EMOTIONS: MONTH #073
"a month feeling happy while in stockholm with both august and jacek around overcoming temporary depressions taking long walks and at last coming to the netherlands enjoying the warmer weather and finding pleasure in working but for a very dreadful day helping myrthe fetching old furniture around but nonetheless having enough of a big world around me to keep me busy and happy although not enjoying very much all the social obligations i had to attend with myrthe in the weekend"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #074
"a month started in sweden with stockholm feeling happy with august despite watching too much tv and a day with him feeling a little down but then going to italy and finding some pleasure finally working on my land although worrying a bit about myrthe getting a bit bored and getting too focused on cutting trees feeling not so well worrying that i will never make it to live there and getting in a little crisis coming back to stockholm with myrthe being often out but feeling playful and happy with august and also with jacek around"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #075
"a month to begin with feeling very split about where i belong going to the netherlands after sweden and italy and recovering by taking long walks but then getting sad about august not liking school and missing me and recovering my strength building crates for my prints and at last having some good deal of energy while in sweden playing with august and meeting refugees from syria"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #076
"a month with troubles started with august small rebellion about being with his mother and me trying to get her straight and less drawn into her work learning from the writings of seneca which also got to control my emotions and being very stoic in my week spent in italy emptying the barn of all the rotten floor and feeling happy there of its people at last feeling sad to leave the barn and coming to the netherlands where i anyway kept very active and found my happiness again not without some issues with myrthe and later having a very happy small vacation with august"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #077
"a memorable yet straining month doing a lot of physical work in my alpine barn bringing me in a rather stable emotional state reading regularly seneca and feeling strong within with some moments of delusions with the works never actually starting and again some issues with myrthe wanting to go to a festival but then spending a nice weekend together also in venice where my temper got high with the locals skipping queues at the ferry but then being a little crazy roaming the city without my parents and feeling happy of the fruit garden i planted despite all the elders keeping me under surveillance telling what not to do"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #078
"a month feeling frustrated of my split situation having to travel to sweden and there feeling quite fed up about brett but then happy with little august and then also happy to see the improvements with the barn in italy feeling much better to work alone without the carpenters but working too hard with some issues with myrthe getting overworked and liselott breaking up with her rich boyfriend then feeling better with the company of davide despite a fight with my old alcoholic neighbour forcing me to buy alcohol for her"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #079
"a period feeling quite happy in the mountains with davide and later myrthe although getting a bit stressed driving quite much and back in sweden feeling happy about getting things working although feeling nervous with liselott in the same apartment and happy to be in gothenburg mounting the exhibit but also tired"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #080
"a month started in sweden feeling quite overtaken but a big show in gothenburg with not really much coming out of it in terms of promotion and also feeling hurt by myrthe during a big rave concert there but then gaining happiness hanging out with a very fun british artist and back in stockholm getting quite bored and quite intolerant of the mass in liselott's apartment but happy about settling august in the countryside and checking out his new school there and at last having some nice days in the netherlands biking quite a lot and then in italy only working hard on my case-study"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #081
"a month being quite tight trying to finish the work in the barn for my case-study and later feeling quite distressed at myrthe's arrival but then being able to relax also with august around taking some proper days of vacation and also progressing in the barn feeling i can make it despite being completely alone"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #082
"a month struggling a lot having to finish the case-study for my thesis here in the mountains and then also to cope with myrthe and august not going very well to begin with nonetheless being able to take nice breaks during nice walks in the novegno and feeling relief after finishing to paint all the little museum set-up and opening it to the others"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #083
"spending some nice time with august doing a small holiday at the sea side in central italy but then going back to renovate and feeling quite bad about all the chemicals and dust till at last getting some nice walk with jacek and brett uplifting me and also traveling through france with myrthe and biking in holland only experiencing bad days there stuck in the house with bad weather or traveling too late at night to sweden"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #084
