12_039: "an amazing amount of walking alone mostly from the metro station to my kid and his mother's flat in the wealthy part of town but also some exploring and recording of the run down industrial area where i am now moving and thus reflecting on this change also quite affected in may thinking by all my academic readings after a lecture in örebro university in the inland of sweden where i have also took a long night walk to the city now that i am more independent but also have far less securities and my future has not really any reference point"

18_037: "much time spent outside in nature mostly walking and thus much wind experinced aside for some days indoor and yet very mighty wind except for the one experienced in a small university town in the inland of the country where it was in fact quite powerful"

03_054: "listening allot of new music like while driving in the car or partying with friends in a few instances using the internet to play revolutionary songs but mostly the songs came from a trip on a russian cruise where popular songs from the last two deccades were constantly being played in corridors, waiting halls but also bathrooms, some songs also were recognized from street musicians like a russian jazz band playing american hits and two gypsies playing old italian hits"

01_107: "the last period spent united with my family although silence has fallen between me and my now ex wife thus a paralysis of activities in the apartment despite I have still kept up with my digital archiving and much walking outside but also the building of a bed out of a door frame and on one occasion an escursion out with my kid with lighting of fire and barbecueing, aside from that back and forth to the university with the many transportations but also a few days in an other university the inland"

02_108: "a big shift now that after ten years since the very beginning of the project i have separeted from my swedish girl and went to live in the suburbs thus dreaming several times about my new place, about different girls, potential new girlfriends but also much time spent commuting and thus several train based dreams with some fear about the actual suburb where i have moved that has a bad reputation for immigrant crime, some dreams related to university assignments and supervisors but also a bit of dreaming about my soon christmas holiday at my parents and in poland with jacek and some birds related dreams influenced by my fable writings and at last some influence from my new black room-mate from talking allot about his motherland gambia"

07_048: "leaving sweden after a party in the countryside where i met the girlfriend of a guy who used to come to my school in italy and then setting off to kaliningrad in russia meeting an egyptian guy also going to russia as is swedish working visa was expiring and then right in russia meeting some art curators one with rumanian roots and the other with german all being rilocated by the soviets to this non-land and then conducting a workshops with teenagers from the eastern block, a rather nice a diplomatic estonian and a girl from moskow but particularly a very nice girl from the northern karelia who spent a year in the united states and was much diplomatic but also much charming taking actor classes"

10_067: "right back from the russian trip now taking walks around the city and the suburbs where my kid leaves which i am about to leave for an industrial suburb down south which i also explore particularly when the snow comes and i take advantage of some beautiful days in which i also walk long distances to save money and get into some nice landscapes like a winter lake where i used to take my kid"

08_073: "in the old german prussia, now russian kalingrad doing a workshop and walking quite allot but really find quite little on the sidewalk aside for the city center and at night before the matrioska (old russian women with a handcarchief on their head) goes out and sweep the sidewalks, from prussia then going for a week to my native highland in the alps and picking a bit of trash in the touristic village to then return to sweden in our new apartment in a well-off island with really no much trash aside for the one i pick going to visit jacek in the center of town"

08_074: "still in sweden picking very little trash now that we live in the suburbs yet picking some when going downtown to rent movies at the library but then also finding a bit of trash during a boat trip around the baltic in tallin and saint petersburg and helsinki, this despite the much snow which has really deteriorated the little i have found"

09_062: "the conflict continues in the middle east and particularly syria although between the rebels and the dictator's army although the media no longer put much attention on it, but on other casualties again striking the much hit philippines but also central america and other minor accidents in third world countries but particularly a fire in bangladesh killing many hundreds workers"

14_041: "now that i have moved to a new place in the southern suburbs several were the walks checking out the neighbourhood in minus degrees with frozen landscape and expecially walking down the center of the town by the river, not to mention some evening walking to buy some grocery in the middle of town and then go to the station where to visit my kid in the nort of stockholm several times a week, including few weeks with no money and trying to walk as much as possible, avoiding the public transport and enjoying the polar weather, thus also walking very long along rivers and bridges to save a few crowns also while carrying presents to my kid like new skies and shoes, ending up at last in a conference in copenhagen where i took a pilgrimage to the mermaid crossing the whole town from the central station and back, then also visiting an art museum in the country and exploring the shore despite all the rain and humidity and finally with some colombian friends taking me for a walk to an anarchist island in the city"

18_038: "minus degrees but rather settled weather to which i have been exposed quite much in my outdoor walking except a day spent at home with a very strong wind outside bringing a powerful snow storm"

16_042: "a strong setting in of the winter with the first snow turning the landscape all white and keeping up for several days with eventually a few all blue days and sunny and minus degrees much reminding me of my native alps despite the snow being very dry and the weather at times getting warmer but then going back to something they here call wolf winter from which i took a fre days break by coming to the rainy and far more humid denmark for a conference where the snow has quickly melted"

07_026: "still unemployed and taking my kid on nice walks by the lake where occasional clouds comes despite the very nice autumn and some clouds also while working on my vegetable land at his grandparents' farm, still imagining allot of flying birds as birds indeed in this season are migrating away from the approaching winter"

05_037: "the character of this fable is based in venice and her longing for the mountains is actually my longing to my native alps from which i try to return after the failed swedish experience with my ex wife, their feminist obsession with masculinity, the whiteness also increased by the recent snow and the blackness really much represented by my new black room mate from gambia"

04_032: "rather pure air despite the fact that i am now living in a more industrial part of town and have in the last month covered big distances on foot but the cold and nice weather has kept the air rather clean apart for some time spent in copenhagen with much polluted traffic and people smoking everywhere and then another period in italy having to walk from the airport to bergamo with quite a big load of traffic but then again bein up the alps and breath pure air particularly at very high altitudes like over two thousand meters with much thin air"

15_032: "a period pierced by strong sadness, first in denmark after presenting my work and feeling rather missunderstood and then with my kid celebrating christmas alone prior departing from one another but then some good time spent with jacek hiking up the dolomites with thrill of being sucked in an avalanche which gave us much to talk about and was really rinvigorating and then home at my parents in the alps feeling rather okay but sometime a bit oppressed by the family environment spiced up by joyous relatives' dinners"

09_063: "still more bombs and explosions in the middle east but also some crazy man shooting in usa and switzerland with a few accidents in the alps"

01_108: "in my newly bought apartment now shared with lamin setting up first a room for him with a double bed then improoving a bit my own but mostly fixing up things without really spending much money and already paint up the room with the stuff i wish to produce otherwise being at the university despite not having any money to afford the metro ticket and having to walk long distances also to stay with my kid and do a little bit of renovation in her mother's apartment till i left for a small conference in cophenaghen and explored allot the city doing my archival projects to then seat for hours on at the boring conference feeling rather depressed but then going to italy driving quite much around the alps with jacek and then staying with my parents in my native mountains doing quite some crosscountry ski with my stepfather and finally joining jacek in poland where i started editing allot of the accumulated video materialbut also explored and ending up at the boarder with check republic with his friends playing games, drawing and cooking with them"

07_058: "in krakow with jacek and with his friends to the mountains for new years eve getting to know them all quite much in the music scene playing in bands like maci and lukas who got really to like my project and lukas' girl olla who speaks fluent swedish but then also meeting many of jacek's cousins like anya with whom i taught italian lessons at her school finding her really quite enthusiast and her athlete boyfriend with whom i might launch a commercial Website and his warsaw cousin who was into a tv channel of some sort but more introvert then also getting to know an huruguaian girl escaping from sweden and keeping it in the more affordable poland and at last martina the experimental musician really cool indeed collecting sounds in the city till late at night."

18_039: "a month spent all traveling to denmark and then to my alps and then poland thus being quite exposed to the wind in all the outdoor excursions despite it no being so powerful but once walking up a small mountain the checz rebublic with the wind blowing throw the trees at various intensities and up a mound in krakow"

14_042: "walking to catch a bus in the middle of the night corssing the industrial area where i live and then in italy having no money and walking from the bergamo airport to the station to then join jacek and walk him all around my parents' city of vicenza even up the hills at night and then in the dolomites on the high snow trying to reach some lakes but finally causing an avalnche and almost dying but then just simple walks also with my parents in my native highland down to asiago center and finally to krakow where despite my left knee hurting jacek took my on a long pilgrimage to a monastery by the big river but also across hills with wild dogs and finally some walking in the suddetic small mountains in the checz republic and much walking in the latter part up and down and across krakow to come back from the dentist in nowa hut and across desolated concentration camps coming back from a high school where i thaught italian and then much walking to meet people and produce work for an upcoming exhibition including much getting lost in the city center with its surrounding looking pretty much the same and disorienting me"

16_043: "in the icy cold yet dry sweden but then going down to italy finding snow but rather sunny and warm weather with some very nice days in the mountains but then some more cloudy ones in my native highlands always followed by sun though and then also find almost a spring weather in krakow in the checz rebublic followed by a much chillier weather with the temperature dropping below zero and much cloudy and snowy weather"

02_109: "dreams i wrote while traveling and therefore not so regular but i did manage to get some good nights dream at my mother's place and at jacek's place particularly influenced by being with my parents in my native mountains where i got into an avalanche accident and in poland where i was walking with wild dogs around and i went to dentist"

10_068: "filming in the emancipated suburbs of stockholm with the snow and then many filming all through the city of kopenhagen from the station to the harbour to then go to italy and film from the bergamo airport to the city and then my parents' city of vicenza and up on the dolomites with jacek where we were had an avalnche accident and in the beautiful south tirol filming in the gorgeous village of castelrotto and in bolzano at night to then go to a small village on the garda lake and back up to my parents in my natuve alps of the asiago highland where i had fewer chances of filming due to the crosscountry skies i used when being with my stepfather"

10_069: "more filming in my native highland of asiago and also in the village itself to then go to krakow and fining a very nice spring-like weather to film on our way to a monastery along the main river and also in a small new year's eve journey to the sudetic mountains at the border with poland but also visiting and filming many destituted town around each boarder when finally the real winter sets in a film on my way to business in krakow ending up in desolated suburbs and even a concentration camp otherwise filming in the beautiful historical center and the big main square"

07_049: "in prussia, meaning the most west russia or better the very isolated kaliningrad facilitating a worksho with students from all over russia and there meeting very interesting people like on a bus a guy from kazakistan now working as a nurse in germany and a very intelligent moskow guy which might have actually worked as an infiltrator and new otherwise quite much about opera but then also meeting the swedish facilitators like a half estonian guy looking and reasoning much like an aristocrat and a nice gilr from skåne who was quite talented with crafting things but got quite wasted on cigarettes and alchool and a polish young architect and a straight forward ukrainian girl who was also about to start her doctorate and had not so much nice views of sweden and the tasteless food there"

03_055: "much eighties and nineties hits heard on the corridors and in the bathrooms and in the hallways and shops of a russian cruise during a last trip with my ex wife and son to then be rather isolated and musicless for sometime other than gipsies street musicians also dressing up like santa claus and playing christmas songs or a choir in kopenhagen singing the usual santa lucia but then also in the alps in italy hearing christmas music broadcasted in the square of a beautiful small town"

12_040: "still reflecting on my recent trauma concerning the separation with my wife while now walking many a miles to reach my son having no money for the metro ticket but also now starting to walk and reflect about my new condition in the deep industrial and emencipated south of the city yet very solar and nice but also recording myself on few occasions in my native mountains where i could barely be alone with all the friends and relatives and later also some recordings in krakow crossing through portions of the soviet like suburbs and eventually ending up in a totally desolated concentration camp feeling deeply the horrible effect of all political regimes"

04_033: "a period characterized by much polution inhaled first on my trip over christmas down to the north of italy landing in bergamo and walking to the center from the airport inhaling much exhaustion gases and then also in my parents city taking jacek around and still breathing quite a bit of the traffic but then finally some fresh air up in the mountains from which i left to go to southern poland and find a totally stgnant air fully condensed with coal still used from soviet times to warm up many houses in the slightly depressed plateau where krakow lays and thus getting to breath that bad air with jacek really wanting to reach a monastery out of the city outskirt but then going to a much cleaner location in the small mountains of the alsazaia region to then get back to krakow where the wind has blown and the real winter has sat in leaving a cleaner air yet still having a times to avoid the city traffic by walking from jacek's house to the center by the big river but at last coming to the totally fresh but icy cold air of sweden"

13_028: "a painting started in the summer in my ex wife parent's farm in the house i have rennovated among all sort of furnitures and boxes packed in the dining room awaiting to be moved to our new apartment yet being unable to complete the painting in such caotic conditions and with all the demands set on me from my ex wife's family and all the work required from them to clean up the attic of much of their trash but finally having to wait to move to my new studio/apartment and there at last being able to paint over the details of this painting which again shows this dropping mass over a more colorful background and a flouruscent spot which should be behind the mass but comes out with its irradiation plus a obliquos cut which is some sort of grass mountain like terrain over a more burning like sky in a diagonla which is more of descendence than a ascendence"

17_027: "unemployed and in the stockholm suburbs with much time spent with my kid out walking around big body of water in the autumn and observing clouds from over small clifts and reflected in the very lake where i also go often to run and get affected with many birds and aquatic creatures in my subconscious imagination but also many guns maybe due to the movies i rent occasionaly or the russian literature teeling of duels i read"

15_033: "a rather happy month with very little moments of low energy despite the fact that it is my first christmas holiday without my wife and kid but really now having most glorious days with jacek and his friends after all the readjustments of my trip to poland and then a rather quiet week runnig around printing my works in krakow and eventually also having a good time with other friends but finally feeling rather exhausted of social life particularly on my way back to sweden and to academia where really i hav trying to be alone and finally found peace in all the philosophical readings for my new courses"

03_056: "songs heard from the beginning from my mother who was singing in our family mountain cabin to my sister small kid and then songs mostly heard while in poland with jacek's friends celebrating new years eve in a cabin on the hills and singing together in the kitchen or down in the basement dancing old hits and then on the car trip back to krakow but also in krakow at various cafés and with jacek's cousin the italian school teacher with whom we listened to many italian oldies i almost forgot about and were a new entry in my record of songs despite they have marked an age in my childhood but also songs we children son we sung with her students and then back to sweden hearing songs from the radio now while training in the university gym"

11_069: "in the beautiful andalucia getting inspired by the mountains and sea landscape, the churches but also by the time spent driving and on the airplane to then go back in our country house in sweden where i felt rather frustrated manifesting this through several pornographic ideas but also surrounded by the nature such as the cows and the insects and the golf players typical of the place not to mention the forest where i have attempted to camp"

11_070: "in the old prussia getting inspired by the soviet cities but particularly again of all the flight and airplanes i had to take to then reach my native alps and getting many ideas there from the natural landscape but also in a roller coaster theme park where i spent the day with my son and his mother to then spend a day on an hot beach of lake garda getting quite some ideas there with all the people sun bathing and from there back to the less inspiring life in sweden where the harvest time had come"

09_064: "more inregular now my checking of the news since i don't have an internet connection in my studio/apartment yet checking it at work and also hearing about for instance the disco fire killing hundreds on the metro but also on a public television where the french intervention in mali was broadcasted aside from it the usual terror attacks in the middle east making few casualties"

05_038: "a fable conceived in the attic of jacek's father tedeus in krekow while being sorrounded by many of his religious figures and crosses and all the still alive religion experienced in churches and monasteries still alive with monks and nuns describing this bird which is orange like the ones i used to experience in north america but then also changes colors picking different new meanings like that of buddhist monk to that of a japanes emperor where he becomes the red sun himself and later refiguring the japanese second war world push towards america and the bomb picked like a mushroom by a god turned to a devil which contrary to the legend reaquire his divine state by falling rather than becoming lucifer and at last the story connects back to the beginning with the crucifictions of his sons angels devils and the use of the crosses as paddles to finally reach the easter island where easter can be ultimated"

01_109: "in krakow almost half of the first month in jacek's family house feeling a bit frustrated of too much socializing and thus setting off doing grocery and cooking and washing my clothes but also making myself look nice but then turning hard into my project and production of my first drawing books spending much time at the print shop fixing up files with my own laptop and preparing models of a long banner of faces for a possible exhibition prior moving back to stockholm where i also there do grocery and cooking for my kid and start commuting quite allot using the blue card to access the public transport but also now using much my phone to annotate not only ideas but things i find interesting in the many texts i have to read which i try to compensate now getting back to my usual routine of also analogue producing my drawings and the painting i did not accomplish for long after traveling anyhow ending up doing quite many office routines like printing and stapling and organizing the mass of papers from the various mendatory courses"

