DREAMS: MONTH #109
"dreams i wrote while traveling and therefore not so regular but i did manage to get some good nights dream at my mother's place and at jacek's place particularly influenced by being with my parents in my native mountains where i got into an avalanche accident and in poland where i was walking with wild dogs around and i went to dentist"
DREAMS: MONTH #110
"pretty good nights of sleep in my new apartment living alone now after the traveling down south which has still particularly a repercussion with all the german and polish cities and environments i dream of but also dreaming about my family and my native environment which i also recently visited not to mention that this very environment where i now live is also quite affecting me with all the immigrants and my fear of bringing my kid here nonetheless also dreaming of some new girlfriend or a new pretty and young girl to kiss aside from some ugly one which i make love to with much hesitation"
DREAMS: MONTH #111
"i have had regular night of sleep in my small studio which has now become more intimate and sound proof with finally a big door and all the renovation that i have started which has certainly affected my dreams as much as all the seminars i had to attend in the past month afraid of my philosophy professor assessment of my essays but also dreaming about my colleagues mostly girls from russia but particularly a swedish one with whom i get recurrent dreams in which we get affectionate which is rather the opposite feeling i am building up about my gambian black room mate lamin which i really dislike in my dreams when i meet him out at pubs and he looks so ugly also many were the dreams related to my family back in italy which i barely saw in the last months but i have talked to on the phone and the mountain avalanche experience seems coming back but not so traumatically despite the fear for ice out on the streets and lastly my relative old villa and the family seems to also come back in the picture with also my cousin cecilia who i start to confuse for my ex wife"
DREAMS: MONTH #112
"a bit hard to write down my dreams with all the traveling around and writing in my journal on the computer later in the evening which certainly erases a bit of juice from my subconscious but otherwise still manage to dream especially concerning my new relationship and maybe not really dreaming about myrthe yet but very related event with several making out events and things related to our experiences together but also with my parents and sister who i visit and her little kid anna and even beaver looking animals met on a walk"
DREAMS: MONTH #113
"a period of much traveling and not so much dreaming with all the temporary staying in america and the jet-lag and quite a bit of stress finally getting far more relaxed back home with myrthe coming to visit me and particularly me going to visit her and having most beautiful dreams but particularly very erotic ones with her after making up all the sleeping and letting go to all the stress around us concentrating on the two of us and making much love and just falling asleep right after also dreaming while with august but then watching involuntary a movie that turned out to be a horror stuff which caused much disturbance and we had to interrupt"
DREAMS: MONTH #114
"still quiet on the road and thus also have not so many dreams but with moments of high density like being home in sweden with my kid affected by my african roommate lamin who i have just kicked out but also resting very much with my girlfriend myrthe both in spain where i also met my italian family again and started dreaming about them but mostly in holland where i also had a few sexual dreams even one where i came and starting to have a few dreams about biking after biking again in the dutch countryside but mostly walking after long walks accomplished in england through the countryside where few animals has affected me too but above all the colleagues and the giving lectures which has badly affected me after the bad evaluations i got from the students"
DREAMS: MONTH #115
"it took me some time to compile this page of dreams traveling as i have been throughout the summer to many a places and we circumstances that had to adjust in my subconscious like my girlfriend who is coming more present and her country the netherlands together with the recurrent dreams about being at a campus or at a conference particularly with curators which in fact i did in england and even all the biking experiences i resumed this summer which affected some of my dreams at least in terms of places i have visited also now being in italy with my son to the beach and later to the mountains with my relatives which have gotten back together with some sexual dreams towards the end mostly with ugly girls on the screen even handicap which i have seen on the internet and kissing a girl who is taking more the shape of my girlfriend"
DREAMS: MONTH #116
"a proliferation of dreams now that i am not traveling and i have been very steady both in my swedish apartment and lately even in utrecht with possibly also a light sleep due to my back pains which has facilitated remembering of dreams that have been often reminiscences of my time in italy both at the sea side and on the mountains with many ones concerning both my girlfriend and son but also his mother and professors at the university with a few dreams also related to being going fast and being unable to move or being taken by a woman i don't like"
DREAMS: MONTH #117
"a very dream prolific month with a trip to berlin where my fear for punks and performers got me again after many years to explore the causes of my dreams and give an interpretation with photographic material about what daily event has affected those dreams i find more meaningful to explain and also keeping small general notes about the most emblematic characteristics of the month production noting how i dreamed quite recurrently about small kids such as my sister's small daughter and my girlfriend's small nephew also being affected now by a lot of videoconferencing with my parents and the latter but also dreaming much with my old son walking and rehearsing our weekend walks to forests and museums but also being on a bike unable to stop and the autumn landscape that comes with it particularly the lakes where is too cold now to swim but still dreaming about swimming there hugging my girlfriend as we would make love"
DREAMS: MONTH #118
