THOUGHTS: MONTH #217
"making some more recordings in the netherlands preparing for the crucial summer in italy still pursuing my will and that of my nature to complete the ark despite all the obstacles interposed by authority-obsessed individuals and in the end feeling quite in a crisis while in italy after actually completing the ark finding in the little time i had for myself during a brief stay at the seaside some strength in my thinking"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #218
"taking many walks in the mountains but mostly with my partner and children and friends having not really any moment to record my thoughts but on my way back recording my thoughts while in switzerland visiting my uncle and then again in holland having to readjust to our life there deprived of my children taking long lonely walks recovering my reflecting mode despite also trying to promote my ark announcing it to old acquaintances and on the internet"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #219
"fully back in the netherlands trying to keep up my life outdoors also so as not to fall depress and getting back to my flow of consciousness especially stimulated by my reading of essays critical of civilization and pairing them with my study of hunter-gatherers getting increasingly convinced of the on-going human tragedy under the yoke of progress"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #220
"feeling almost at home now with my renewed understanding that life can only resume returning to a paleolithic setup and more openly than ever talking out loud about civilization feeling at times awkward to do so right in the context of my village but managing to walk by the only remaining strip of wilderness by the river to be more open with my thinking"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #221
"marrying the primitivist cause feeling suddenly clearer in my thinking and seeking in my solitary walks to be in nature also however feeling much more sad and emphatic with a world and a humanity going more and more into a state of madness because of a profit and power oriented civilization"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #222
"really trying to improve myself taking very long walks almost daily not only embracing the hunter-gatherer model intellectually but also physically setting out in excursions that express my discontent with an increasingly toxic civilization on the verge of collapse while in fact enforcing myself and feeling st4ronger within especially with my reputation behind down to zero and no other way to express my feelings"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #223
"having a sudden moment of clarity with thoughts constantly flowing in my head also making sure to be more out in the wilderness feeling free to speak there without my usual blathering caused by my fear of having other people hearing me and in a way also finding that i reached the apex of my intellectual thinking with all the insights i am gathering studying how humans lived prior to the civilization that has pretty much been enforced on them"
THOUGHTS: MONTH #224
"still in a good period feeling very trained and ready to get my thoughts out as soon as i get on my daily walks but with the children on holiday recording less on my thinking to exclusively focus on them trying to get them as close to nature as possible prior to being kidnapped again by schooling system and later also feeling a bit altered by a lot of hours spent redesigning the kind of cathedral with which the whole of my project was generated trying there to consider how this urge of mine complies with all my advocating for autonomy and seeing in the cathedral a sort of act to detach from the centralization creating instead a local type of culture based on the engagement with the surroundings and the self"