16_044: "leaving the humid and cloudy continental europe to find extremely bright weather in stockholm with the temperature going well below zero and reaching also far below with totally brigh skies followed by a period of warmer temperature going over zero degrees and bringing clouds and shitty weather but then eventually at last getting cold and very bright again"

18_040: "with the temperatures far below zero almost no wid perceived except for a short period of a warm southern wind which has soon being replaced once again by colder weather and absolutely almost no wind"

14_043: "after all the walking during the winter holidays and in krakow where I was mostly going from meeting to meeting and considering the problem of my left knee i walked considerably less this month also beacuse of the very cold weather and the flu but did manage to walk to do grocery for my kid and his mother on the mall along the rail road and took my kid a couple of times in the city mostly aroun a park where i used to take him when he was little but also did manage to walk at last on a beautiful day on a frozen lake and make it on top of a small mountain there"

13_029: "a painting conceived in my new apartment studio now that the situation has been stabilized and i no longer have to put my painting in process away but can leave it hanging on the wall and thus finnally i was able to paint with the board standing vertically as i have always wished since it is in this position that the outcome of the project, the resulting drapes are meant to be shown meantime i also have been working more on mixing different colour in the same background and rather simplifing the palette of the layers interlacing eachother resulting inonly four main ones which again shift slightly in tonality having myself work harder on giving them different nuances"

02_110: "pretty good nights of sleep in my new apartment living alone now after the traveling down south which has still perticularly a repercussion with all the german and polish cities and environments i dream of but also dreaming about my family and my native environment which i also recently visited not to mention that this very environment where i no live is also quite affective with all the imigrants and my fear of bringing my kid here nonetheless also dreaming of some new girlfriend or a new pretty and young girl to kiss aside from some ugly one which i make love to with much hesitation"

07_050: "at the sea side in kalingrad living in a old german town by the beach and meeting up with more workshop facilitator from sweden but also a drunk russian man celebrating a wedding in the hotel and a group of activists doing interventions in an old forest that is doomed to be cut down and here also meeting a dutch artist specialized in forestry and also a professor of my old american jewish girlfriend"

04_034: "quite good air quality although i mostly kept indoor apart for a sunny weekend and some cloudy days spent more in the city roaming with my kid and going through a bit of the city traffic"

15_034: "some pretty nice days alone outside in the sun walking and feeling most good but also some low energy days going to work and then be in my ex apartment attending to her house and my kid with whom i also had some very nice escursions in the city and some nice time even here in the south of town walking and also quite nice moments meeting up with old friends going to perfoemances and even doing a performance with goralski whihc brought some energy despite the depressing gray winter weather"

09_065: "beside still fighting in syria and bombing in other parts of the middle east there were quite a few blasts mostly in asia and a small insurection in thailand but also one small tsunami in the solomon islands making a few casualties as much as a few casualties made in belgium with an air crash which i read of scatterly once again not having an internet connection at home but mostly using the computer in my office at the university"

05_039: "an albrecht durer inspired story after talking much in class about medieval art from the north and south of italy not mentioning the obvious ambiguities but also inspired by joseph beyus performance holding a dead hare thus set in south of germany but then having the hare turned into a playboy bunny to then connected to romeo and juliet story with the hair of the hare growing and from there and the speed of the hare catcing up with time connecting with the romolo and remo legend and the founding of rome and the wolf who fed them and the centaurs which at the end of the story turned out inverted and fullfiling a reversed oedipus complex of killing their mother and fucking their fathers"

17_028: "still unemployed and in stockholm looking after my kid and talking walks and running and there mostly by the lake experiencing the clouds which i also reflect much on the dogs that people often take to walk there but have also many horses which we see going by a stable and women and dinosaurs probably from films"

06_025: "a rather hard section of jogging with the winter on the way and the snow and at first a very cold weather which allowed me to run on the parking lot of an abandoned warehouse in front of my nw apartment but then with the ice and the melting snow i did went out to run once and felt a bit of a fever and concentrated to train indoor at the university jym instead where i finally discovered a step machine which i started using for my running as it does not have a motor and i can increase and decrease the speed every twohundred meters although it doesn't not allow me to go either too slow or too fast giving then rather moderate values"

14_044: "despite the winter being at its peak i started my major hiking experiencing once more with my left knee not bothering me so much and with all i have to seat or stand otherwise at work and on the metro then from the beginning i took a major walk from nearby the university across a frozen lake and many suburbs and forest and across another lake which brought me to a immigrant ugly suburb yet beautifully located and then many a walk otherwise with my kid from the north part of town where the commuter rail station is and to the south part where the station to my commuter rail is but also a nice walk with him to åsmund's birthaday discovering intuitively a very nice passage by the rail road to the south of town and then a beautiful panoramic path along the cost walking all along also in the evening with the snow fall and then also walking with august again for small different commissions with a rented car in outside shopping malls and back from the metro station to his mother's place from where at last with a first day of spring i have walked all the way back to the city for hours across the still frozen small and big lakes"

16_046: "a no longer so cold weather with the temperature oscillating around zero and then no longer the bright icy days of january but a constant homogenous cloudness which has lasted almost throughout all the period but the very end when at last there has been very sunny days and a sudden warmth making everything so pleasent and nice as an early sign of spring with all the snow now melting away and far longer days, turning everything more tollerable"

18_041: "an unusual period with very little wind once again probably due to the cold winter season which has however brought in a warm wind in the end and slightly stronger wind which i experience on my way to the university on top of a hill and yet again very little wind considering all the time i have spent out also with my kid"

12_041: "a more scattered possibility of recording with my head filled up with notions at school and the weather which none the less offered a couple of beautiful weekends where i have been out taking major walks across the frozen lakes and inevitably the better off suburbs where my kid lives with his mother after our separation of which i don't really think about anymore in my reflections but rather still perceive the social enslavement and a desire for a sublime nature"

01_110: "a period started with a rediscovering of the pleasure of solitude and quite an enforcement by going out like a hunter living in the extreme yet bright nature lighting fires and cooking but then much routing stuff and gray weather at the university and to my son's place where i often sleep over and we try to do things in the captivations of the small apartment such as building a shelf till at last i made up my mind about all these savings and spent them to restructure my apartment so that i can only live in my room and rent out the rest thus we went getting all the wood and bathroom and kitchen stuff to rebuild my room and a separation wall with doors but also not forgetting my showroom of my exhibition which i then start assembling doing much final work and breaking with the inertia of to much intellectualizing at the university"

02_111: "i have had regular night of sleep in my small studio which has now become more intimate and sound proof with finally a big door and all the rennovation that i have started which has certainly affected my dreams as much as all the seminars i had to attend in the past month afrai of my philosophy professor assessment of my essays but also dreaming about my colleagues mostly girls from russia but particularly a swedish one with whom i get recurrent dreams in which we get affectionate which is rather the opposite feeling i am building up about my gambian black room mate lamin which i really dislike in my dreams when i meet him out at pubs and he looks so ugly also many were the dreams related to my family back in italy which i barely saw in the last months but i have talked to on the phone and the mountain avalanche experience seems coming back but not so trumatically despite the fear for ice out on the streets and lastly my relative old villa and the family seems to also come back in the picture with also my cousin cecilia who i start to confuse for my ex wife"

07_051: "on my way back to sweden after kalingrad and a time in my native mountains with absolutely no new acquaintences just old ones but then in sweden at the party meeting many new friends like the girlfriend of my colombian student ivan and another latina girl from mexico with some northern italian origins who i felt a bit attracted to and then a nice italian guy and his barcelona friend working for the internet music provider spotify to at last start my new work at the university and photographing a full of hope guy studying to be an actor but not really getting too much acquainted with my new colleagues with whom i keep a professional distance"

15_035: "a period with some beautiful spring day and much time spent with my son having a good time resuming our small adventures but also a bit of frustrating time in his mother house hold waiting for her for the pick up and much frustrating time having to attend useless seminars with much of a beautiful weather outside but then also having nice evening at times socializing with my colleagues beside some moments of sadness particularly after baby seating my son and commuting back to my studio apartment where i have been working allot building which made me quite happy but also quite overworked and finally taking big walks alone or with my kid out in the surrounding nature increasing the energy level"

17_029: "still in the city and unemployed taking my kid around for walks along the water or alone by the water stopping at the lake on my way to jacek and observing the clouds and detecting many acquatic things like birds and also dog and horseswhich correspond much to what i actually see"

09_066: "i manage to check the news regularly even though i don't have an internet connection at home and have to do it in the office but nonetheless many are still the casualties in the syrian civil war and stillcar bombs in the middle east but also executions and chemical attacks and a bus accident killing forty in india"

14_045: "quite much walking alone exploring the neighborhood in my now solitary weekends without my kid but also with him going back to my previous discoveries crossing the bridge to the opposite coasts and also walking with him still across the botanic garden still frozen lake and over a small mountain where i used to take him many years ago and through a cemetery and roads but then finally walking quite allot in berlin to because of a conference and rebelling to the idea of seating walking a long way from the hostel to the house of culture and to the city but also through the nice tiergrten despite the harsh winter conditions"

16_046: "very sunny weather with the snow starting to melt from the beginning and the temperature increasing again but then getting cold and snowy only for some days till the weather got sunny but the temperature did not really increase and it was very cold in berlin when i went for a conference and it was snowy and the wind was blowing through the clothes but finally also there the sun came"

18_042: "with the increasing of the temperature and the approaching of the spring there has been much more wind experienced also quite allot in the city and in the forest where i have been taking many walks but then also very little wind as the temperature got down agin and much wind again in berlin where it was actually colder with a terrible cold wind probalbly coming in from russia"

05_040: "a story written while on a nice week vacation with my kid alone going to bed with him and writing on this louse which as spread in his school but also bein affected by playing with the snow with my kid and his black little friend and a penitentiary i found walking on the other side of the river but much of the dandruff i also get in my hairs using an expensive shampoo at the gym at work which also might indicate a reawake ofmy libido now with the spring after a period os solitude and hibernation"

10_070: "in cracow going to town to organize a small exhibitions and try to publish some of my work despite the harsh weather and also much walking to the suburbs to go to the dentist or helping jacek cousin teachin italian and confronting with the harsh reality of the soviet regime with all its ugly residential and industrial buildings and even the short nazi regime finding a totally desolated concentration camp by a very spiritual site with an ancient burial mound to then later in sweden find an amazing frozen landscape which i explore in several walks alone but also with august filming much on frozen lakes also during a walk alone which took me to another immigrant suburb"

10_071: "in sweden still taking walks in the frozen landscape and filming as it was some sort of dutch landscape painting but less animated with fewer iceskaters venturing out and on top of it finding some nice new panormaic parts of stockholm with little august to later go to a conference in berlin and escape whenever i could to go our and film the city but ultimately falling in love with the tiergarden landscape and a strip of the city by the river which i often crossed on my way to the conference hall"

06_026: "now running quite regularly in a step machine in the gym waiting for the ice to melt oudside and getting a time a bit distracted by the music being playing at the readio or by the other doctorate girl training and really not being able to go full speed as the machine starts moving around getting quite dangerous but at last finding the parking lot by my apartment almost without ice and making use of the nice weather to go run again feeling in fact quite fit aside from all the seating and standing which gets a bit painfulf for my knees"

08_075: "picking of trash executed from the beginning in the city of stockholm with much snow also in copenaghen where i have been picking during a long pilgrimage to the mermaid despite again the wet and snow which has affected many of the collected stuff but then also walking from the airport to the ctiy in bergamo without any cash and there finding allot of trash dirty under the melted snow"

04_036: "time spent in bigger cities like berlin finding it particularly clean with some traffic but a bit more suffocating being back in the southern suburb of stockholm with a still air and again the nearby truck factory and the highway but then also going back to my parents in northern italy and finding there even more polluted air with many cars and conjestion around the old city center to finally going to visit my girlfriend in the netherlands and again find a rather clean air with moderate traffic outside of the pedestrian city center where anyway there are predominantly bikers"

08_076: "trash collected on the sidewalk in bergamo italy with much immigrants and dirt towards the train station and then in krakow finding not so much trash and then having to pick it from the snow mostly towards the center consisting of flyers of not so good a quality even just photocopies and finally the more solid trash collected in sweden also in the sidewalk covered with snow"

08_077: "still in sweden collecting trash mostly in the small immigrant suburb where i live and then in berlin for a conference picking despite again the snow and cold weather and the fact that it was hard to find time to walk alone or having to pick with other people around avoiding to loose dignity but anyway picking nonetheless particularly on a sunny day going to galleries with some south african girls"

15_036: "feeling rather happy throughout this period of time being much engaged with social activities like a student conference in berlin where i also on the other hand started feeling rather upset about people in general but finally and most unspectedly falling in love with myrthe in the very last day a few hours before my departure back to sweden and then being much engaged with her in our emotional affair and feeling rather hopeful for that with few moment of sadness and being most happy when being at my parents in italy although their mentality is rather oppressive but this looking forward the meeting of my love in the netherlands where we had a fantastic time and the happiness carried on until back in sweden i felt a bit sad but then got loaded again with myrthe's e-mails and being with my son august"

09_067: "checking the news while traveling much around europe or just atmy office but again not in my studio apartment where there is no internet connection and thus be less well informed but anyhow reading about casualties once again in the middle east with dozen in syria but many in afghanistan and quite allo still in muslim africa with also bus crashes around the world and a flood in argentina not to mention a less allarming spread of bird flu"

01_111: "it took me sometime to get this photo panel accomplished due to the new computer i have bought and all the work i had to do to reconfigure my tools to the new system it operates but nonetheless it was not a too hard task and it somewhat characterizes my last few months in which i have invested allot on new equipment particularly for the construction of my studio room making two independent living units out of my apartment and thus sharing for now my mantel with my african friend lamin and having him also to help me setting up the wall construction although he has been sawing directly on the wall and i had to latter sand paper it and thus deciding to do things more by myself and with time also setting up the door frames with stucco and pausing my work to do actual work at the university and being with august to still enjoy the sunny winter and barbecue outside but finally going to a conference in berlin and using more buffet utensils and much my film camera to photograph new acquaintances and mostly film"

11_071: "in our new apartment now getting used to the routine taking my kid to horse riding lessons and getting quite some ideas there but also at work much seated in my little office on my chair and working on the computer or in public toilettes but also quite sexually frustrated as well with my wife sort of ignoring me or ignoring each other also resulting in sexual ideas"

11_072: "ideas got while in a quite melancholic moment of transition breaking up with liselott and going to a new life and a new apartment and taking many commuter trains which in a way characterizes this month production along with many acquatic birds and boats probably perceived in my new place close to the water"

16_047: "still cold in berlin and later initially cold in stockholm too but very sunnny weather till at least i went to italy and the wheather ther was cloudy and unusually cold but had nice days there too finally going out in tshirt and then going to the netherland and also there finding beautiful enchanting spring wheather to then go back to sweden and find minus degrees and cold till finally the spring sat in bringing the first rain and the melting of the snow"

18_043: "i have been exposed to the wind much being out but never really experienced any particularly strong wind despite initially in berlin and quite light otherwise in both italy and the netherlands and only lastly with the rising of the temperature being a little stronger in sweden"

14_046: "walking not so intensively but mostly in already two occasions with the stroller first in italy with my nephew and my twin sister to the park and then with myrthe around utrecht and a bit more in the suburbs by the water and despite that walking in the city with first jacek going from the south part of town to the center where he lives or walking around the river through a castle but nothing really too long feeling still a bit of pain in my knee and getting special shoes for it back in italy where i have been walking in the fields around a small town while waiting for them"

02_112: "a bit hard to write down my dreams with all the traveling around and writing in my journal on the computer later in the evening which certainly erases a bit of juice from my sunconsicous but otherwise still manage to dream especially concerning my new relationship and maybe not really dreaming about myrthe yet but very related event with several making out events and things relaated to our experiences together but also with my parents and sister who i visit and her little kid anna and even beaver looking animals met on a walk"

07_030: "still in stockholm unemployed walking around the suburbian nature and getting much inspirations by the clouds seen many animals and natural figures but also robots and several times also roman soldiers"

01_112: "a month of spring going much down with all my carpenting work and traveling for easter holiday to my family in italy there not doing much work but shop clothes with my mom and play much with my small nephew anna which i start really to like and then a weekend of love and total relaxtion with my beloved myrthe being much taken care of by her sweet hands to then start teaching to more than sixty students at the university and there using whiteboard markers but also much my metro card to commute to my son with who i have also played particularly in the science museum followed by another week with my girlfriend in the netherlands relaxing and lastly in new england where one weekend was spent pruning trees and cleaning up my greek friend and his boyfriend land down a creek in vermont aside for heavy filming in my old city of cambridge"

