THOUGHTS: MONTH #037

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"the character of this fable is based in venice and her longing for the mountains is actually my longing to my native alps from which i try to return after the failed swedish experience with my ex wife, their feminist obsession with masculinity, the whiteness also increased by the recent snow and the blackness really much represented by my new black room mate from gambia"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #038

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"a fable conceived in the attic of jacek's father tedeus in krakow while being surrounded by many of his religious figures and crosses and all the still alive religion experienced in churches and monasteries still alive with monks and nuns describing this bird which is orange like the ones i used to experience in north america but then also changes colors picking different new meanings like that of buddhist monk to that of a japanese emperor where he becomes the red sun himself and later refiguring the japanese second war world push towards america and the bomb picked like a mushroom by a god turned to a devil which contrary to the legend require his divine state by falling rather than becoming lucifer and at last the story connects back to the beginning with the crucifixions of his sons angels devils and the use of the crosses as paddles to finally reach the easter island where easter can be unlimited"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #039

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"an amazing amount of walking alone mostly from the metro station to my kid and his mother's flat in the wealthy part of town but also some exploring and recording of the run down industrial area where i am now moving and thus reflecting on this change also quite affected in may thinking by all my academic readings after a lecture in orebro university in the inland of sweden where i have also took a long night walk to the city now that i am more independent but also have far less securities and my future has not really any reference point"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #040

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"still reflecting on my recent trauma concerning the separation with my wife while now walking many a miles to reach my son having no money for the metro ticket but also now starting to walk and reflect about my new condition in the deep industrial and emancipated south of the city yet very solar and nice but also recording myself on few occasions in my native mountains where i could barely be alone with all the friends and relatives and later also some recordings in krakow crossing through portions of the soviet like suburbs and eventually ending up in a totally desolated concentration camp feeling deeply the horrible effect of all political regimes"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #041

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"a more scattered possibility of recording with my head filled up with notions at school and the weather which nonetheless offered a couple of beautiful weekends where i have been out taking major walks across the frozen lakes and inevitably the better off suburbs where my kid lives with his mother after our separation of which i don't really think about anymore in my reflections but rather still perceive the social enslavement and a desire for a sublime nature"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #042

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"still quite scattered recording with much social happenings but managing at times to be alone particularly at a conference in berlin walking lonely in tiergarten or back at night but then also recording while walking to take the bus to the airport in the middle of the summer night to reach my dutch girlfriend myrthe who gave me some positivity which was later poisoned but much dissatisfaction due to my teaching at work with some students cutting me off because of open mindness and consequently losing the possibility to teach and giving me quite some thoughts which i recorded also walking back and forth picking my kid and deciding again to become stoic and spend little money to stay autonomous as much as i can"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #043

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"recordings did the times i could really be alone such as walking from august's apartment to the main station wanting to save money for the train ticket or particularly during a conference in england escaping when i could to explore the countryside and walk many miles reacting on the intellectual boredom and vanity of the conference and attempting to enforce myself through my own discipline and at last after long periods spent with my son august and my girlfriend myrthe mostly on holiday in italy being finally left alone in sweden and biking to some natural reserves where i could walk alone and pour out my thoughts again in relation to my situation conducting my own autonomous practice within a highly politicized and socialized academic environment"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #044

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"quite many recordings of thoughts now after a rather long period having no possibility to walk alone and being really thoughtless but this time i had several possibilities to record going out with my bike and finally be able to reach nature from my industrialized suburb but also walking through it in the middle of the night and recording on my way to myrthe with and also while walking by lakes coming back from my son's apartment and feeling a big need to breathe the autumn air and think about my situation at the university whether i should seek for more autonomy which has been also the issue of my walks while in berlin going early morning to check a spy tower station or walking at sunset in the orangerie of potsdam"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #045

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"more recording of my thoughts gathered in very seldom occasions when left without august and myrthe thinking again about my intellectually constrained situation in academia but also about my increasingly more difficult situation with myrthe who no longer wishes to live with me and recording more frequently as the spring comes out while walking to the mall but also in the forest behind august's apartment"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #046

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"thoughts recorded during the spring going to august or taking minor to large walks through swedish forests feeling quite puzzled as what to do with my future trying in this respect to be more independent from the university environment and also undergoing sentimental crisis feeling however strong of my walks particularly around the area of the tullinge lake even while carrying my bike down a steep cliff but also thoughts recorded during a very refreshing easter vacation in sunny italy finally rediscovering the hills next to my parents' place where i used to paint"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #047

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"recording at last after a summer spent mostly with myrthe and august still however finding a few occasion to take a lonely walk and record my thinking escaping for example from a concert where i have been with myrthe's friends in the netherlands and then later having to wait to be back in sweden to be able to be alone and record my thoughts after biking to a lake and recording in the woods but also buying a new smartphone and replacing my old dictaphone with it to record a more crisp voice while walking through the island of djurg�rden and finding myself very at easy with the phone"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #048

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"recording mostly while in italy searching for a land in the amazing environment around the lake iseo where i took very long walks in the sun going from one village to another along the coast but also in the beautiful monte isola before finally finding a place in alps nearby my native highlands and taking solitary walks there in between having other guests over and really appreciating the sublime altitude and the sun while still reflecting on my human condition"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #049

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"recordings of thoughts mostly captured to begin with in my new mountain place in the alps enjoying the sublime solitude there and then doing a lot of audio recordings while in ireland mostly going to the wicklow mountains and then along the beautiful coast experiencing all sort of weathers and reflecting on my transitory situation to then again go back alone in my mountain shelter taking solitary walks there"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #050

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"recordings of my thoughts done still while in italy walking around alone in search for a nice location for my cathedral but later also while in sweden walking back and forth to my son and lastly during my trip to the united states taking long walks alone in mountain view by the bay next to all the big corporations"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #051

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"still recordings from california walking alone before actually meeting jacek and then recordings from my mountain shelter while having small breaks from being with others walking ahead of them in the pasubio mountains or exploring my new properties reaching them before sunset and at last recording in sweden taking advantage of nice days and walking in the forest behind august's apartment"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #052

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"recordings of thoughts accomplished while exploring the wide countryside and walking along the wild river next to our new house in culemborg reflecting on my situation of living in quasi-exiled particularly from a germanic academia and pushing my idea of autonomous systems and the crafting of more intuitive philosophical systems"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #053

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"recording accomplished walking up and down the river here in holland taking advantage of beautiful sunny days but also cold and windy reflecting on my situation now departed from sweden and academia finding at last some peace of mind and also recording while in sweden despite the cold there walking alone in the forest and to the supermarket"

 THOUGHTS: MONTH #054

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"thoughts recorded mostly in sweden walking around the forest behind august's apartment and the railroad to the beach now feeling quite at easy at last with all the world's transformations and power games feeling mostly immersed in my present without much expectations nor anxieties" 13109