"dreams written from the beginning while much traveling and yet being able to keep remembering my dreams like at my parents in italy being rather overtaken by a violent argument i had with a rich venetian woman and having a few dreams with violent content but also dreaming more often about myrthe and the way i exchange her for another girl and so also dreaming more frequently of my stepsister and her dog but turned into a dangerous one as well as fearing immigrants people in my apartment and even in bed with my son this after taking the metro with him and them to come here but also having nicer dreams with landscapes and hills despite the constant fear of my supervisor and the academic environment and also the influence of video conferencing with myrth at night and even with my biological father whom i have not talked to in years"
DREAMS: MONTH #119
"a quite troubled month with first the traveling to italy in and then all the distress caused by university situation which got me often awake in the middle of the night while beginning to dream but then getting better by watching movies with myrthe and latter august and starting not to think about work and getting a few sexual dreams being mostly afraid that myrthe has sex with others or that i make love to ugly girls mostly inspired by the movies we watched but also dreaming quite much about mountains and the native highland i have recently explored with also dreams regarding the selling of my grandparents' house there to which i am informed through my father in canada and several dreams fearing that i am forgetting to pick up my son or that i have abandoned him now that my future in sweden next him is very precarious"
DREAMS: MONTH #120
"very seldom dreams due to both the university situation with which i have been waking up instead of remembering my dreams and also due to all the traveling i did both with myrthe and jacek in northern italy but getting here more dreams about mountains and open spaces which i much lack in sweden been quite mostly indoor and in the dark"
DREAMS: MONTH #121
"a month with initially a lot of dreams but then getting quite affected to at last completely burnt out from traveling and particularly skype conversations with my father provoking a few violent dreams and myrthe with whom we also tried to make love on the distance but nonetheless being also affected by all the academic reading and writings and at last be able to get more wet in my head by biking a lot out with the new spring sun"
DREAMS: MONTH #122
"a month with some periods in which I could really have regular nights of sleep despite all the working late and traveling and now sleeping of mistaking my girlfriend for a blond girl and recurrently dreaming about the possible upcoming interview for a new job with my old english colleague but also dreaming of a suicide and several dreams inspired by the textures of the virtual environment i intend to create beside also the show room i am actually building and still feeling quite shocked about having myrthe's bag stolen with my camera and getting all the romanian gypsies i see in town quite much disturbing my psyche and feeling also inspired by the places i have recently visited like karlstad reminding me of asiago but also the last visit to my parents who got me quite frustrated with their cars and sick dog"
DREAMS: MONTH #123
"a month proliferating with dreams despite working hard which on my virtual world which in fact opened up my brain with a lot of visions bringing many dreams despite later being affected again by the university environment and another professor who did not want to pas an article i wrote and later still being very affected in my dreams of the virtual world i am programming and also by a clip i saw on the fighting in ukraine and even dreaming after flying back and forth to the netherlands being also quite inspired by some conversations i had a ta conference there about lucid dreams and now paying attention to have all parts of my brain open before going to bed trying to keep it flowing"
DREAMS: MONTH #124
"a month with regular dreaming despite a bit of moving around and also the time spent in front of the computer or watching films like avatar or building my own game but also feeling quite affected by the interviews and press coverage i got from different magazines as well as by august breaking his arm but also having quite a few sex related dreams with myrthe or again afraid to make love to the wrong girl and at last being affected by a boy scout camp and a rock concert"
DREAMS: MONTH #125
"a month with rather regular amount of dreams in the first place showing how bad i felt to be without august on vacation but then also showing my worries about losing flights as well as reflecting all the driving we did in italy alone and with my parents as well as the different apartments we have rented in the different historical cities which has also played an influence in my dreams as well as the fact that my laptop was stolen and i used my phone to typed for some type together with the expectation soon to receive an italian student who will believing in my apartment for half a year"
DREAMS: MONTH #126
"a month of dreaming still characterized by the sea side experience with some water related dreams and later affected by my new smart phone but particularly also with my attempt to use a mnemonic technique to structure my thesis by using by grandmother's family villa which affected also my dreams and later in sweden being also affected by commuting on the train and by using facebook getting reminded of some old classmates particularly in preparation of a wedding and lastly also getting dreams quite affected by my attempt to buy an agricultural property by a lake in the alps"
DREAMS: MONTH #127
"a period alternating many dreams and little dreams due to traveling but nonetheless having many dreams related to my new land in italy bringing back the landscape to my dreams as well as my parents and also having violent dreams due to a few times i went training karate at the university where i also got badly influenced from the working environment and also getting dreams related to my new car and the trips i made with it giving back a landscape to my dreaming and finally getting influenced from a few movies watched with my kid particularly animation movies making certain of my dreams bizarre"
DREAMS: MONTH #128
"a month with trouble sleeping and a lot of moving around but eventually at last having good dreams particularly related to my cottage and the surrounding alpine landscape but also quite inspired by movies I watched most of all with august and by the places where i slept like in the filthy studio that jacek rented me with some weird people also living there and myrthe new house in utrecht"
DREAMS: MONTH #129
"a winter month with a lot of movies watched affecting my imagination but also an intermediate period spent very much out in the alps getting back the mountain landscape but particularly the snow to then come back here in sweden and getting quite affected in my dreams by my new roommates and particularly a sicilian guy with which we talked a lot about his village"
DREAMS: MONTH #130