04_037: "a pretty clean air month spent mostly in sweden with the bad weather keeping me and my friend davide mostly inside but then also very clean air in warmer netherlands with myrthe and much more polluted air in boston where i got to a conference and to take some time off ealking allot and thus being very exposed to the much traffic and gasses particularly when walking along the charles river mostly by conjestions of new cars"

09_068: "still allot of minor killing in the middle east but also allot of media attention with a bombing in boston which only killed three but nonetheless took over all the news despite the hundreds dying for instance in bangladesh with a building collapse"

15_037: "traveling to my love myrthe and feeling very happy with her and then also back home with davide my very old good friend coming to see me after years on the road in asia and giving me much inspiration and then traveling again to america but there getting melancholic revisiting the place i used to explore with my kid but then chatting of an on with myrthe and gaining more happiness and even managing to contact august via internet and talking to him as well"

16_048: "initially in sweden with a very dreadful weather and quite cold but still at times some sunny days spent with davide after work playing in the park with august who took out his bike and later traveling over sea to new england in my old city of cambridge where this part was actualized and here finding an amazing weather like during a weekend in vermont with perfect blue sky and walking much around the city otherwise till the beginning of a conference with much colder but still nice weather and then again some heat to finally end up in new york city with rain and even thunder storms"

14_047: "incredibly allot of walking first some bit in stockholm with davide but then all alone walking and re-exploring all directions of the great boston area starting from panagiotis' place in the middle of harvard and walking often down to my old mit campus in east cambridge and over to the places i used to explore with august as much as taking many of the walks i use to do with him also in new york walking over both brooklyn bridge and then in the evening with jason also down to manhattan and with jason also taking a nice walk in prospect park and alone aside from the usual broadway and despite the weather re-exploring central park through the wilderness feeling like a scotish exploring the highlands in search of the sound of a pipe"

18_044: "allot of time spent out now with the coming of the spring and much more wind rising with th changing of temperatures in stockholm, admesterdam with myrthe and in boston where the long walking got me very exposed although the days of very strong wind were just a few particularly out on mount auburn cemetery from the top of the tower overlooking the boston area but also at my departure walking with the trolley to the subway and less so with the artificial wind created between the downtown blocks"

08_078: "picking trash mostly in sweden with the snow melting but also shortly in the netherlands but not so systematically due to the fact that i was with myrthe and then more systematically in america walking the small towns surrounding boston"

08_079: "once again walking around the places i used to explore when living in boston and finding many of the usual lottery and other trash often abbundant in destituted areas where people try to change their luck but also many fliers once again in new york city around broadway despite the rain and some fliers inviting to streep teases but mostly musicals"

03_057: "songs heard again while training and then also in berlin at the radio in the hostel while having breakfast and at home at my parents and some also for the first time in utrecht played with myrthe at her brother house not to mention that i have also started to be aware of these songs that i spontaneously sing almost in voluntary thus treating the subconscoius as not me but someone else singing although this process of distantiation can be tricky"

10_072: "in stockholm from the beggining filming around the little city of södertälje where i live and later going to my parents in italy filming around at parks and a bit in the city to then got to utrecht for the first time togther with myrthe and filming on my way to her brother and in a beautiful day walking with her and her nephew to then make it back to stockholm and filming alone or with jacek or august mostly from the south of town from an elevated ridge from which the north of the city can be visible"

10_073: "in stockholm and then filming also a bit in admsterdam and back in utrecht but moderately spending more romantic time with myrthe and later back to stockholm exploring a bit with davide before leaving for boston and filming quite allot throughout the city exploring all the surroundings i used to explore as well as some new places"

06_027: "running now a bit more often outside with the good weather and particularly after going to america and buying new running sneakers with special support for my left feet rolling a bit inward and a global positiong system watch which has finally allow me to run outside of confined perimeters and more wherever i want keeping a set distance and testing this in cambridge where this part of the project started along the charles river motivated by many other runners and continuing this practice in my stockholm suburb with the nice weather"

07_052: "at my new work taking portraits of a few new colleagues but really not compromising my professional situation and keep a bit of a distance to them and thus as i would not friend them on a social media profile i also don't get in to photograph them but instead being out at a gallery event in the boheme part of town and meeting up with old friends and the danish artist working really hard on her animation piece and getting really moved of my compliments but also a special dark hair swedish who has been hiking with his australian wife down to odessa and doing very spiritual work in nature and then also a young and a bit naive london painter aside for my colleagues like my office mate roman from ukraina who is quite a nice fellow and a russian gilr speaking italian and quite an atleth when it comes to cross country ski but even the lesbian maria who is a empowered feminist and dresses with all very femelish stuff for sure getting a like of it but also getting a like in being totally open minded and telling me of all her masturbation time thinking of her professors and in the same lines the austrian based italian artist valerio who got a projection of a slick comedy on his naked ass and revealed himself later to me to be homosexual this along with a super boring and naive and plain swedish curator who i will meet even later without recognizing him"

03_058: "songs heard still in the university gym but then very much traveling around again in myrthe's place in utrecht and as well as listening to my subconscious spontaneous arising of songs although once again that caused me much distress and i am now limiting to treat also the subconscious as other"

17_031: "still unemployed living between the countriside and the suburbs if stockholm observing the clouds and again detacting horses and fishes but also this time angels and naked females as well as birds and dinosaurs even a few shooting guns and tanks"

10_074: "shooting quite much around boston and mostly in new york avoiding a bit the actual city and at last ending mostly in central park finding quite a nice environment there with gothic like landscapes and eventually walking also with jason but not really filming much in places i have already explored particularly brooklin with my son with whom i took a nice walk with myrthe on his first visit here taking shots of nice sceneraies on the ridge in the south part of stockholm and then in the subrubs yet still being quite modest not to interrupt the flow with others"

04_038: "starting the period in america with a quite nice air in a much colder boston but then going down to jason in brooklin and ending up in the much polluted southern part of manhattan with much traffic and finally escaping to central park and prospect park to catch some cleaner air and later going back to cambrindge and much cleaner sweden experiencing pollution only at major crossings"

01_113: "a day started in the states doing some domestic work at panagiotis apartment in cambridge like cooking and laundry but mostly being on the road and in fact being quite homy in jason's apartment in brooklin to then go back to sweden and doing much cleaning work in the house before myrthe's first visit to stockholm and really almost not photographing and doing barely nothing to photograph with her august around but just taking a sort of a sabath and enjoying our love together to then teach a few classes with allot of electronic stuff show to three goups of students and regaining my active mood with crawings but also much cleaning in liselott apartment before coming to visit myrthe again in utrecht and taking it super easy after a period of stress"

15_038: "a quite happy period first in the states and then with my students and myrthe coming over spending a beautiful first weekend together with august here in stockholm and be most happy but then feeling rather down in the following week getting quite oppressed with work and actually very totally stressed but luckily going soon back to meet myrth in utrecht and there feeling very relaxed"

02_113: "a period of much traveling and not so much dreaming with all the temporary staying in america and the jetlag and quite a bit of stress finally getting far more relaxed back home with myrthe coming to visit me and particularly me going to visit her and having most beautiful dreams but particularly very erotic ones with her after making up all the sleeping and letting go to all the stress around us concentrating on the two of us and making much love and just falling asleep right after also dreaming while with august but then watching involuntary a movie that turned out to be a horror stuff which caused much disturbance and wehad to interrupt"

16_049: "most uncertain weather now coming back from the states and being in europe with few days of not so severe rain both in sweden and the netherlands and generally a rather coldish and unstable sunny weather with often nice beginnings and cloudy ends experiencing also a bit of the first storms due to the high current which has at last brought a bit of summer feeling"

18_045: "a restless wind with the changing of the season at times getting really powerful likein my day of departure from cambridge and then being back in sweden spending quite much time outside like during myrthe first visit there kissing on the heading rock of a small island and then also being in utrecht with her and at times experiencing almost no wind but mostly always some wind even though generally not so powerful"

09_069: "news read a bit scatered while travleing but mostly concerned with a bit of a phobia on factory fires and collapse like the one in bangladesh and china killing hundreds this aside for the on-going turbulance in islamic countries"

14_048: "a huge amount of walking first much around stockholm with myrthe coming here for the first time and meeting august but also with a group of international students which i took around the old city and beyond around the big royal island taking also august and then also being in utrecht walking much with myrthe and even in amsterdam south also walking much in the middle of the summer night with the nordic light to get the train to the airport"

12_042: "still quite scattered recording with much social happenings but managing at times to be alone particularly at a conference in berlin walking lonely in tiergarten or back at night but then also recording while walking to take the bus to the airport in the middle of the summer night to reach my dutch girlfriend myrthe who gave me some positivity which was later poisoned but much disatisfactions due to my teaching at work with some students cuting me off because of open mindness and consequetly losing the possibility to teach and giving me quite some thoughts which i recorded also walking back and forth picking my kid and deciding again to become stoic and spend little money to stay autonomous as much as i can"

10_075: "walking and thus filming around the city in my neighborhood with my son but then also much walking in the netherlands and spain with myrthe with who i have walked very much and this time had very little refrain to film allot thus creating a nice account of our explorations through utrecht, south amsterdam, madrid and toledo, all around places with a certain historical interest and very appealing aside for the camera which is a bit too heavy and has a tendency of going out of focus"

13_030: "very scattered painting after hanging the canvas with a new system blocked by screws perpendicularly on my equipment shelf finishing my painting with my kid asleep and me also experimenting by rotating the canvas in order to do the finishing in various curves i cannot reach otherwise and having the painting rather simplified"

04_039: "for some time in madrid with myrthe doing much walking around the city and at times getting a bit of pollution particularly crossing the big roads of the spanish capitol but then back in sweden breathing clener air despite the factory polution in my neighborhood coming towards my apartment or the city according to the wind while walking with my kid but also experiencing very clean air with a long bus strike going all under my room now that i am sleeping where lamin used to sleep"

15_039: "feeling great around myrthe and with parents reunited in madrid but then leaving again for sweden and being less happy despite some nice days spent with august and then jacek till finally being left alone for midsummer having also kicked lamin out and being most miserable also being the time away from my myrthe too long and having troubles to communicate with her till at last i made her to her place recovering my good mood even though jason came from an exhibition in paris and i started feeling poisoned about all the political trend in art excluding works like mine"

17_032: "clouds seen in the park between august's school and our apartment in the little zoo park with chickens and sheeps certainly affecting my immagination but also quite many recurrent images of devils"

16_050: "very cold beginning of the summer despite being for a time in madrid leaving a rather warm utrecht but then going back to a fairly rainy and cold and much unstable stockholm where at last the weather got a bit nicer and august was able even to swim for a short time but then going to holland and there finding cold and rainy weather getting better only towards the end"

18_046: "being quite much out and experiencing the wind in spain while walking the many small inner roads of madrid and toledo with myrthe but then also back in sweden particularly in a day with august walking across the all town and in the royal hunting reserve to then experience far less the wind anyhow never to strong going to stay with myrthe in the netherlands despite a one afternoon walking alone into utrech's suburbs"

01_114: "a month of alternated intense work and relaxation going with myrthe to madrid and doing allot of walking and filming and then being back in sweden doing almost no activity while attending the department's conference yet slowly and later being with august in my apartment and kicking lamin how to have a period together just with my kid while fixing the floors lamin has scratched and fixing the bed so that i can sleep there with both august and myrthe when she comes to visit in the future after which i spent some time with jacek also walking and playing some tennis to then later work really hard again on the apartment and finally went over to myrthe in utrecht mostly being in her room working on my laptop with jason who came to network here and waiting for the bad weather to stop"

14_049: "walking allot despite the coldish beginning of the summer and throughouly exploring the city of madrid and toledo with my love myrthe but also with some of my relatives like my step sister giulia and my parents to then be back in stockholm for two weeks and again walking with august quite allot particularly for saving the money of the commuter thus walking from distant stations to his mother's house but also together to the city covering many kilometers from one side to the other of the swedish capital and even in my suburbs walking together to a beach i found in the nature is left of the big harbour to then be with myrthe in the netherlands and do small walks also with my american old friend jason but particularly one alone along the river out in the suburbs of utrecht and then together again with myrthe in her native city of breda walking from her mother place to the empty city center and around and even with her mother who like walking and the families of her two brothers in a forest nearby where they grew up"

07_053: "living in stockholm and meeting people mostly in sweden like a gipsy man who took over our uppsala apartment on whom i had to check becoming his friend and talking about religion despite him being an ex boxer and a colleague at his dissertation party with a friend working for a union and very enthusiastic about my project but also a thai girl i met a jacek's birthday working with design and a very talkative man working in a church and very fond of italy with a very shy organist training on top in a very central church in stockholm where i also met a black guy from western africa who has left italy to look for jobs here and i invited him to eat an hamburger and later tried to help find a job as a sailor but without success"

09_070: "aside for the usual bombs in the middle east several where the clashes and arrest in other muslim countries such as egypt but particularly north west china with the rebelling muslim minority there and some casualties in a forest fire in the states all news read rather regularly from the intenet at myrthe's place but not really at my place in stockholm where i still am in the process to get connected"

10_076: "filming mostly in sweden walking around with my son and alone both in stockholm and in my suburb till finally ending up in the netherlands once again and filming there mostly in the city of utrecht but also in breda where myrthe grew up and there for the first time filming the dutch nature while going out with her family"

10_077: "beginning to film now for the first time with myrthe in the city of antwerp while also filming myself filming and later back in utrecht also going on bike rides along the canal through small very nice villages and leaving later for england finding a most nice weather and beautiful landscape walking east and west of the university of warwick filming all through out small and middle size and big city like kenilworth and the much bombed coventry and ultimately birmingham really enjoying the modern public spaces there"

02_114: "still quite on the road and thus also have not so many dreams but with moments of high density like being home in sweden with my kid affected by my african roommate lamin who i have just kicked out but also resting very much with my girlfriend myrthe both in spain where i also met my italian family again and started dreaming about them but mostly in holland where i also had a few sexual dreams even one where i came and starting to have a few dreams about biking after biking again in the dutch countryide but mostly walking after long walks accomplished in england through the countryside where few animals has affected me too but above all the colleagues and the giving lectures which has badly affected me after the bad evaluations i got from the students"

09_071: "news mostly collected in utrecht using my girlfriend's wireless connection but also during a summer school in coventry england and at the airport reading the news from the papers but even on the night news in the terminal monitors finding out of a big deadly flood in india and using my mother's mobile phone at last at the sea side in northern italy reading more of the bomb attacks in iraq but mostly overall finding allot of deadly accidents in more civilized countries like a big train crash in canada and an airplane crash in america all causing very little casualties however"

04_040: "quite clean air living with myrthe in tranquile utrecht and then going to birmingham and staying in the warwick university campus and breathing frash air rather than when walking into the city of coventry breathing the early morning traffic and then much breathed at airports spending the night in stockholm and smelling the airplane pollution while waiting for august and then again going to pick myrthe from the italian seaside that has very clean air to the airport through allot of traffic with trucks and jams"

15_040: "a quite unstable period having to reasset continuosly to different realities feeling rather down probably based on the distance from my kid maybe emotionally accentuated by allot of love making with my love myrthe but mostly feeling rather depressed by academia having attended a conference in england with too much politics and having to regain my integrity by walking allot in the beautiful countryside finding back my soul and so also with myrthe having idillic bike ride in the woods and gaining much happiness and finally again feeling quite down when adjusting with my parents in the italian seaside but then getting happy again with myrthe and august on my side finding nice things to do in a wild beach like fishing crabs and building shelter despite the bad reactions of liselott since i did not manage to provide her a regular update on august due to the scarcity of internet connection"

14_050: "in the nethralnds strolling with myrthe around utrecht but also visiting the city of antwerp and doing quite some walking with her there to then go to england and feeling like escaping the conference sedentary environment going for a major walk very early morning managing to reach the city of coventry from the warwick campus and later walking in an afternoon through the magnificent english landscape and forest reaching the side of the precious town of kingsworth till finally spending a short weekend with myrthe and her relative taking minor walks in the countryside after major bike rides and walking again with august and her in the sea side of lignano through the modern tourist center and much on the beach even at night with the full moon"

16_051: "still a bit of cold weather also in belgium during and the netherlands but then going to england and finding a most amazing weather with the exception of only one day and also finding nice weather in the netherlands and a most amazing summer at the sea side in italy with much threat of thunder storms from the weather forecast but never experiencing one if not from the distance and at last not having to worry about the bad weather like in the previous summers in sweden"

