THOUGHTS: MONTH #073
"managing to record my thoughts now taking an hour off every now and then from myrthe and baby livia and walking alone in some nice winter weather along the river and feeling an overall nice sensation of the natural surrounding as well as of livia's birth accepting my quasi totally secluded condition"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #074
"taking advantage of some sunny days to walk pushing the stroller with livia asleep and recording my thoughts having still no clear understanding of what the coming future will bring but accepting my role of marginal meaning maker"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #075
"recording quite intensively in holland talking walks alone and with sleeping livia in the stroller now losing a bit of hope about being able to move to italy to build my cathedral and at last getting to be in italy and recording my thought waking up with the chainsaw and gasoline to clear the forest below it"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #076
"thoughts recorded first of all in italy walking up to the cathedral to work there and later back in holland while going around with livia asleep in the stroller and at this point becoming more concerned with politicians and their blocking of my italian project now once again living a most precarious existence despite my good will"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #077
"recording mostly while pushing the stroller with baby livia and convincing myself to build the cathedral here in holland apart from italy and also getting to consider the political situation there and the european supervision impeding the country to change"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #078
"recording my thoughts again walking extensively with livia at the beginning in utrecht finding a nice and lonely way to the city and then in culemborg now also being able to walk on the river after learning to carry her on my chest and again feeling pessimistic about my relationship with the authorities but nonetheless willing to proceed with the realizations of my project"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #079
"recording thoughts in the netherlands walking with livia and getting increasing grateful about nature becoming quite indifferent about society as such and then spending time in the mountains working on my cathedral and recording only a few thoughts particularly when departing from august after a splendid time together now also using a more powerful and new phone with a better microphone"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #080
"taking daily walks with livia and record my thoughts while carrying her in a pouch and for the extra physical pain not really thinking too deeply but still feeling hesitant about my divided future"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #081
"recording my thoughts walking with little livia in the carrier bag and this time having to cover her ears not to wake her up and also feel a little lame in my thinking having to walk for so long to keep her asleep and yet going at as low pace affecting also my thoughts without a clear direction"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #082
"reaching a state of neutrality having no hope left for my italian project nor any hope for any social integration but accepting my role here in the netherlands recording again with livia sleeping on my chest and trying not to wake her up with my voice as well as now also recording walking in the empty streets of venice during my short visit there"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #083
"recording while pushing livia on the stroller yet going more seldom now with her with the weather getting less nice and her sleeping more often in bed but also manage to record thoughts taking small walks alone especially after going to sweden"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #084
"recording now my thoughts while in the netherlands mostly now taking small walks alone whenever myrthe can take care of livia and at times also walking with her asleep and recording also quite affected now by my reading of nietzsche"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #085
"living like in a limbo now losing and gaining hope about realizing my project becoming now my faith and losing some determination as well as now getting stimulated to reflect certain thoughts that stuck on my mind reading nietzsche but beside only experiencing reality as such and not even growing indignant of being completely isolated and living in total social indifference and recording some thoughts with livia asleep in my chest and only whispering them and not really thinking them so much through afraid of waking her up"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #086
"a period keeping quiet indoor given the bad november weather in holland but nonetheless managing to record briefly and sometime with people close to me unable then to think properly but still now regrowing my faith toward the realization of my project in the alps and still however reflecting on my state of complete isolation and almost total indifference"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #087
"recording my thoughts now in italy walking up and down to the mountain field of my installation first alone and then with livia sleeping in my back and reflecting about my intervention but also about a family crisis experienced with my mother and recording also while walking in the empty city"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #088
"recording my thoughts now walking in the netherlands feeling almost as in a limbo with the italian plan suspended and fully isolated but with livia to take care of and often walking with her asleep in my back or in the stroller"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #089
"now being a little stuck indoors with much winter weather out but getting a lot of thoughts walking alone with livia in the stroller also thinking of my isolated situation and the frictions with my mother's rich family"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #090
"recording my thoughts in the netherlands mostly walking around the culemborg countryside and not really fully developing my thoughts having to also carry baby livia but gaining a good vibe especially after settling how to do my project in italy and my isolated life in the netherlands dedicated to my project and my family"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #091
"still pushing livia on the stroller and walking mostly around the nice natural park of culemborg to the east and now coming to term to myself mostly accepting both my isolated situation taking care of my children as well as also accepting to do my ultimate installation in the mountains using normal iron thus doom to disappear"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #092