"a period having to get used to life indoor feeling quite hard to live alone in sweden but keeping up with a lot of walking and feeling happier with jacek around and then finding peace back in the netherlands with myrthe despite having not so good night sleep and getting moody during the day with possibly my stiff back behind all this"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #085
"a quite happy month spent in holland plastering the walls and feeling energetic beside the time spent reviewing my thesis losing quite some energy but also feeling happy in sweden leaving in hostels and walking a lot and having a good time with august in uppsala and getting also a lot of energy from my upcoming trip to india with davide"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #086
"a month feeling generally happy despite all the critic from the academic environment about my work feeling good about my nomadic life meeting good friends in the hostel in stockholm and spending a good time with august and later also in aarhus for a show meeting people as well as energizing myself with a long walk prior coming to india and feeling the excitement there spreading my energy to students but feeling quite depressed about all the pollution in the big city of bangalore at last escaping with davide the coast and feeling happy with him beside eating very little and losing much energy at times"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #087
"experiencing different mood in india first getting a bit down feeling captivated in the ashram of a big guru with many westerners full of mental problems but finally feeling relieve going to the ocean and swimming and walking despite the shortage of money and having little food to eat and sometime davide traveling with me being a bit negative but then being in tiruvannamalai and getting energized by our walks around the holy mountains there and later traveling to sweden feeling rather stable and giving a lot of energy to my students and to italy telling many nice stories of india to my parents and getting a bit moody readjusting with myrthe but at last getting a nice welcome from my mountain folk and a sunny winter weather"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #088
"feeling happy back in the sunny mountains but also sad about having to soon detach from it and frustrated not being able to do any work there during the christmas holiday but then getting help from myrthe and jacek cutting down some trees and later going to cold sweden feeling captivated and without august who skipped missing me for an evening but then happy spending a nice sunday with him walking in the frozen winter landscape and getting quite excited about the possibility to get more fields next to my future cathedral and being proposed more work at the university in sweden but also feeling quite frustrated back in the netherlands and slowly getting to like life there taking lonely walks and focusing on my work"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #089
"a month made a little difficult by the cold and gray winter weather and getting a bit frustrated by all the thesis correcting work and also by starting over the renovation of myrthe's house but also getting quite frustrated to commute to sweden and getting back pain there sleeping poorly in a hostel but nonetheless getting good energy from the plan of building my vestige in the alps and also by taking walks and starting to bike again"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #090
"a month getting refreshed doing a lot of movement with august and happy at first thinking about the expansion of the land around the cathedral but then turning down the negotiations and feeling much better also planning to build my nestle there with myrthe instead and feeling a bit low in energy while in cold and dark sweden but fixing a racing bike in the netherlands and getting much energy bike taking a long ride with myrthe"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #091
"a quite happy month unable to sleep so well to begin with but then getting stronger also with the work in the mountains preparing the field for my vestige and feeling shit there about old gianna getting drunk and beating poor miele but at last spending a nice time with my parents in venice and later feeling happy in sweden both working and with august doing walks in stockholm with nice weather and being most friendly to each other"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #092
"feeling happy driving down germany with myrthe and having some nice days in mainz but then coming to italy and getting little sleep and feeling undecided about the apartment as well as a bit frustrated at times being with my parents and getting better with myrthe around but at last getting very angry with old rino"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #093
"a month spent hanging out in sweden deciding whether to take a teaching offer or quitting it all together and following myrthe's advice to give it up and getting relieved but also at the same time feeling a bit depressed and stressed about commuting getting over it with work and socializing with people in the hostels where i have been and feeling once again happy getting back to biking in the netherlands"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #094
"a month being to begin with very nomadic sleeping in a tent in stockholm and feeling happy also with august and later socializing in the hostels despite a back pain and also happy of my doctorate dissertation and of leaving sweden altogether till at last feeling good about concentrating exclusively on my project alone in the netherlands but also getting frustrated to keep indoor and at time feeling also bored and sad of having to give up economic security in sweden despite the good news of myrthe getting pregnant"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #095