18_047: "experiencing very little strong wind but being out quite allot and in fact getting allot of wind variations but never so intense if not for a time waiting outside the airport but otherwise walking through the english ondulated landscape and experiencing light breeze and then no breeze below the small hills and really little wind experienced while at the italian seasidein lignano"

05_042: "a fable with a water snake certainly inspired by the time with august on the swedish beach from which the story evolves to then get completely on the desert most likely influenced by all the middle east conflict with some sexual spice into it probably now added from my relationship with myrthe and all the love we make and much of a biblical middle point event going through the most relevant world religions throughout the fable"

03_059: "still attempting to also keep track of the songs spontaneously coming to my head but then let go to this treacky and disturbing attempt and goign back to exclusively registering the songs heard from the einvoroment particularly while in the states at supermarkets mostly and then back in sweden at the university gym but also with little august and myrthe around for some weekends here but also visiting the latter in utrecht and hearing again songs from her and the environment like restaurants and supermarkets"

07_054: "again traveling to russia this time by boat and landing in saint petersurg for the first time and like a gogol character or turgenev wondering the city rather than the country and meeting a bit of characters like a guy selling hats and a too soft canadian couple to then go back to sweden and meet at last two really cool young swedes to which i sold my office chair as i have been in the phase of divorcing from my wife and needed money and really discovering how cool certain peple in sweden can also be like a guy making digital art and another who has lived as a street musicians but both ending up doing standard jobs and so also meeting a more pretentious greek swedish artist but kind of experienced with some new york living in the background and some theory to distinguish him from the standard educated swedish artists like an old woman i met at a far away opening who is up to cheramic making and really had a bad breath till at last meeting the colombian cousin of ivan at a small party"

03_060: "very much in utrecht in the attic of my girlfriend myrthe listening a bit to her favorite songs like an american little known band but also hearing quite much the music played out in the city like for instance by the big belfry of the cathedral that started paying for more than an hour pop italian songs or on the streets from choirs and old music machines but also music heard on a trip with myrthe to madrid"

08_080: "still some trash picked in the states and particularly during my time in new york with much flyers got around time square and broadway despite the rain but at last also starting to pick trash in the netherlands with the complicity of myrthe who actually became my carrier during our urban explorations and i place the picked trash on a side pocket of her backpack"

08_081: "trash picked with myrthe on our trip to madrid and also in the city of toledo to then pick trash while walking with jacek in stockholm who also was photographing trash on our way to the midsummer celebration in town and later again in the netherlands picking more trash walking both alone and with myrthe and jason finding several nice stickers"

08_082: "with myrthe once again back in the netherlands now picking trash also on our trip to antwerp where much coffee and bar related things were found on the large sidewalks and also back in utrcht some arabic and fruit vendor related trash on the road to her brother where allot of muslims live"

08_082: "in the netherlands again picking trash from the street during short walks with myrthe but then also leaving for a summer school in norther england and walking quite allot from the campus finding quite much trash in the destitued neighborhoods surrounding the city of coventry and finally picking trash in admesterdam mostly around the train station while walking with lovely myrthe"

01_115: "a month started in the netherlands where i have worked hard on my Website making the entire archive available on the internet but also now got quite into cooking at myrth's place and doing the dishes or having to spray deodorant or turning on a parfume candle when using the bathroom we share with her roommate but beside also traveling with myrthe doing quite a few biking excursions and picnics with filming with cameras and typing ideas on my phone and one day even feeding her little nephew as i used to do with august to then later attend a sumer school in england and don't much then seating and listening but still trying to work o my Website and wake up really early to do some filming about my documentation methods while exploring the surrounding and using several utensils for the buffet at breakfast and in the evening to then go back shortly to utrecht and pickup august in sweden to go at the lignano sea side in north east italy where i started using heavely sun lotions and after sun and shampoos and had many keys to use to open both my place and my mother's place and cellar and still doing some filming and picnicing on the beach as myrthe also came over and the usual beach related activities with children toys and my little nephew anna with whom i dug holes together with august being however a bit afraid of the water for my camera and at last turning back home and resuming the work on my apartment with the dividing wall now that myrthe is soon to come over i might get a new roommate for some time to help jacek"

06_028: "running done now with a global positioning system wat5ch i got in the states this to avoid sunning always in a circle as i used to but try to run out and see the distance to then memorize the time based on that and with this running along the river charles in cambridge with allot of other runners and a nice temperature and also back home doing even over eighteen laps than the usual twelve i do each time but then going on holiday first to myrthe in holland and then to the beach and not really running there but doing other physical exercises and really started running once back in my stockholm suburb apartment and this time switching to my previous watch to run in a circle instead and don't get all the magnetic field of the previous watch which also took me to unregular ground to compare the laps but having to buy a new cheap chronometer watch after damaging the former with the rain and nonetheless doing good results and having no knee problems now that i am also enforcing my leg muscles with biking"

09_072: "aside again for the many dying in muslims countries both in the troubled post revolution middle east and africa again the curse of derailing train like in spain which i read about on my parents newspaper not really having any good internet connection and having to go down to the beach on a site with free wireless to update myself other than that at last reading all the news from my very apartment which finally got a wireless connection since it was alaready included in the rent"

11_073: "still quite sexually frustrated and getting a few more ideas in that rewspect but then transiting to a new life alone and this time feeling much boredom having to seat at seminars and doing much readings for my doctorate studies and reducing my ideas this way other than in the evning at supermarkets or going out using much of the commuter train and also finally some boat riding across the baltic with some ideas got there in the different post soviet cities"

11_074: "being now completely independent and separated from my wife but still having to trouble doing courses and readings for the university getting a bit dry with my immagination until traveling first to danmark for a small conference getting ideas around the city and then in italy where an avalanche accident has somewhat affected me"

11_075: "flying back and forth in europe with many ideas around planes and finally in cracow with quite some pollution in the air and all the life i experienced taking trams and wondering around getting ideas looking at monks and also while being at the dentist to then go back to sweden commuting back and forth through the city and getting a bit of ideas in the metro"

04_041: "rather clean air back in sweden with always buses and small traffic in front of my apartment whose windows are open because of the summer and also due to the much rennovation work I did using paint and other a bit chemical smelly stuff and much traffic at time encountered in the stockholm city center which is completely under rennovation till at last getting to italy and inhaling a bit of the airport pollution but mostly in my native village of asiago getting quite congested due to the ferragosto holiday week and being myself with august and myrthe quite exposed to it driving with my mother's car otherwise breathing the super clean mountain air having to go quite high"

15_041: "feeeling not really at my best going to the sea sidein italy with my kid and being quite down in mood from the beginning but then recovering very well also with myrthe and have a nice time all together to then move back to sweden and just getting myself really busy in the peak of the summer and having myrthe home spending some pleasent moments despite the rain catching up with our moods and having to readjust again going to my native village in the alps with august surprisingly negative about all the walks feeling a bit disappointed that i could not give the best of my natural heritage both to him my son and myrthe my girlfriend with whom i might have had expectations to spend more time here in the future but finally also here readjusting quite well after a beautiful day rollerblading all the family in the beutiful valley along the brenta river and experience catharsis in the night of ferragosto dancing with both myrthe and august in a mountain town square before departing again from my love and my mountains"

09_073: "news read well from the beginning with my new internet connection at hom but then traveling to italy and having to read the news more in newspaper and whenever i got the chance to have an internet access through my mother's phone reading then about the many dead in the egyptian uprising and hearing about it on the radio while drving back from the airport where i left myrthe and then also on the plane with internet connection reading about the people dead in many water connected accidents such as floods and boat sinking"

16_052: "a very nice swedish summer oming back from the italian sea side reaching the pick of the heat but anyway not really enjoying it being mostly at home doing carpenter work to receive at last myrthe in my apartment but then having a most dreadful raining weather and no possibility to bike together at last going back to the italian alps but finding also there the temperature a bit colder but nonetheless quite fresh and nice on the sunny mountain tops and actually only experiencing one single day of rain in which we took a walk with august in the clouds and then finding the sky most clear and the furthere dolomites very visible"

18_048: "a bit more wind now back in scandinavia but still not much experienced as much time was spent doing carpentry work at home and seeing most the wind of the window on the trees outside and also biking and being able to annotate the wind on the mobile with one hand till finally going to the italian alps and experiencing little wind changes varying on one and onether side of the peaks yet still not feeling much wind untill my return to sweden"

14_051: "not walking so much from the beginning after being at the italian sea side in the modern town of lignano with my kid and just keeping this time back in the stockholm suburbs rennovating but then having myrthe as a guest and doing quite some walking both in the countryisde with the car after picking her up at the airport and here in södertälje but also around stockholm with jacek and brett and then alone around the island of djursholm and back to their place to then continue our walks also with august in my native moutnains climbing several places and walking also from my parents' place down to my native town of asiago despite my son being often a bit demotivated but at last going to the natural labyrinth of the castelloni and finding him most revived going up without a break"

12_043: "recordings did the times i could really be alone such as walking from august's apartment to the main station wanting to save money for the train ticket or particularly during a conference in england escaping when i could to explore the countryside and walk many miles reacting on the intellectual boredome and vanity of the conference and attempting to enforce myself through my own discipline and at last after long periods spent with my son august and my girlfriend myrthe mostly on holiday in italy being finally left alone in sweden and biking to some natural reserves where i could walk alone and pour out my thoughts again in relation to my situation conducting my own autonomous practice within a highly politicized and socialized academic environment"

02_115: "it took me some time to compile this page of dreams traveling as i have been throughout the summer to many a places and we circumstances that had to adjust in my subconscious like my girlfriend who is coming more present and hercountry the netherlands together with the recurrent dreams about being at a campus or at a conference particularly with curators which in fact i did in england and even all the biking experiences i resumed this summer which affected some of my dreams at least in terms of places i have visited also now being in italy with my son to the beach and later to the mountains with my relatives which have gotten back together with some sexual dreams towards the end mostly with ugly girls on the screen even handicap which i have seen on the internet and kissing a girl who is taking more the shape of my girlfriend"

03_061: "allot of music being heard at first with myrthe and even jason who was staying also in her attic in utrecht listening much to hip hop stuff "and even a band from south africa singing hard core stuff and despite this also much hearing myrthe singing the ilove you baby song to me and making up a whole new song herself to tell me how much she loved me and singing with her also biking me learning a dutch love song from an italian singer and her learning an italian old song about the sea side which kept recurring alos when we got on holiday there with august and got allot of songs hear around the italian sea resort like at the play grounds with songs belonging both to my childhood but even to my youth"

10_078: "filming started in the city of utrecht where i have been with myrthe mostly working inside but taking bike excursions out with his brother's family and mother or by ourself to a distant small village selling pancakes and then going with august and later also myrthe to the italian sea side of lignano and seating much on the beach particularly on a wild beach by the river where we built a shelter and from there also exploring the night life but then moving again to sweden and doing small excursions out till myrte also came and we visited a bit of the country close to hear and the city to finally end up in my native highland in the alps and documenting much there the beautiful scenaries of the surrounding"

17_034: "quite many monkeys and elephants together with a few acquatic animals probably caused by my going to the lake and observing the clouds there but several also the chickens and particularly many the men laying"

01_116: "a month passed working at first really hard at the apartment's wall and at last finally finishing the wall within the apartment and also investing quite allot of the tax money i got back to fix some used bikes but not really succeeding in time for when myrthe came to visit me stopping there my carpenter work and leaving with her and august to italy where we mostly took walks in which i have been taking allot of videos but also pictures with for my essays and from eating mostly outside with my parents but also cooking at home for francesco and his family playing also cards togetherand taking my parent's dog asia also out for a walk to then make it hom in sweden and really trying to work hard on my art work and on my thesis scanning pages of annotation and also fixing the internet cable to my archive through the walls and at last going back to the netherlands and with myrthe staying at her brother's place in mastricht visiting the beautiful city taking allo of videos and pictures"

07_055: "still in stockholm now separeting from my wife and meeting people at my colombian student's ivan's party like his colombian cousins a bit stiff and all into normal jobs and family but also some swedish girls friends of him quite calm and also into nursing old people but not the less cute one who was into psychology and photographing ivan's girlfriend who is a singer and quite in love with him despite his careless for relationships and my turkish department technician at the univeristy who has been in charged to make a portrait of me for my job profile and a thai girl working at a thai shop where i go to buy the only tofu in town till at last photographing a swedish adopted pakistanian man who sold me his son bed which i got with a truck for lamin at the time there was allot of snow and i was really moving out of my wife's apartment"

04_042: "in stockholm mostly breathing the air of the truck factory with the wind blowing towards my apartment having the windows open still because of the heat and also the busses driving in the road below and generally all the traffic found going by bike but mostly being in the city center or traveling to myrthe in the netherlands and breathing the airplane fuel prior taking off to get much nicer air in maastricht and during our bike rides in belgium"

15_042: "a very emotionally stable period spent mostly in sweden and really helped by the late summer sunny weather and by allot of biking alone but also in the weekend reaching very high feelings of well being particularly during a bike ride with myrthe in belgium and another with august and åsmund all of them promoted by the easiness of the late summer with little frustration mostly due to technical difficulties like setting up my own server"

16_053: "a surprise continuations of a summer which on the other hand had a late start and enjoying the nice weather both in my suburb biking quite often and in the netherlands exploring the very south biking there with myrthe also in belgium to then find a rather freezing day back in utreecht wearing my norwegian sweater and again very sunny in sweden despite a day of rain spent helping the finnish filmaker friend mervi on her Website being also at the university off and on and seating out for lunch with all the swedish people almost not bearing the unusual heat and later enjoying the weather with my little august by the water and biking with my old colleague åsmund"

18_049: "allot outdoor yet not so much wind perceived or at least not so powerful changes other than going by bike allot and feeling it this way mostly by changing location and moving from a place with no wind to a place with a bit of wind but nothing really remarkable bot in the netherlands and in sweden where i mostly been"

10_079: "filming started out up in my native alps while hiking with august and myrthe but also while rollerblading in the beautiful valsugana valley below and then again a bit of video taking while in a natural labyrinth with augustalso then taking care about filming the whole experience and moving back to sweden discovering by bike many beautiful landscaes and filming then and also filming quite much in utrecht visiting myrthe but particularly while exploring the gorgeous city of mastricht with her starting from her brother house in the country and then hiting the medioeval walls and the ancient city center"

14_052: "allot of motion with the good weather but often by bike both here in the stockholm suburbs and in maastricht where i took a nice walk with myrthe all around the city but then also biked into belgium and took several small walks in the various places we were reaching and the same here biking around the area and then exploring on foot mostly forests often quite inpractibale due to the damages of last year storm and walking also with august to the metro station from his place in the north of town and through the downtown but also with jacek and brett up a small mountain and in a natural reserve on the east of stockholm beside taking walks by myself in utrecht while myrthe was working"

09_074: "news gathered mostly from the internet from my swedish apartment and also on my laptop walking up in the morning at august's place once and at myrthe's place reading news about still thepost-revolution arrest in egypt making a few deaths but mostly the nerve gas attack in syria which almost caused an new international conflict and again one more bus crash killing many this time in guatemala"

02_116: "a proliferation of dreams now that i am not traveling and i have been very steady both in my swedish apartment and lately even in utrecht with possibly also a light sleep due to my back pains which has fascilitated remembering of dreams that have been often reminescences of my time in italy both at the sea side and on the mountains with many ones concerning both my girlfriend and son but also his mother and professors at the university with a few dreams also related to being going fast and being unable to move or being taken by a woman i don't like"

05_043: "a fable written at last after a summer of moving around and not really being able to write fables with all the evening spent on holiday where however i have been observing many animals and still quite being impressed by the gull also by looking at a documentary with my son of a little sort from iceland and writing a fable where again the animal goes through a metamorphosis and at last restore all humans to eden but then turn all angels into evils and in this respect keep changing the courses of what would be otherwise immutable like the heavens"

17_035: "cannot quite locate when and where i recorded theses clouds since the file belonging to this month i realized to be containing all previous clouds that i have detected while living in the states and not as i thought in sweden but anyway almost on my way there so possibly while traveling to visit my biological father in montreal and around the ontario lake despite the days of perfect sun but also traveling with jacek in new england to vermont and maine detecting allot of newly born kids and a few naked women in sexual poses but even many exotic animals like cammels and sea horses with a final cloud of a boy playing videogame with a dinosaur head probably unconsciously connected to my son"

