peace of mind to really think through it"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #215
"back in holland trying to take longer walks so as to get more in my thoughts without being too bother about others who might be hearing what i record in our dutch village and finding a few occasions to do so out by the river with only a few decent evenings and the summer approaching"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #216
"still in holland busy welding my time capsule for within the ark and also with the weather being quite bad taking less walks but then making it a point to at least make it to the arboretum every day with my head however quite filled all the i am writing but also reading about especially hunter-gatherers and a return to the paleolithic as advocated by hakim bey and a more mild return of the democratic techniques as suggested by lewis mumford"