"very hard to have a regular night of sleep in the last period moving much around getting the irish landscape and the socializing i did in dublin while opening a new show in my dreams to then move in my mountain cottage and getting a lot of the landscape back in as well as the animals and the renovation i did therewith even a few rare sex dreams and dreaming only a little about my work and my supervisor but at last getting more dreams flowing talking to people at night like a dutch man passionate about italy and hearing his stories as much as meeting my american curator friend and watching in general several movies both with myrthe and with august getting many new characters in the dreams"
DREAMS: MONTH #131
"a period with a lot of exhibitions affecting quite much my dreams and getting me stressed to finish them but also feeling quite affected also of the new artist friends met while in germany and later also feeling quite affected by liselott new boyfriend taking up the role of the father now for august and finally going to the mountains and getting some landscape back in my dreams but also conflicts with my mother"
DREAMS: MONTH #132
"another month with far less dreams on average sleeping quite a lot with myrthe but then again with several trips particularly to the states getting violent dreams leaving in a dormitory of a scary neighborhood and feeling jealous of myrthe also in my dreams as well as reflecting my sexual frustrations but also the future uncertainties of having to move to the netherlands and having to leave my son with whom i spent a whole week"
DREAMS: MONTH #133
"finally taking it easy with traveling and only staying in my mountain shelter relaxing and dreaming at last beside the last period getting little sleep while with august due to a barn for sale nearby which really tempted me and eventually going more into sleeping while in the netherlands despite having the television affecting me there and particularly the new of many immigrants reaching the heart of europe"
DREAMS: MONTH #134
"dreams affected by all the arrangements made to purchase my land in the alps and also by the buying of myrthe's house but particularly by a lot of the news watched in the evening with images of the immigrants coming to europe and other programs showing freaks and also affecting my dreams but finally getting quite affected by a lot of the renovation work in myrthe's new house making me very physical and dreaming long also avoiding a lot of the phones and computers usually erasing my dreams as well as dreaming frequently about driving the car after the moving and the using often of my van in the evening traffic"
DREAMS: MONTH #135
"better nights sleep now with a proper bedroom both at august's place getting affected by some cheap soap operas with a lot of homosexual humor and then in the netherlands being strongly affected by my physical work renovating and particularly all my cement related work and my land in italy and the project i want to do there but also about all the terrorist attacks from the news"
DREAMS: MONTH #136
"some good nights of sleep and dreams while in our house in culemborg but then getting affected by a psycho film watched with myrthe and later by movies watched with august in sweden prior christmas now getting my head quite into my italian land and particularly the field i have been cleaning up from trees"
DREAMS: MONTH #137
"a month with regular dreams taking vitamins to relax my back still getting flashes about my property in the alps and then dream more frequently about my life up north getting quite affected by the news watched on the television in the evening but also the case-study i will have to soon do in the mountains"
DREAMS: MONTH #138
"a period started in the netherlands recovering my good sleeping patterns but still dreaming quite much about my italian property and feeling quite affected by television but then moving to italy to actually start renovating and taking along time to recover my good sleeping pattern facilitated by a bed heater softening my stiff back in the cold mountain nights"
DREAMS: MONTH #139
"a long period spent in the mountains renovating and being very influenced in my dream about all the plastering and stone setting but also feeling a bit nightmarish about a viper i killed and interrupted with my late morning dreams by the rooster every day despite watching no television and spending the last part of my time with my old friend davide now confusing him in my dreams with my polish friend jacek and my cousin"
DREAMS: MONTH #140
"a period of okay sleep feeling quite affected first by an important exhibition and the artists i met there and then by the movies i watched while in sweden and later going to the netherlands getting quite influenced in my dreams about myrthe's work related stress and finally being most influenced by all the carpentering in my barn in the alps"
DREAMS: MONTH #141
"pretty good dreaming in the mountains without having to travel much and with myrthe on my side making my sleep longer and having quite some renovation related dreams as well as about mountains and my neighbours there but also assimilating some of the bad news about terrorism and still dragging some memories from my museum show and at last having several car related dreams after a lot driving"
DREAMS: MONTH #142
"a period with an increasing amount of dreams at last able to relax and sleep deeply after the heard work in the mountains and getting quite affected at first from all the driving also on the way back to the netherlands and all the biking i did there but also about the thesis approaching and very much by the new cat we adopted which kept appearing in my dreams and lastly getting much affected by a period spent in august's empty apartment watching movies at night and getting quite much sex and violent content in my brain"
DREAMS: MONTH #143
"a good month with relatively good amount of dreams sleeping mostly in our dutch house having some nightmares mostly related to our new cat but also getting a good night sleep and many dreams while in uppsala waiting to meet august and getting quite influenced about him and going to swimming pool together but also feeling affected by a film watched with him and a murderer series watched with myrthe at also also dreaming extensively about my mountain place and the people there"
DREAMS: MONTH #144
"dreams influenced by my time spent in the netherlands still dreaming of the mountains and my neighbours there but also getting influenced by the movies watched particularly with august at the cinema and then traveling to india getting at first afraid of being attacked and then feeling affected by the atmosphere encountered in an ashram and the people there but also by my old time friend davide and all the hardship of buying bus tickets and withdrawing money during the demonetization of the country"