10_080: "filming taking place from beginning in belgium finding the landscape quite brutal biking in a small vlley but then really enjoying the strolling on the hills with my myrthe and filming that landscape to then shortly do some filming in the beautiful maastricht prior returning to sweden finding there an amazing weather and taking long bike rides to remote landscapes and even all the way to the university to also stay with august in the weekend at my place and go to our favorite beach by the water returning later to itrecht for a whole week spent mostly wiritng but also having possibilities to explore still the ancient charming city despite the rain and a sunny weekend with myrthe in amsterdam prior returning to sweden and getting into more biking explorations also with my old norwegian colleague åsmund going up a hill up stream and filming the amazing sunny landscape from there"

01_117: "a month spent at home getting my head back into reading theoretical texts and recompiling them with pictures from my project so quite allot of time spent initially in this operation but also allot of biking after biking quite much with myrthe in the netherlands with related activities including trying to fix a bike for august and resolving to steal an half broken one in front of the station repainting and changing the wheels to then go out both biking but mostly walking due to a little inflammation on my right foot to our favorite beach to light fires and barbequeing till at last meeting my supervidor at the university and getting hard in writings while staying with myrthe in her utrcht attic and doing little home improvements in my studio room like adding extra shelves and fixing a place where to do my paintings which i have finally resumed to at last doing allot of explorations with allot of picture taking and other parts of my documentation during a long weekend in berlin with myrthe and alone"

09_075: "news read while in my studio but also in myrthe's utrecht attic and in the bedroom we had for some time in the berlin suburb always using my computer and reading much about still many deaths in the middle east but also quite some deadly turbulances in the center of africa and most strikingly an muslim attack to a mall in kenya but also natural calamities particularly in southern unitesd states and mexico"

12_044: "quite many recordings of thoughts now after a rather long period having no possibility to walk alone and being really thoughtless but this time i had several possibilities to record going out with my bike and finally be able to reach nature from my industrialized suburb but also walking through it in the middle of the night and recording on my way to myrthe with and also while walking by lakes coming back from my son's apartment and feeling a big need to breath the autumn air and think about my situation at the university whether i should seek for more autonomy which has been also the issue of my walks while in berlin going early morning to check a spy tower station or walking at sunset in the orangerie of potsdam"

04_043: "quite some clean air breath particularly while keeping in the utrecht attic writing but then always experiencing the bad air from the nearby factory while in my swedish apartment particularly with the nice weather walking with august on the other side of the bridge to our secret beach or going for a run until with myrthe again we spent along weekend in berlin finding little traffic but during an escursion i took to potsdam experiencing there a bit of a rush hour"

03_062: "music heard while first with my son at the italian sea side taking him to small amusement parks and reviving some songs belonging to my youth but also songs to celebrate my birthday and later spending a period in sweden alone almost hearing no songs until myrthe's arrival and listening to her singing to me love songs and then traveling with her and august to my native mountains listening songs there from a traditional choir but also a cd with music in my mom's car while driving up a mountain covered in fog"

06_029: "running not so much with the summer trips and much more activities taken noneteless feeling healthy particularly after being down south at the sea side and also getting a bike thus training my leg muscles and attempting to record my speed biking but at last having an inflammation of my plantar fascis on my right foot and quitting all together but at last trying also to do running in the netherlands and only being able to resume it after much walking and outdoor in germany making me feel very healthy again"

15_043: "a quite complicated period having to accept many new things like myrthe's social life and my supervisor imposing me a cannon and restricting my entire research plan which has generated allot of distress but nonetheless having great days with myrthe again feeling happy about writing at her attic before meeting the supervisor and also after during our trip to berlin but also being most happy trying to be very independent and taking amazing walks in the berlin outskirts which gave allot of energies till again getting my mood down in the sedentary university environment undecided whether to fight or let go to their impositions but getting at last to start the negotiations and also getting a hard time with august being most rebellious and unwilling to spend time with me"

16_054: "still a nice autumn here in sweden but then experiencing the first rains particularly in the netherlands where i anyway had to write and finding again quite a nice weather back in sweden also being with august out by the water with no shirt enjoying the sun and latter also in berlin with myrthe finding a very nice weather but quite cold evenings like taking her to the station in the middle of the night and having to walk allot at sun rise to fully warm up and finally coming back to sweden with the weather also quite rainy but even some periods of sun which allowed me to be out running"

18_050: "at last the autumn wind makes itself being felt particularly to begin with in the netherlands while being with myrthe like walking with his father and brother to check monuments around the city but also in sweden even just being shortly out from the university waiting for the commuter train but then also experiencing days of little wind but also days of much exposure being in berlin and getting morte of the artificial wind of the modern suburbs in which we were staying or just walking up and down the hills on the outskirt and finally in potsdam feeling the wind off and on because of the buildings"

14_053: "allot of walking with the good weather biking to places and taking small walks like in a weekend with august and my old norwegian colleague åsmund but then being quite blocked due to again an inflammation of my plantar fasci on my right foot and finding slowly a way to walk again by taping up my foot to support walking and talking rather extensive walks with myrthe in utrecht and admsterdam to then also walk allot myself from nyköping to the airport and in berlin with myrthe again from the south to the north of the city but also all alone to the american spy tower station in and across the woods to some rich neighborhood and then again in tiergarten like this past winter but also taking a quite large walk in potsdam feeling really good and free ofroaming from dusk todawn trying to recover my sanity after all thebrain washing i get from work"

11_076: "back in cold but sunny sweden after poland and now slowly setting my head back into academia and two theory courses drying up my imagination but really working hard to get inspirations and ideas during my lonely weekends and with august getting ideas of winterish things but also related to the univeristy environment like the gipsy playing saxophone outside or from the boxing training in the gym and the coomuting with the train"

11_077: "now really with my head in academia starting to affect my imagination as well with ideas relating to lectures and writing but also again ideas got from my lonely weekend walks in the nature lighting fires and being with my little son eating asian and getting there some ideas or again while waiting for the commuter train"

07_056: "buying my new apartment from the son of a dead hungarian man who seemed rather open minded and with a good view on politics and photographing after the signing of the contract at his father apartment taking me there with his old car and recalling his father who died of heart conditions after a life of smoking and soon after regretting having accepted a roommate which i only got because i did not wish to be alone and end up filled with vices like my father but then getting a phone call from lamin who got living here immediately after leaving his auntie who had been adopting him from the gambia and soon be most generous with him but then realizing his exploiting nature both with the state and with me to then later taking him to a party of south americans in stockholm and meeting a very wierd argentinian dj who was however together with a brilliant swedish girl from the north unusually intelligent possibly also due to her long staying in south america and later going to copenhagen and being most tired of a student conference i have attended but nonetheless meeting a very brilliant danish girl doing interesting empirical work with students and going out with my old student maria and her colombian boyfriend who introduced me to a great german italian climber making money in danmark as a welder and then going in colombia to build an hostel for climbers down a peack and meeting other colombians and an malta born english guy while eating at a resturant in the hippy neighborhood in copenhagen"

09_076: "News read mostly from my home computer looking at the yahoo world news website which starts to be more and more crowded with commercials and there finding out about allot of sinking particularly tragic ones with african immigrants trying to reach italy and a few airplane crashes in asia killing dozens as well but also deadly stampades in india and the usual bomb attacks in iraq with very little said about the death still caused by the arab spring uprising and the atrocities in congo"

02_117: "a very dream prolific month with a trip to berlin where my fear for punks and performers got me again after many years to rexplore the causes of my dreams and give an interpretation with photographic material about what daily event has affected those dreams i find more meaningful to explain and also keeping small general notes about the most emblematic characteristics of the month production noting how i dreamt quite recurrently about small kids such as my sister's small daughter and my girlfriend's small nephew also being affecte now by allot of videoconferencing with my parents and the latter but also dreaming much with my old son walking and reharsing our weekend walks to forests and museums but also being on a bike unable to stop and the autumn landscape that comes with it particularly the lakes where is too cold now to swim but still dreaming about swimming there hugging my girlfriend as we would make love"

18_036: "clouds edited a bit on the move from both my stationary computer and my laptop while being in my apartment with both myrthe and august working in the kitchen not to wake up the latter and at my parents but still not quite clear about the period when the actual clouds where analyzed but most likely belonging to time I got back to sweden from the states detecting quite many animals like elephants but also smaller creatures like ants and scorpions possibly still affected by the autumn nature"

15_044: "a period of initial distress still undecided about my future in academia and also still potentially depressing due to the academic environment and the procedures that comes with it but really finding a good enthusiasm in developing further my work and reaching a higher perfection which however made me also quite much struggle with the interface design of my project but at last getting a bit of distraction and easiness from myrthe who came here and provided me a good emotional stability also with little august with whom i spent allot of time after he pretended to be sick and in general again finding in the work for my project and a particularly in myrthe a peaceful ground particularly in our short visit to my parents roaming in the nice weather despite the family dentist removing a teeth and my mother getting violent with me and me getting violent with one of her rich friends insulting me at a dinner"

04_044: "a rather polluted month still breathing the bad air of the nearby factorie next to my place and going on a picnic with august between a pharmaceuticol factory and one making heat but also breathing the fresh air of the autumn taking walks by lakes before and after picking myrthe at the stockholm bus station and really experiencing the unusual stockholm traffic now that many can afford cars and again enjoying a bit of the cold fresh autumn air before going to italy and experiencing much traffic both nearby the airport in treviso and particularly in vicenza taking walks with myrthe and finally breathing good air in venice and bad air again traveling by plane and at last really good air in the netherland spending a whole day out with august and myrthe and his mom at an amusement park in the forest"

01_118: "after quite some traveling particularly in berlin that got me very active documenting also to interpret my dreams and get good pictures for my writings i had a full period at home working allot to redefine my project and particularly the website this after perceiving the discontent of my work from the university and also doing allot of work now to restructure my studio to host more potential outcomes of my project particularly seeking more physical and artistic production thu going with august to buy new construction material and getting back to some carpenting but also going to different places to buy a bit of old toys to make small sculptures of the figure i see in the clouds thus preparing for more production to come and also resuming the work out in the gym to keep my heart healthy after feeling some pain in my chest and at last again travling with myrthe this time to italy walking with their in the city and on the hills mostly documenting allot and in various manners"

14_054: "not so much walking from the beginning after all the extensive walking in geramny but at last ending up walking quite a bit trying to enjoy the utumn air and dropping august to the boy scout to walk myself from the university to stockholm and all around it but also taking a small walk with a polish collegue during conference as he also had to walk allot for a disease that almost killed him and walking again in sweden with august and myrthe despite the weather but then finally finding a good weather in northern italy and walking a bit in treviso after landing and allot in vicenza the two of us and in venice with my stepfather who got us quite lost and disoriented and visiting the art biennial there going into funny shapes outdoor from one pavilion to another and so also during a day spent in an amusement park in the netherlands going even in a labyrith"

16_055: "a rather cold weather coming back from sunny berlin and finding stockholm in the middle of the autumn with shorter days and nights of frost yet a few days of sun and being outdoor for walks and bike rides with myrthe in particular till we went together to my parents in northern italy to find a mighty weather getting around in shirt and finally back to sweden to make it soon back to the netherlands and literally finding a weather between the warm south and the cold north"

18_051: "not too often out from the beginning experiencing the autumn wind but eventually exposing myself during walks and bike rides otherwise noticing the wind through the window of my studio observing the bending trees but then going with myrthe to italy and experiencing a light wind particularly in venice visiting the saint mark belfry and then some wind in my visit with august to the netherland"

10_081: "a month characterized first by a bit of stability writing on my dissertation in myrthe's attic but then rebelling to the academic conventions and really sat out exploring berlin with a great weather walking first in the city with myrthe filming new and already explored places but then setting forward alone from the city to the suburbs and filming many public spaces and also much nature particularly on the american spy station hills and through the forest and in rich neighborhoods but also to potsdam filming in the sansouci park and getting caught on a net to cross over to a typical east germany neighborhood"

10_082: "films shot mostly in stockholm taking advantage of the great autumn weather while walking both with august and later with myrthe also going to northern italy and explore there for a short time the city of treviso and then mostly vicenza and venice yet without really concentrating on filming particularly in venice with my stepfather running ahead to show myrthe different locations despite the great silver light to film"

06_030: "taking advantage of the last days of warm weather to go and run but soon ending up running in the university small gym always quite alone using the stepper machine which keeps my baricenter fixed and does not seem to harm my back and knees and here being quite regular other that at times having to rush to attend a seminar or even taking my son august while myrthe kept working in the university library and overall keeping a good condition and feeling very much better after the excercises eliminating the chest pains and particularly my stress"

13_031: "painting executed really sporadicly with all the summer trips and rearranging of my studio finally positioning the painting side at the far end under a strong light which will allow me to photograph the paintings under the same conditions and with a wooden small shelf to place the water and pencils now again painting much more simple and unified shapes with again these circular recurrent shapes and drop like falling blue intersecting with other diagonal layers swap in various levels but nonetheless with a quite worked out texture of many subtle nuances"

09_077: "news collected quite much on the road and mostly from the internet both in sweden and at my parents place but also hearing from myrthe about a storm in th netherlands causin a few casualties and many a casualties also read of natural catastrophes in the philippines and minor one else where alson with the usual deads following atacks particularly in muslim countries"

15_045: "a bit of a more emotionally unstable month with both the care i put in my project and in my body by going to the gym being really the stabilizers and bringing some energetic days with the otherwise much gray weather both in sweden and the netherlans where i also took august and felt his influence with a day being most friendly and another being quite negative and making also myrhte rather negative too but then having nice weekends together with both him and lastly with myrthe finding quite an harmony together"

11_078: "drawings executed in the autumn while traveling to myrthe in the netheralnds and having to look after august in sweden and thus not being very regular executing them but always finding some time to execute those ideas belonging instead to still the beginning of the year when i was leaving alone taking two university courses at once and being quite affected by the seating in the classroom with a few drawings related to it but mostly to the cold weather and the shopping at the big supermarket and the constant commuting by train to the university and to august together with allot of sexual ideas despite the fact that i have abstained from sex for many months then after the separation"

16_056: "a rather grayish but relatively warm beginning of the winter yet quite rainy too from the beginning till august and i went for a small holiday in the netherlands finding a most amazing and warm weather followed also there by a bit of gray weather and also sun but with a cold winter to then come back to sweden and finding a long period of gray yet stable weather also once back in the netherlands finding a great sunny and warm day in rotterdam but then returning to sweden and finding that the temperature as dropped below zero and the weather got much nicer and sunny"

18_052: "not too much wind from the beginning being with august in the netheralnds but experiencing much wind while walking with him in a forest of breda and then almost no wind back in sweden but on my way back to the netherlands where again the wind was not too strong although allot of subtle changes where felt in rotterdam while walking by the water and a bit stronger walking out of myrthe's attic to do some tai-chi by the river yet at last going back to sweden finding almost no wind but in the very end experiencing it quite strongly up on a cliff with august where it was impossible to light any proper fire"

02_118: "dreams written from the begining while much traveling and yet being able to keep remebering my dreams like at my parents in italy being rather overtaken by a violent argument i had with a rich venetian woman and having a few dreams with violent content but also dreaming more often about myrthe and the way i exchange her for another girl and so also dreaming more frequently of my stepsister and her dog but turned into a dangerous one as well as fearing immigrants people in my apartment and even in bed with my son this after taking the metro with him and them to come here but also having nicer dreams with landscapes and hills despite the constant fear of my supervisor and the academic environment and also the influence of video conferencing with myrth at night and even with my biological father whom i have not talked to in years"

05_044: "story started in berlin while hosted by a gay couple and yet inspired by the cicadas found this summer in the italian sea side leaving their bodies attached to the trees and also much of the story then really much inspired by my situation in academia with the professors imposing their canons and somewhat demotivating the students which i wrote after some time and on a different notebook thinking to have left the previous notebook in berlin where i already once forgot some drawings but also concluding the story in a way by reversing the moral of the usual cicada that sings and than die in the winter not being hosted by the ants now having the cicada overcoming the diligency of the ants and even affecting the work of the ants once his singing is no longer heard"

14_055: "a month characterized by not so much walking as the autumn has being a bit wet and i spent much time at home even though i did travel to the netherlands and i did manage there to take some nice walks first with august around utrecht and the to rotterdam taking a decent excursion by myself and later with sweet myrthe who joined me but then no other bigger walks were made other than a bit in the southern suburbs of stockholm and in stockholm with august and by myself but also with him on a nice day walking up a little cliff overlooking a lake"

04_045: "pretty good air quality aside for a couple of days where i for instance walked with august along a big a trafficked road in stockholm to reach his mother and then also another experience of walking by a busy road with myrthe while in rotterdam trying to get around the city otherwise finding the air rather clean both in sweden and the netherlands and even not so bad in the airports now experiencing a clean wind blowing away the planes' emissions and not even feeling too much the pollution from the nearby factory while staying allot at home for the winter weather even though towards the end it was sunny and i being doing gymnasticcs in my little park inhaling good air"