"a quite stressful month with much work to do renovating the venice apartment and sleeping quite little with the heat and the seagulls but then feeling better alone with august going to the beach and also hanging out with mary and louise and getting in an argument with myrthe with the internet hosting becoming very obstructive but at last finding a way to go to the mountains and recover emotionally"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #096
"feeling generally a bit nervous with myrthe's changing moods do to the pregnancy but feeling very happy with my sister's family and the contrada people celebrating my birthday and later feeling frustrated unable to do any work and quite fed up with venice but at last managing to do progress both in the mountains barn and up in the vestige removing at least my nervousness"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #097
"a month feeling initially influenced by myrthe pregnancy related moods and then at last getting a bit better with the food and the social life of ferragosto in the contrada and getting a bit depressed and sad of not knowing what to do with the tractor but at last getting a full stable period working hard under the sun building a shed for the tractor and working on the foundation of my cathedral"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #098
"a period spent mostly indoor after the summer outside in the sunny mountains and feeling energetic to concentrate on my work and of preparing the house happy to know we will get a small girl and happy to prepare for my presentation of my cathedral to the schio municipality although at times feeling bad about my back being stiff and the continuous bad weather making it hard to walk or bike"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #099
"a month feeling quite fed up of the gray dutch weather and finally going to sunny italy but feeling very bad about the bad reviews that my turkish guy taking care of the apartment generated and then feeling much better walking in the mountains and later traveling back to the netherlands first stopping at florian and then through germany and in the netherlands feeling only very happy of the prospect to move to the mountains"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #100
"a period feeling not so good in holland with constant bad weather and isolation but then trying to keep up exercising and feeling good about it also with the italy prospect and the building of the prototype to show the italian authorities and at last going to italy feeling very good and talkative while with my parents in venice and later happy about the good reception of my project by the authorities"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #101
"a period feeling quite distressed of all the bad weather in the netherlands and getting better walking extensively in the city of amersfoort and later working hard both in italy and in the attic back in holland to build a room for august returning later in santa caterina taking some time to get back in the hard working wood and enjoying cutting wood outside feeling however quite upset about jacek's thesis replicating my own without any acknowledgment and back in holland once again feeling quite horrified of the weather till at last a day of sun came to the rescue"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #102
"a period feeling very happy with august on my side during christmas holiday in the netherlands only feeling a bit down after his departure and facing myrthe anxieties for the pregnancy soon however turned into good and harmonious living despite the constantly gray weather"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #103
"a period feeling quite isolated and forgotten with the plan to move to italy becoming almost impossible and only feeling a bit happy with our friends visiting us and their kids and finally being able to concentrate on my project and regulating the use of internet to check for news on especially the progress with the mountain installation"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #104
"a very happy month with livia been born and august coming over spending some sunny winter days all together and doing a lot of outdoor walking and even biking with some progress in italy and also selling my swedish apartment feeling happy about it but still feeling completely isolated despite my intense work on my project"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #105
"a period feeling not so happy particularly with my mountain neighbour's daughter coming to visit and requiring a lot of attention and simply making me in doubt of moving to italy and later also getting affected by livia walking up in the night but also letting me sleep some nights and feeling a bit better also finding joy in my work and realizing i can start building the cathedral in pieces here in holland"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #106
"feeling happy about traveling by car with my family though germany but then feeling a little lost in italy and frustrated about being cut out with no more international recognition about my work and no one locally willing to help but then slowly focusing on my work in the forest and gaining strength and also getting help spending nice days cutting trees below the cathedral"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #107
"a month feeling at last exhausted about the heavy work in the mountains with people spying and judging it and also feeling quite distressed back in the netherlands with not really an aim for my work only feeling relief walking around with little livia and receiving friends for myrthe's birthday playing much with the kids"
EMOTIONS: MONTH #108
"a period feeling quite happy about being able to build my project welding in my new workshop although having doubts as to where set it up and also feeling happy with livia now drinking the bottle and spending nice days with her to finally spend some great happy days with august traveling through france"