"recordings done mostly walking in culemborg pushing livia in the stroller despite the bad weather and reflecting on my situation feeling now at ease with the outcome of my project and lastly walking alone in the south of amsterdam waiting to board the train but feeling distracted by the occasional traffic and people approaching yet getting inspired to reflect on the urban gentrification"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #093
"recording thoughts now while in stockholm walking around the empty streets and reflecting on the good impact i got from meeting artists with their precarious yet inspiring lives and also later taking long walk in uppsala on my way to august walking up and down small and big rivers thinking mostly of my situation independent and with time to work artistically and without so much commitment in society but working out an alternative to it"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #094
"recording intensively my thoughts in uppsala now taking very long walks by the rivers there waiting for august to finish school and now being able to think not having to push livia on the stroller but also at times not managing to formulate well my thoughts due to people approaching or cars distracting me"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #095
"recording my thoughts in the netherlands mostly while walking with livia in the stroller with her now becoming aware of it and having thus to minimize my thinking and concentrate more on her yet recording my thoughts quite regularly almost every day with my life now entirely without any expectations and at ease with its course as an outsider"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #096
"recording thoughts now taking the last walks with livia in the stroller around the dutch countryside and still being able to think and formulate my thoughts completely disillusioned but just simply and spontaneously expressing what comes to my mind"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #097
"walking still in the dutch countryside before reflecting also about my fully isolated state now only concentrated in doing my project without any social rewards and also taking a very long walk in heidelberg there mostly reflecting on how the rage of nazism has wiped out the history it was so proud of and having thoughts spontaneously coming to me"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #098
"recording my thoughts while walking in empty italian cities like venice or vicenza and nonetheless not really pronouncing well all my thoughts afraid to be heard and yet keeping rather positive despite my installation in the mountains being blocked by the hunters"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #099
"recording a bit of my thoughts while walking with livia around in mestre in empty roads and back in the netherlands also recording but feeling quite out of focus with several issues feeling my head mostly concerning disputes with my neighbour hunters in the mountains and my tenants in venice"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #100
"recording thoughts now walking with livia around culemborg but also while walking in bigger cities like in utrecht and amsterdam and not feeling unable to fully elaborate my thoughts mostly feeling afraid to be heard by others"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #101
"thoughts recorded while walking around mostly in culemborg with livia and at times being distracted by her unable to fully think through or speak out my thoughts but nonetheless being quite prolific with much reasoning coming to my mind quite fluently having again no future expectations but the present taking care of my project and of my family"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #102
"still briefly in the netherlands recording my thoughts while with livia and then traveling with august to sardinia and at times recording my thoughts strolling around the marvelous coasts during a terrible heat and lastly also recording my thoughts back in the mountains while walking up and down to the cube installation not knowing whether it can be done or not and living somewhat my life in this limbo with no social reputation left yet affected by classic philosophy and accepting well my condition"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #103
"recording my thoughts now walking up the valley to work on my installation and thinking about how isolated i got attempting to accomplish such a noble project and also taking a long solitary walk south of the garda lake along the mincio river and once again getting to reflect quite much at my condition feeling however rather in peace with myself and with my low-key destiny"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #104
"thoughts recorded mostly walking up to my installation alone and reflecting on my peace of mind after having sacrificed so much resources to build it and being blocked by the hunters and feeling content however with just stowing all the data within the cube structure also reflecting on my italian family and their meanness and also reflecting at times of plutarch's moral writings after finishing to read them yet at times being out of breath walking up the valley and also feeling afraid of the hunters"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #105
"recording my thoughts while walking a long way to german city centers visiting quite a few ones during my car trip to holland and reflecting on the german ideology bringing so much destruction and once in holland resuming my long walks with livia in the stroller but now having her to start calling every time i try to record a thought ultimately just walking alone by the river during sunsets"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #106
"a period feeling very productive with my thoughts especially with the hunters rebelling against my installation in italy and reflecting on my situation while walking on the hills in maastricht and along the river lek escaping in both circumstances from birthday parties"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #107
"recording my thoughts walking around culemborg with livia in the stroller still making sounds yet feeling an urge to reflect out loud about my complex yet prolific situation with the hunters in italy blocking my installation thus forcing me to accept again the life of an expat"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #108
"a period walking and thinking intensively despite livia reactions and despite getting more and more burnt out from the italian situation with the hunters getting ever more aggressive and siding with the far-right against the installation"