17_037: "still likely in the states and possibly employed at the university but nonetheless spending quite some time out observing many a clouds which from the beginning have much animal content with also a few kids but then shifts more to women with even a white woman being beaten by a black guy and more elegant ones but still presumambly showing a bit of sexual repression on my side or provocations with all the female american colleagues wearing decollets"

03_063: "a long period of songs mostly sung by myrthe like an in love bird while at his brother place in maastricht or biking down in belgium and walking on the hills there hearing her happy and singing but then also songs heard from august singing in my apartment while constructing his virtual world and feeling very happy or also when myrthe came again to visit me in sweden hearing her singing and teaching me the dutch song of tumba tumba also while biking and ending there also in a church of hippies hearing some gospel singing there to then end up at my parents place and along with the constant singing of myrthe of love songs to me there hearing songs from the radio like when visiting my old best friend francesco in his country house"

01_119: "a beginning of the month quite much dedicated to my still little son august taking him to the netherlands to both go to an amusement park there and later at a myrthe's old grandmother's birthday and thus doing small activities but then returning to sweden and setting off seriously both restructuring both my website and of consequence also finding new motivation to work on the show-case in my studio thus beginning do make a big murales on a wall representing my interface and building a little storage for my project in the closet where i was thinking to have the bathroom but hten having to go to the netherlands and spending my time there too working on my website and helping jason to move and build ikea furnitures in his new place getting a back pain but nonetheless going back to sweden and working hard on my studio show-case and also going to the gym and the office much regularly finding always something physical to do there as well like printing and stampling papers"

06_031: "a good month of running quite constantly going regularly to the university and using the stepper machine there also taking august again letting him train with me and even after my only lecture this semester being filled with thoughts in my head while exercising but then going to the netheralnds and coming back with a back pain but still stretch allot and try to keep up the training mostly to avoid stress and a recurrent pain in the left part of my chest managing also by comining chinese gymnastic out in the park and running indoor but lastly getting again a bit of inflamation under my left foot which got me trying to train first bare foot and then on a cyclette for the first time"

08_084: "trash collected on the sidewalk still despite the end of the summer both alone in sweden mostly in the immigrant city where i live and in the netherlands with myrthe walking extensively for instance in amsterdam but also alone around utrecht"

08_085: "most of the trash collected in berlin taking advantage of the great weather there and collecting both the usual cards to for export of expensive cars but also much related to the october fest celebration there with many alchool relate fliers and disco events"

08_086: "still collecting trash in berlin walking with myrthe in the northern part and then hitting alone the very west of berlin to end up in potsdam and then keep up a bit of urban walking and side-walk collecting in stockholm and finally a bit in my parents town of vicenza"

09_078: "aside from the many middle east news bringing constantly new casualties also other casualties in russia with an airplane crash and several building collapses causing many death in latvia and china and a few also in italy but even some dead in europe due to unusual bad weather and a huricane killing several people but of which i have heard of from jacek and myrthe else reading mostly everything from the internet at home"

07_057: "head shots taken while still in copenhagen at my colombian friens' place meeting their other colombian friends like a photographer who seemed quite interesting but then went off watching a football game and an colombian born italian german girl who was rather conventional a weird looking but then going with jacek for a tour in the dolomites and there meeting two old ladies after our avalanche accident hearing the story of the first one from perugia telling us how emberassed she was to look at naked soldiers bathing in the river during the great war and then another one in the empty hotel of a village by lake garda who actually has been working as a teacher in germany and has lost her fiance also in a mountain accident making her rather sorrowful hearing that we also risked our lives and there at the café of the hotel meeting a polish guy working as the tender and complaining about the italian situation despite him being very well off in such a paradise and then meeting an italian guy on the plane to sweden who like me had found a swedish girlfriend and was ready to settle up north and finally in the sudetic mountains in southern poland meeting one of jacek's friend named also jacek who was also a musicians and artist but with many introvert issuees"

14_056: "little walking resuming at full speed my activity at the university but also due to the unstable weather conditions and very little traveling aside for a visit to jacek in malmo with myrthe and august following him in his restless walk of the town to fulfill his gps walking project while i also had to take care of august and of filming so not really being able to concentrate and enjoy the walk and not really walking so much in stockholm again because of the winter stormy weather and the darkness but only walking once to reach august to the christmas marlet at his school"

15_046: "a very emotionally unstable period with the winter darkness setting in and an hopeless feeling not knowing with whom and where my love myrthe goes out and at last being really back in love once again and deciding her to come to live with me making me most happy and also trying then to improve my ituation at the university taking bold steps in changing my supervisor for a more competent one and having myrthe coming here too and starting quite low but then getting fully emotional and with allot of feelings to share"

16_057: "a period spent entirely in sweden facing a big whether change from a mighty autumn to harsh start of the winter with a large snow storm that august and i have epxperinced going down south to malmo where we even saw a blue thunder in the midlle of the night and experiencing there the harsh windy climate of the south part of sweden to then come back to the much calmer weather of central east sweden and living mostly indoor with all the gloominess of a snowless wether getting too warm and rainy preanouncing a black christmas"

04_046: "a period characterized by very clean air due to allot of wind cleaning up and mostly only smelling the neighbor factories while training out in the little park of the nighborhood and mostly be exposed to the car pollution when going to the city like in stockholm buying august scout equipment for christmas or walking to pick him up to the train station but otherwise experiencing either the sterile air inside the university where i anyway keep a window a bit open like also in my apartment sleeping with myrthe and needing extra oxygen or the much wind we have experienced when visiting jacek in malmo after the snow storm"

04_046: "while the previous periods have been characterized by very little wind this one has been terribly windy bringing first allot of wind experienced on the way to august's christmas market through the fields and then bringing a snow storm which i faced with august and jacek down to the south of sweden which seems more affected by this weather and also getting much wind while walking with them and myrthe in malmo even getting my whole camera falling with the tripod and then getting back to stockholm with the winter which has not set in and experiencing a moment of calmness before getting more strong wind with a too warm winter temperature"

01_120: "a pretty intensive month both getting ready for christmas and using up allot of my money to buy presents and also working hard on my studio finishing the murales and going quite further with other installation but other than that being quite much at the university where i have resumed teaching and thus spending idle hours listening to students presentations and only using markers but then having both august and myrthe over and letting go to all the work in the studio to travel to my parents in italy being at first confined in their mountain cottage during christmas working on my booklet with a video-game i have in made and then much filming and documenting exploring the surrounding historical cities also with jacek and brett"

01_119: "very seldom dreams due to both the university situation with which i have been waking up instead of remembering my dreams and also due to all the traveling i did both with myrthe and jacek in northern italy but getting here more dreams about mountains and open spaces which i much lack in sweden been quite mostly indoor and in the dark"

10_083: "still filming in italy while with myrthe and my parents in venice and making it back briefly to sweden before getting back this time with august to the netherlands enjoying some nice weather but only being able to really conistently film on my return there alone having spent a whole sunny day in rotterdam doing several films in the modern spaces to the return to sweden"

10_084: "films of public spaces from the beginning recorded in sweden despite the weather and the little exploration of public spaces which i actually resumed once again with myrthe particularly in northern italy exploring several cities and smaller historical towns but also taking advantage of the warm winter weather to explore several moutains"

06_032: "running still in the gym despite again a back pain and also pain under the foot thus trying to run without shoes but still accomplishing good result as i have been very much willing to push out stress and work anger but also getting interrupted by the other international students with whom i have talked and lastly taking advantage of the warm winter to run outside and make a new track in the park where i do chinese gymnastics running twice perpenduclarly to it to accomplish a lap on the grass rather than on the hard asphalt of the parking lot where i used to run in the neighborhood and also going there to run with august after the christmas break and being a bit stressed by him lastly to finish quickly"

13_032: "painting executetd in the far end wall of my studio now well equipped with all colors hanging on a little shelf at my waist and started also to get a bit freer in painting shapes that are more organic with still some subtractions of circular shapes from a water like layer coming from above but also enjoying to experiment with fine textures like adding dark orange on purple and gold on yellow and resuming the use of white and black mostly on the main gray background having also little of that colour left"

17_038: "still possibly clouds captures in the summer spent traveling from new england and around the ontario lake with some ratheer sexual scenes possibly due to some frustration like at work but also with a few monkeys and many birds mixed with other human and animal elements"

09_079: "news read mostly on the internet and quite unregularly while on vacation in northern italy but beside that news which are characterized by many casualties still in the middle east as usual but with many now also in central african countries where political and sectarian fightingis taking place and only a few casualties in western countries like in north america where the winter has been particularly rigid"

16_058: "a month in which i experienced all sorts of weather like the gloomy and not too cold of sweden to then travel with myrthe to the alps and also there find that the winter has not started expecting allot of snow at my parents' place at last getting so much rain that it went through the ceilling but then moving to the foot of the mountain and experiencing most sunny days in verona and latter the most gorgeous winter day in the island of the iseo lake with very good visibility of the alps and also a sunny day walking in the mountains to then get again rain and move back to the gloomy cloudiness of sweden but at last experiencing a sudden turn with a cold but sunny winter setting in with finally snow making the landscape very inviting and nice"

18_054: "a start of the month with quite a strong wind experienced here in sweden while walking with myrthe and august in a small forest and almost getting struck by a timber eaten by a beaver which the wind made falling and then traveling to italy and experiencing there a super powerful wind in the mountains bringing hot air from the south and not the snow storm that was supposed to come and then experiencing a bit of wind while walking in venice but no more instances of wind particularly back in sweden where some wind has brought snow but has then calmed down"

11_079: "ideas got with the beginning of the spring finally getting more out after the snowy winter and much time seated attending classes and taking now walks with august observing nature coming alive discovering a beach with beavers and getting ideas there but also still from lectures and time spent indoor and slowly also becoming affected by a new element in my life having found my love myrthe and traveling to her to enjoy the spring together but not really focusing on my project afraid of loosing focus from her"

14_057: "allot of walking with the warm weather being in northern italy and exploring with both myrthe and later hjacek and brett allot of hisotrical places like verona and venice and brescia and bergamo but also fabulous natural sights like the island of the iseo lake and some valleys and mountains below and around my native highland being very inviting with the sunny weather at times and then coming back to sweden and only walking to enjoy the arrival of the snow and to get some work related distress out but mostly stopping to walk and keeping indoor"

15_047: "emotionally very happy days traveling to italy with my love despite the long journey and the bad weather in the mountains now also feeling reassured about my future in academia and later much enjoying the italian cities despite only the presence of myrthe's mother that got a bit irritating but really getting enthusiast with also jacek after fantastic walks in amazing locations and getting quite down back in sweden but again very happy of the prospect of changing environment but at last being completely squeezed by my old supervisor and forced to go through them in order to improve my situation"

04_047: "a beginning of the month being rather polluted having gone to northern italy with my love and at first experiencing the fresh air of the mountains turned even cleaner by an unusual winter storm and then moving below the mountains and exploring cities with much pollution like in verona parking far out not to pay for the parking and having to walk through big road but also back in the mountains with much of a winter holiday traffic and later visiting other small cities with less polution or not polution at all like in the gorgeous iseo lake and finding clean air back in sweden with the cold weather and not going to often to the city"

13_033: "painting executed rather rapidly having the need to distract myself from work related issues and being left at home with the snow out recovering the usual elements of the drop and of the grass but really now playing with colors and mixing different nuances yet without being to tedious about perfectly filling in the margins being my brush to big for it"

05_045: "a story talking place in my former parents-in-law country house which was easy to reimaging in all its details and places but really inspired by the mice in myrthe's attic in utrecht and by the fact that i also call her sweetly a little mouse with some parts also inspired by the salami we got from my parents in italy and myrthe's little hairs of which she is a bit obsessed and the snow boots now that is winter thinking of the very hairy ones i used to see in italy"

07_059: "winter days spent in poland meeting again all jacek musicians friends spending new years eve with them by the czech mountains and getting quite admired by them for my drawings but also meeting jacek's cousin anna who talks really well italian and took me to her italian lessons in the high school where she teaches but then also meeting her less inspiring boyfriend who taught me some stretching exercises and even getting to know a latin american girl getting study money from sweden but living in poland to save and at last meeting a crazy experimental music girl friend of jacek from the north of poland"

01_121: "a month spent doing mostly documenting activities in the first place being traveling around northern italy with myrthe and jacek and then coming back to stockholm and again not doing many activities with myrthe coming over for a few days and then not really undertaking any carpentry work but being often at the university trying to create new collaborations but also doing more distracting work not to think about my supervisor situation such as painting and drawing and even cooking less than usual when myrthe has been around"

02_119: "a quite troubled month with first the traveling to italy in and then all the disstress caused by university situation which gotme often awake in the middle of the night while beginning to dream but then getting better by watching movies with myrthe and latter august and starting not to think about work and getting a few sexual dreams being mostly afraid that myrthe has sex with others or that i make love to ugly girls mostly inspired by the movies we watched but also dreaming quite much about mountains and the native highland i have recently explored with also dreams regarding the selling of my grandparents' house there to which i am informed through my father in canada and several dreams fearing that i am forgetting to pick up my son or that i have abandoned him now that my future in sweden next him is very precarious"

03_064: "not so many songs heard alone but mostly when being with myrthe and or august for instance going to the efterling amusement park all together and listening to sting on the way back or just singing military songs learned from my grandfather to myrthe's mother or hearing the dutch songs sang for myrthe's old grandmother at her hundred and two birthday then mostly hearing songs at the gym training and listening to a rock station to then gradually get in the chrsitmas atmosphere and start hearing christmas songs like by the gypsi saxophonist at the entrance of the university escalator"

17_039: "not really clear again as to when these clouds where observed but it is likely while being in the united states still spending the afternoons with august after school and detecting many prehistoric figures and allot of laying humans often in a sexual pose with small kids involved"

13_034: "painting executed rather quickly now that i need time to get distracted from my bad supervisor situation at the university and here also trying to be rather clean in the shapes but articulating a bit the dropping blue using the perforated spheres in the yellow background as some sort of holders to the liquid using again the black and the silver with grass like green layer and alternating the soft gold yellow and pink backgrounds"

09_080: "news read quite regularly on the internet at home yet not really finding any striking casualty news other than again an accident in canada where elders burnt to death and fighting in the central africa while most of all the other news are the rather redundant ones of the fighting in the middle east which is however escalating in egypt"

14_058: "walking mostly in the city of stockholm with the snow and myrthe over for a few weeks showing her around the different parts of town but also taking a walk with my old supervisor up the river where i used to walk with august and latter also taking longer walks with little myrthe to also go to the shopping center near my suburb and to pick up the japanese mats in a distant warehouse but being later incapable to carry them any further and at last doing small walks by myself around the university during the single one day of sun this also to avoid my old colleagues and at last coming to utrecht and walking to myrthe's place and out to a restaurant with jason"

16_059: "a quite okay beginning of the month with the winter turning properly cold and giving both snow and latter sun but then gradually turning mild again and bringing in several days with wind and snow to finally stabilizing but keeping rather gray and at last even getting above zero degrees and melting down the powdery snow bringing even rain till at last going to the netherlands and also finding a very mild temperature but again rain"

04_048: "a pretty clean month spent also quite much out despite the winter finally kicking in but bringing quite a clean air overall and little traffic even in the stockholm city where i often ended up with little myrthe and really only brathing bad air while jogging in the snow free parking lot with several trucks coming by or finally traveling to the netherlands after a long period and smelling the airplane fuel but getting a quite mild and very fresh air down in maastricht walking on the hills"

15_048: "despite all the distress caused by my supervisor situation at the university attempting to get a new one feeling much love and intimancy with little myrthe on my side doing several small adventures together and then also trying to focus at hom on my own art like painting and drawing in order not to think about work and really getting stronger also conducting the research my own way and doing allot of other art work like editing videos or at last setting forth with learning how to make videogames with august but then feeling rather distressed of traveling to the netherlands and going to a mainstream musem and lastly becoming really happy of our statying in maastricht exploring the nice nature and enjoying my first sun in weeks feeling much love for myrthe"

18_055: "an apperantly quite period with moderate wind and calm snow fall turned into more harsh weather bringing in more snow while being allot out particularly with myrthe showing her stockholm and picking the japanese mats for our bed and then experiencing less wind till at last coming to the netherlands and getting a first some wind calming during the evening but then much wins in maastricht while hiking on the hills with myrthe's relatives"

06_033: "a quite regular period of running with little traveling and also the snow out which at first made me continue running in my little park going twice diagonally to it in order to accomplish my usual lap hurrying up at times to go to meetings but then having to switch to the parking lot with the melting of the snow and running there a few times despite the traffic pollution and the hard asphalt not good for my knees but lastly finding the snow completely melted and running again in the park this time only having to pay attention to the dog poo and keeping up good tempo"

03_065: "still allot of love songs heard from myrthe who came over to sweden before christmas but also a few songs heard from my students showing and making advertisment campaigns and a bit of songs heard from august at his school for the christmas market but then going with myrthe to italy and hearing allot of songs from my little nephew anna and at my sister's dancing with her ut also the usual traditional christmas songs in the church of my native village asiago and while in the main hotel there working with myrthe on our laptops"

13_035: "still being quite at home with the winter and avoiding the university so spending quite some time painting and keeping up the previous painting with the green grass and the yellowish background but this time making a circulare subtraction in the middle without really any usual surface color but experimenting much with different colors mixed on the panel trying to reach different shades and feeling like this painting is really an in between painting of two other paintings compressed as it is by the diagonal shapes on the sides and also playing with a pink semi circular shape not really paying too much attention to finish too well the boarders"

05_046: "a fable inspired by an evening spent with my kid driving down from a small mountain in my native highland with the road filled with toads and also possibly reflecting my state being taken up and down by providence and reflecting the many castles visited during our recent stay in italy and particularly to verona visited with myrthe with romeo and juliet being quite present in the story as much as the romeo and juliet disputes played by my two families however also coming out with many small genius inventions as the electrically control dead army of toads"

11_080: "ideas got in my very first period in love with myrthe so other than the office related idea i got many ideas that are romance and sex oriented but also relating to all my traveling by plane to her and to my parents in italy with also the many arabs immigrants i encounter daily when taking the commuter"

11_081: "still several airplane related ideas now going for a few weeks to boston and really making use of the weather taking long walks and observing the urban environment but then back to sweden getting again a few sexual ideas with myrthe visiting me and also some ideas at work like when going to the university gym"

01_122: "a month spent getting quite much into my own research and thus doing quite allot of office related activities like printing at the university and having to use my card in order to access the printer and then photograph again the computer mouse going back to my office but also a month spent allot with august walking around and filming and in a few occasions at the swimming pool after many years but this time not bringing my camera along and only swimming with long periods without using any object as it is also the case for the few times i traveled to the netherlands at the beginning and at the end of the month"

16_060: "a very nice weather experienced in maastricht walking the hills with myrthe's relatives and then going back to sweden to instead experience a constant gray weather and at last a day of snow to soon melt in rain but at last giving a one single day of sun in which august and i have been out for a short bikeride and a long walk in the woods to then experience gray cold weather again till at last i went to lovely myrthe in the netherland and got a very a sunny day feeling the spring coming back to us making us super in love to at last depart again and ending up in malmo for a course"

18_056: "experiencing quite allot of winf from the beginning in the netherlands particularly during a little walk on the hills in maastricht with myrthe and her relatives which anyway opened up the sky and got me sun after a long time and then back to sweden experiencing little wind but walking with august in the forest and getting at last a sunny day but then again experiencing little wind till at last going to the netherland again and getting some wind and also cloudless sky and the same going to very windy malmo being at the university there next to the ocean"

17_040: "still not sure where i collected this clouds but probably now in sweden given the boats and acquatic things depicted here possibly captures while running or walking along the water and also a few knight related clouds and a few quite complex ones"

14_059: "walking fairly enough prticularly with august during his carnival holidays going far exploring a big natural reserve opposite to the harbour and also making new nice discoveries finding a little old village on a hill over södertaälje but also walking quite much with myrthe in the netherlands both at the beginning of the months when still in maastricht and the latter alone in eindhoven to then walk with her at the end of the month in utrecht and in a surrounding forest which we also reached biking as i did in sweden with august"

04_049: "a month without so much polution other than in few occasion when walking at the beginning in eindhoven waiting for the airplane and then just when running back in my neighborhood feeling the factories at the distance but other than that being rather indoor and getting good air beside when leaving august at his school and getting allot of pollution of all the rich people there with cars and smelling also the dust from all the granite stones put all over the city for the ice now completely melted"

15_049: "a better month now that my university situation got adjusted still having a one period feeling shit coming back to sweden with the gray weather and august at home and no exercise but then making great discoveries with him and adventures in the neighborhood and feeling much better also with the weather getting more sunny and then going to the netherlands and feeling down having to face a bit the art society there but soon getting to feel very good after a bike ride with myrthe in the sun and latter joining a conference at the new university of the arts in stockholm and getting quite a few friends feeling happy also about my new supervisor stina"

09_081: "news read quite regularly on-line and mostly related to minor death occurences with several accidents like plane crashes and bus crashes but also the usual attacks and the syrian war that continues and other conflicts such as attacks in nigeria killing quite many but not really talked of"

10_085: "films of publis spaces started in the most beautiful panorama offered by the island of monteisola in the iseo lake and then continuing with the usual northern italian cities already explored like in venice and my sunny mountains to then get back to the awful scandinavian winter mostly filming places showed to myrthe and the reaching her in the netherlands shortly to visit her brother in beautiful maastricht and filming there during a walk on the hills and latter in boring eindhoven with nothing really to be explored"

03_066: "songs heard still while in italy listening to the radio in the many trips by car with jacek and myrthe singing and then also back in sweden listening to the songs on the radio and to august singing while playing video-games on my computer but also in the few weeks that myrthe spent here listening to her singing love songs to me an dplaying romantic music in the evening while dining"

02_120: "a month with initially allot of dreams but then getting quite affected to at last completely burnt out from traveling and particularly skype conversations with my father provoking a few violent dreams and myrthe with whom we also tried to make love on the distance but nonetheless being also affected by all the academic reading and writings and at last be able to get more wet in my head by biking allot out with the new spring sun"

06_034: ”back to running in my little park after the snow melted and despite an initial cold and gray weather being a bit disturbed by a lady coming with her pitbul dog but then running again with the new spring sun and also august who found many little kintergarten friends to play with and even starting to feel an headache but then quickly resolve it by running and so also all the stiff legs i got seating for too long at my desk feeling in the end really great ans also running with only my t-shirt despite all the parallel training done biking out to the nature”

14_060: ”walking with much now in malmö going with jacek to seminars and then quite allot with a portughese philosopher i met at an oprning and walking with him and his egyptina friend all around the ciy but then also biking allot and latter exploring by feet the nice area around järna and lastly doing quite some walking in sunny utrecht trying to get over the traveling and also with myrthe while starting to perceive allot of worries about coming and leaving with me”

18_057: "a month period started in the very windy city of malmö and then continued over to stockholm experiencing allot of wind particularly going by bike and being more or less exposed by it depending on the landscape and getting allot of wind when biking with myrthe and august on our way back from an antopophysic institute and during sugust's birthday when the weather got really dreadful and we tried to walk out but got some frozen wind welcoming us and finally getting to the netherlands experiencing some wind there despite the lovely weather and finally back to always windy malmö walking to the university with jacek and being quite exposed"

12_045: "more recording of my thoughts gathered in very seldom occasions when left without august and myrthe thinking again about my intellectually constrained situation in academia but also about my incresingly more difficult situation with myrthe who no longer wishes to live with me and recording more frequently as the spring comes out while walking to the mall but also in the forest behind august's apartment"

01_123:"a quite active month not traveling so often and seriously now archiving all the physical outcomes of my project in boxes but also spending some lovely days out enjoying the sunny weather and biking quite allot even with august and for a whole night surviving as nomads and other than that spend time in utrecht with myrthe and there concentrating myself more on writing down papers for each part of my project and finding little energy going back to sweden but at last doing some major changes in my studio resuming the interactive wall project"

04_050:"a month spent quite allot outside biking and inhaling some occasional traffic going on big road south of my place to reach the open country but particularly inhaling allot of the dust from all the gravel placed on the road in the winter and a few times also smelling the iron of the factories nearby but other than than that inhaling fresh air in utrecht despite the traffic found in the outskirt when biking with myrthe and the usual smell of the airplane gasoline when traveling"

15_050:": "a period feeling rather burnt out but then finding back my focus with sunny days biking and feeling bad again with myrthe now deciding not to come over this fall and then getting much of a winter weather once again till at last feeling very good about biking out with august to the countryside despite a fight with a camping site owner and gaining much happiness to finally be allowed by my new supervisor to move on with my project in a more experimental way"

07_059: "still in krakow meeting up with jacek's friend while he was already gone and going out mostly in the evening in bars talking to them about the hobbies they have to leave aside such as music but also meeting a very nice short girl who was also a musician and sang from her room while i was trying to organize an exhibition which brought me to talk to a curator of a new institute and then on my way back to sweden at night meeting an indian student very afraid of me since i walked to the road to the city center and latter meeting a swedish italian nice guy studying old history after which i met a finn swedish at an opening with quite allot of vitality and with whom we tried to do some exhibition again but never managed and at last meeting a cool colleague of jacek from manchester with allot of nice stories and quite nice political opinions revealing me many insights of old england"

09_082: "news looked up regularly on the web switching at last to a new news website with less commercials and reading about rather big events such as a plane disappearing with hundreds people in the ocean near malasya and a big landslide in the states while also reading the usual attacks in the restless middle east but also finding quite many casualties reported in south america"

17_041: "i am not really sure where these clouds were examined possibly still in the states also given the amount of cowboys in imagined and also a few flying figures like a super hero but also a few fishes mostly incorporated in other creatures"

10_086:"going out a bit more with the coming of the spring and filming public spaces with august being still in the city center of stockholm but also södertälje and there exploring in nice days the forest and countryside to the south also taking the bike and doing so alone and then also exploring again the southern swedish city of malmö with jacek and not really being able to film public spaces as much as i wanted to but on the other hand being left quite alone in utrecht with myrthe working and a very nice weather outside which has allowed me to again explore the little but very nice city"

05_047: "a story inspired by a little duck i kept seeing with august when walking into town by the river and being most amazed by its physiognomy and also by an actual drunk who shared old muffins with all the other birds but somehow never feeding that duck i later found out to be called a sculp and being also quite impressed about its diving features and the fact that they are typical of this vikings region and the very river where they used to transport their bounty into a hidden island"

02_122: "a month with some periods in which I could really have regular nights of sleep despite all the working late and traveling and now sleeping of mistaking my girlfriend for a blond girl and recurrently dreaming about the possible upcoming interview for a new job with my old english colleague but also dreaming of a suicide and several dreams inspired by the textures of the virtual environment i intend to create beside also the show room i am actually building and still feeling quite shocked about having myrthe's bag stolen with my camera and getting all the rumanian gypsies i see in town quite much disturbing my psyche and feeling also inspired by the places i have recently visited like karlstad reminding me of asiago but also the last visit to my parents who got me quite frustrated with their cars and sick dog"

16_062: "beginning of the spring with sun picking up august in his island and then spending a wonderful weekend by bike even daring to camp out in the ocean despite the minus temperature at night which got ice on the tent but then finding a much worst weather and quite rainy on the west coast of stockholm where i went for a course till finally getting again quite some nice weather and a very sunny easter spent first with august biking to a movie theater and then with myrthe also walking in stockholm and biking along the water to a very beautiful little mountain from where to appreciate the super blue sky and sun even taking out our shirts"

18_058: "not so much wind from the beginning experiencing first from the beginning biking with august in the nice weather and spending a weekend camping but then getting back to work and not really experiencing much wind till at last going to visit my parents in italy and experiencing quite some wind walking along a little lake with my sister and her daughter and lastly coming back to sweden and again spending quite some time with august for winter holiday this time also biking and feeling much wind also later spending the rest of the holiday here in sweden with myrthe feeling the wind during our walk with åsmund to a rose garden"

03_067: "a month of songs started in utrecht with the bells of the ancient bellfry still playing songs and later continued in a family reunion in maastricht listening to myrthe's mother singing songs to little pepjn and also to his toys as the toys i used to listen from my son with who i spent several weekends still getting to hear myrthe singing also while videoconferencing but also hearing songs while in the swimming pool with august and having to memorize them as i could not write them on my phone in the water and then listening to myrthe again singing in utrecht and making me listen to several musical and pop songs i first thought cheesy but then got in my head and also playing more serious and existential songs like those of the pearl jams with jacek in his apartment with a guitar till finally getting back to stockholm and spending time with august listening to the ice cream trucks now back with the spring and going later to italy listening to all the songs sung by little anna and back in sweden listening to both the songs heard by august watching cartoons like family guy but also in the cinema together till at last getting all the songs sung by myrthe on her visit here"

14_061: "quite allot of walking with the starting of a nice spring combined from the beginning with allot of biking to small forests that i explored on foot or to a camping site down in jarna with august but also taking a few walks in the peaceful karlstad where i had a course and then in vicenza where i visited my parents and particularly enjoyed wandering on the hills of monteviale where i once was painting for a whole summer walking also with francesco to the monteberico sanctuary after a little run but walking also quite allot back in södertälje with august going all the way across town and to the north part which i have never explored but only to end up to a mall with a print shop to later find a nice way back through the cemetery and the forest and also walking in stockholm with myrthe and åsmund enjoying the nice spring weather and ending up in beautiful djursholm"

04_051: "a quite clean spring here in södertälje but still getting quite some pollution in stockholm when walking there and instead getting allot of fresh air in the small city of karlstad where i went for a course to later go to vicenza to my parents and inhaling allot of traffic there and also back in sweden with august trying to reach a print shop in the north of town with a big road filled with cars to cross but then only smelling occasionally the factories nearby with everything a bit shut and tranquil because of easter holidays despite however a road nearby my apartment where they putting new asphalt which i could breath through the open windows and some biking i did particularly to the university"

15_051: "still feeling bad about myrthe not coming over but getting gradually better just having a slight melancholy within me and enjoying my time in italy taking walks in the nature but still feeling bad about distant relationships till at last i got settle with it and accepted my lonely life with occasional time to share with august and myrthe and concentrate with my own work which gave me quite some satisfactions feeling rather euphoric about the show-room i am building in my apartment despite also being rejected to the university of the arts where i applyed in the moment of deep crisis with academia but now feeling most relieved with my new supervisor and the possibility to switch to ethnography"

11_082: "a summer month spent with myrthe mostly in the netherlands working and being quite affected but all our love making and thus getting many ideas in this respect but also still ideas related to flying and traveling and even of biking since with myrthe we did some nice excursion in the countryside"

11_083: "a period initially spent in england attending a summer school and getting a few ideas related to that but also about all the walking i did there in the english landscape reaching nice medieval villages and latter again getting ideas related to flying and then with myrthe again biking in the netherlands but at last getting many ideas related to our staying at the beach at my parents place in italy"

08_087: "trash mostly picked first while in the netherland walking alone and with myrthe around utrecht and also during a sunny day spent alone in rotterdam where i also picked small and nice casino cards and then picking after christmas in italy walking however mostly in nature or historical sites despite a day in the city of brescia but still being with myrthe and jacek and not really picking much"

08_088: "still some trash picked during my christmas holiday in italy like during a nice visit with myrthe to the beautiful city of verona but mostly trash collected walking in sweden both in sötertälje and in stockholm where some snow has also fallen making the sidewalk really dirty and latter trash collected in the southern city of malmö that had no snow but allot of wind throwing all the trash around and collecting there quite much trash during my exploration of the little and gray city"

08_089: "trash initially collected while in the netherlands walking mostly alone around utrecht and even in maastricht but lastly collecting most of the trash in sweden and in particular walking occasionally through the little downtown of södertälje despite still some occasional snow on the sidewalk and quite bad weather"

01_124: "a month spent working really hard on my project now that my new supervisor stina is in favor of it and thus pushing quite much to construct my show-room making several times too many activities over the maximum amount i use for my layout and also while visiting my parents photographing way too many activities because of the many keys and doors to lock in their rich house house but also biking allot and doing allot of activities outdoor especially during the easter vacation with august with whom i also kept up working on my show-room and doing allot of purchases for it but then going down in activities with myrthe coming over and also concentrating on the construction of my virtual environment which wanted me mostly seated and in front of my computer but nonetheless also doing quite many activities at the university having to use my card to activate the printer and certainly increasing my activities also with the smart phone i got from my mother with which i now communicate to myrthe"

06_035: "not so much running because of allot of biking but nonetheless going quite regularly out with the nice spring weather to the little park in the neighborhood and going also a few times in the evening with the days getting longer or right before a one lecture i gave and thus having to hurry but also feeling my legs tired for the training done at the gym and later feeling observed by a family with their kid enjoying the nice weather and when it got colder by a group of young arabs after i worked all day seated on my virtual game and feeling then still rather strong"

09_083: ”news read regularly and now getting quite redundant information about casualties in syria and other muslims countries such as nigeria but also with an escalating amount of deaths in the pro-russian parts of ukraine and again deaths caused by natural calamities in the states”

17_042: "still not sure where i recorded these clouds but likely still while in the states walking with my kid and detecting here some nudities and a few cowboys with the figure of the horse coming back as well as other animals but also laptops which might indicate my psychological state then and makes me suspect that i could have already got back to sweden"

18_059: "a bit of a turbulent month with quite some wind from the beginning doing quidong outside the university and then experiencing light changes biking alone outside of södertälje to finally get quite some wind with the changing of the weather and the wind bringing even snow and followed by relatively low wind spending much time inside coding my video-game but at last experiencing allot of wind walking through Amsterdam and seeing cardboards flying around but finally experiencing quite little wind back in sweden"

16_063: "very nice beginning of the month with warm sun followed by still allot of sun but temperatures going below zero at night followed by again a few days of very warm but cloudy weather cut down but a sudden cold temperature which even brought snow and then at last going to the netherlands for a conference and feeling warmer there but then experiencing much rainy days till at last going back to sweden again and find at least dryer weather but still cold till at last find a warm spring again"

14_062: "a quite decent amount of walking this month initially biking and hiking in a natural reserve in södertälje and then going to the west coast of sweden for a course and doing small hiking there with jacek reaching a beautiful lakein alingsås and joining a conference in amsterdam thereafter having to walk quite a long way from the station to the zoo but really enjoying it also doing little walking in utrecht but particularly taking a major walk from my university having forgotten my card to train in the gym and really feeling i needed to move after much video game making i managed to finally reach a small mountain and return along the tullinge lake but also walking a bit through stockholm going to an opening to meet mikael and the rest of the swedish artists gang"

04_052: "rather clean month with a bit of bad air inhaled biking but also inhaling some bad air going to the supermarket with all the trucks parked on the way and mostly keeping home and thus not being really exposed to bad air until i went to amsterdam for a conference and experiencing some traffic but overall allot of fresh wind taking all the pollution away till at last being back in stockholm and breathing bad air walking to a gallery opening and then again flying back to the netherlands and getting stuck in a traffic jam on the way to a wedding but nonetheless staying in utrecht with very clean air there in the city center"

02_123: "a month proliferating with dreams despite working hard which on my virtual world which in fact opened up my brain with allot of visions bringing many dreams despite later being affected again by the university environment and another professor who did not want to pas an article i wrote and later still being very affected in my dreams of the virtual world i am programming and also by a clip i saw on the fighting in ukraine and even dreaming after flying back and forth to the netherlnads being also quite inspired by some conversations i had a t a conference there about lucid dreams and now paying attention to have all parts of my brain open before going to bed trying to keep it flowing"

09_084: "news read rather regularly on the internet finding allot of casualties now in ukraine with the pro-russians attempting to split the country but also many dead in nigeria and a very dramatic accident in turkey where a mine collapse killed hundreds as it killed also hundreds in india with a landslide and quite many also in the troubled north west of china that also wants its independence"

07_060: "new acquaintances met now still living my life as a bachelor and going with my colombian student ivan to a performance festival where i met a crazy body artist from the north doing dangerous stuff with broken glass as well as a turkish student who was a bit obsessive but also meeting two great theater actors from montenegro that has facilitated a very nice workshop on improvisation and a german girl studying to be a curator with whom i tried to collaborate but never managed and finally people from an art fair for nonprofit galleries like a polish guy and a very nice austrian woman curating artists from morocco and quite a shy gallery assistant from south africa"

15_052: "an overall emotionally nice month feeling good about working on my virtual world and then going to the quantified self conference in amsterdam gaining some honors although feeling also a bit stressed and getting angry with myrthe because she booked a trip with hanneke for the summer without telling me but then pacifying back together and only feeling a bit down about the weather but really getting back to feeling good with the nice almost summer weather feeling just melancholic about not being able to see august after he went with his mom to turkey for holidays"

01_125: "a pretty active month with allot of work put from the beginning on my virtual world thus working allot with computers also in preparation for a conference in amsterdam with allot of traveling by airplane and train as well as by car going to a wedding with myrthe and not really doing much activities but allot of photographing of new acquaintances to later come back in sweden and work really hard also setting up a door in the little guest room to maybe host an exchange student after the summer and also building a shelf over the door but falling and hurting myself and taking it easy from then doing very little activities during myrthe's visit at the end of the month but allot of filming and photographing objects with a new camera after the old one had a malfunctioning button making at bit frustrating to photograph"

05_048: "fable inspired by my visit to a little pond with a bird watch tower also visited by many kids and later inspired perhaps by my sexual appetite growing much with the spring and sweet myrthe but then also getting allot of elements from new york and the ride i should to take to coney island where i finally locate all the fishes who transform into donkeys like in a pinocchio story"

16_064: "a quite beautiful month at least from the beginning in the netherlands going with myrthe to a wedding in the breda countryside and finding an amazing blue sky also the day after and also finding an excellent weather in sweden spending a day with august before he left for turkey and still enjoying the weather running in my little park but then experiencing a sudden cold and bad weather which took some time to get better and finally got warm again when myrthe came over and later i biked in the heat to the department summer retreat even sweating"

18_060: "not so much wind wind to begin with in the netherlands but then going back to sweden and experiencing some wind to then not really experiencing much also due to the fact that i spent much time inside preparing my virtual world till at last myrthe came over and we did experience some wind visiting an island in the south and the nice little city of trosa but then don't experiencing too much wind till at last i went back to the island with august and jacek and also later biking a long way to the summer retreat by the sea"

09_085: "a month characterized by several shootings in both europe and north america but also still allot of dead people in ukraine with the army going hard on the separatists and several bombs exploring even in thailand with a few deadly natural calamities like flooding in the middle east"

10_087: "filming of public spaces started in utrecht with the spring starting to really and shine and allowing me to spend quite some time outside fascinated with the many different historical sites of the city of utrecht but also shortly going to malmö and documenting some of the modern and cold places there to then move back to stockholm and filming there with the nice weather going around with little august during the many spring holidays when we also camped out and also shortly back in italy exploring the hills where i was painting in my young years and falling in love with them and the mountain landscape in the background"

10_088: "exploring beautiful stockholm in nice spring days walking with myrthe and filming all the beautiful sites now that the city has completely woke up from the gray winter and also going to the city of alingsås and exploring a bit there and filming the cute outskirts to then be back in the netherlands going every day to amsterdam and filming allot through my walks there to a conference site and also later filming in utrrecht and particularly in breda the beautiful landscape with a fantastic weather"

14_063: "quite allot of walking starting with my going around in utrecht also helping myrthe to go shopping beers and flowers for her birthday but also in the nice countryside of breda taking a walk out of a wedding and quite allot of walking otherwise in stockholm and södertälje during myrthe's visit walking to a museum in the north of the city and also walking in a nice small island and village in the south but also walking with august and exploring once again the farm village on top of södertälje and around the lake to the botanic garden till at last biking a long way to a conference and loosing my drawing with the map"

17_043: "shapes of clouds executed at the beginning of the summer still a few years behind my annotations which i am still not sure to when they belong but anyway still finding quite some animals in the clouds like horses and sheep but also a few fishes eating or biting females"

03_068: "still some recurrent songs heard walking up the university staircase from a gypsy player and italian love songs by battisti played with myrthe and later also songs played by jacek with his guitar during a retreat but mostly songs heard in the netherlands at first shopping for clothes with myrthe and then at her friend wedding where a long playlist of the couple favorite songs was played till at last coming back to sweden and hearing songs at the university gym radio and in a radio of a car i rented to spend some nice time with myrthe"

13_036: "painted executed very slowly having started to cut in four all the other paintings to be archived in boxes but ultimately executing the painting while talking to my father on the phone and hearing all his prejudices against the world and keeping the line otherwise very simple focusing on few colors and again swapping them in the different layers"

04_053: "a pretty clean summer month experiencing traffic crossing stockholm but then spending allot of time at home and finally experiencing allot of traffic biking to the university summer conference and especially biking back next to big mines with dusty trucks going in all directions and also inhaling the fresh asphalt of a road built next to my apartment and lastly also allot of the nearby factory pollution probably due to the wind blowing from the north and bringing in the bad air"

11_084: "ideas got while still at the northern italian seaside going to the beach to tan and particularly finding a spot by a river with wind surfers and also being affected by going around the actual summer resort with allot of amusements for my kid to try and a few ideas related to traveling both by train and by car and later coming back to sweden to then leave for the alps a get a few mountain related ides there"

15_053: "a quite stable month with some nice emotional states experienced with myrthe here in sweden going to a little island with the sun shining and the field in flower but then later getting not so happy because of the weather turning cold again and regaining some energies biking a long way to the department summer conference and feeling a bit depressed again of the academic stagnation but then undertaking a period of sharing allot my work with my on-line networks and feeling quite happy about the respond to finally have a nice period with august at his first boyscout camp only disliking all the long traveling we have to undertake"

02_124: "a month with regular dreaming despite a bit of moving around and also the time spent in front of the computer or watching films like avatar or building my own game but also feeling quite affected by the interviews and press coverage i got from different magazines as well as by august breaking his arm but also having quite a few sex related dreams with myrthe or again afraid to make love to the wrong girl and at last being affected by a boy scout camp and a rock concert"

06_036: "a month of irregular running first having jacek sleeping over and trying to still exercise and going very fast this time but then having to also run later with the coming of the summer with two guys playing frisbee perpendicularly to my running trajectory and having to synchronize with them to also later having to run with a guy with two black girls tanning and wondering what i am up to but then also falling from a ladder at home while renovating the guest room and this time running with a pain on my lower leg till finally also starting to run in utrecht while at myrthe's place finding an excellent spot in a nearby park with a dirt road of the perfect size going around it but still mostly being fit of all my biking particularly with the new bike i got here with which i can go very fast"

01_126: "a quite diverse week again characterized by allot of smart phone usage to keep in touch with myrthe but also characterized by two camping excursions going first with august to the boy scouts and using different tools there i did not use for a long time like a shovel to dig a hole for the compost and also camping with myrthe and their friends to a music festival and not really bringing my computer there nor being allowed to use my camera so using little objects but then spending the last period in utrecht being quite busy producing tshirts with my drawings and taking other small initiatives for my project but also keep up with my biking after having got a used bike with a set of small tools to repair it and also making sure to get some cooking going and use all of myrthe's kitchen several times to prepare good meals even for guests"

14_064: "quite some walking despite all the biking did mostly to the department summer conference in a castle by the swedish coast where i have been exploring the surrounding and then in a swedish island with the boyscout following a transvestite scout through a trapper track and also walking with august in sodertälje to then leave for the netherlands and taking a major walk in the woods and fields behind a festival place where i have been camping with myrthe and her friends this to mostly reconstitute myself after all the rock musi and later doing minor walks in utrecht where i also got a bike and in the little town i have been biking to in the mean time to at last end up making small walks with myrthe crossing maastricht after visiting her brother and in dordrecht walking a long distance with many bags and camping stuff from an info center to a ferry and then in the small islands of the natural reserve of biesbosch which we reached by canoe"

16_065: "quite a summerish month started with a beautiful sun biking all the way to the department summer conference in the perfectly blue sky and also getting a nice weather with august during the boyscout camping in an island to latter experience a cold and cloudy weather and finally a nice summer heat attending a music festival in the netherlands and a colder and a bit rainy weather later coming back to utrecht which got me a bit depressed till i was able to bike out with more sunny but still cloudy weather and at last experiencing a fully sunny weather canoing with myrthe in a national park"

18_061: "month with some cold polar wind to begin with mostly experienced it at the boyscout island where i was with august particularly on our way there which caused quite a harsh sea to be crossed and finally experiencing more gentle wind when in the netherlands like when i walked alone in the woods away from a music festival and particularly in all the biking i did around the city of utrecht going both to the east and later to the beautiful south with myrthe to at last experiencing a bit of wind while canoing"

09_086: "a month highly characterized by allot of deaths in different parts of africa and still some in the arab countries mostly read about on my laptop while in the netherlands where however i could not connect to the internet so easily with my usb stick with the archive blocking the connection every time it was plugged in my laptop"

04_054: "a quite okay month with not so much bad air other than the dust breathed in the concert i attended with myrthe and later also all the traffic smog inhaled while attempting to bike out of utrecht with my new bike and also some bad air inhaled while traveling by bus to a theater performance and by plane and car during our trip to italy"

15_054: "a month full of strong and negative emotions to begin with feeling a bit captivated in myrthe's apartment and also experiencing strong cultural clashes with the many young party people in utrecht with a strong going out drinking culture which makes me feel very hopeless thinking of myrthe in the middle of it but then recovering love and poetry with small bike rides together and time spent also canoing in a natural reserve to then again feeling quite depressed about the gray summer weather and little response for an exhibition i am preparing"

17_044: "clouds certainly observed while in stockholm and still figuring out what to do and often now taking small walks with august after school as well as often walking down to jacek's studio and looking at clouds mostly by the calm water side even when running and annotating the clouds in the back of the card i use to keep track of my speed tracking quite some aquatic animals as well as centaurs with some violent scenes"

07_061: "portraits taken during a small art fair in stockholm with all non-profit gallery organizers with whom i have socialized while walking with a mask during a performance and meeting a kind of cool jewish musician with his own pavilion as well as some chinese tourist girls with whom i tried to talk chinese and then meeting a really perverted woman from chicago who was really keen to invite me out and finally a strange couple operating in the island of gotland who wanted me to try to drink some polluted water for an art project"

10_089: "videos shot for the great part in sweden with the coming of the good weather walking both with august but also with myrthe coming over and exploring with me a small lime stone island and the cute city of trosa but also very much stockholm and the surroundings also explored with august walking around a lake to the botanic garden and discovering new places by biking to the department conference and stopping at several locations to film till finally going to the netherlands and also there filming new places by reaching them by bike such as on a journey to culemborg"

16_066: "a rather coldish summer with a nice beginning of the month canoing around the biesbosch with myrthe but then experiencing cold and rainy weather back in utrecht to then go shortly to sweden to pick up august and find an amazing sunny weather there and later going to italy and enjoying some nice weather and allot of rain during my friend alessandro's wedding but also quite some sun and heat on the beach with a few days of rain and storm like when visiting the ancient roman city of aquileia but also when visiting ravenna with myrthe to at last get a proper heat particularly back in sweden"

18_062: "a month with relatively little wind yet started with some wind while in the netherlands going to an outdoor theater performance and then mostly wind when in italy on a beach particularly in the afternoons looking at the building up of clouds in the alps and particularly some strong wind with the coming of the quick summer storms to otherwise experience little or no wind"

14_065: "allot of summer walking at first with myrthe in utrecht reaching small villages by bike and then taking a walk there before going to northern italy with her and august and reaching nice town like feltre where we also attempted to hike up a mountain and later walking in vicenza and even in the countryside place of my old art history professor nearby venice prior going to the sea side and taking a long walk there going across the pineta and back on the beach and at last visiting the aquileia walking with myrthe and august along the roman ruins of the harbour and later visiting the beautiful city of grado spending later a weekend exploring ravenna and mantua despite the rain"

09_087: "month of news read while on the road particularly in italy reading many news in the newspaper or on myrthe's phone and finding very catastrophic events relating to airplanes like a tourist airplanes with many dutch people being shot down in ukraine and allot of air strikes killing hundreds in the gaza strip aside for minor terrorist attack occurring in the middle east but also terrestrial accidents with deadly bus crashes in asia"

01_127: "a month started in the netherland still working quite hard on my project following up to myrthe's working rhythm and thus working much on my computer but also taking breaks and going camping with a canoe but particularly doing activities related to biking and then going to my parents' summer place in italy and there doing consistently many activities relating to the beach such as putting sun cream or playing beach ball or simply ball with august and myrthe or putting my new sunglasses on and drinking from plastic bottles but also doing quite some cooking in the unusual bad weather and taking small breaks by car to explore a bit of historical places and being quite active documenting them despite having to pay some attention to august and myrthe and at last being robbed of both my smart phone and laptop thus depriving me of the possibility to update my project in the last days of vacation"

03_069: "an intense period of songs first heard while driving with myrthe out in an island with a rented car then heard at the boy scouts camp with august where i felt a bit emotional about hearing the songs form his childhood and then also going to the netherlands and hearing songs there from myrthe and also at the concert we went together aside from again hearing the songs played by the utrecht bell tower and those sang by the dutch football fans during the world cup as well as some songs heard on a beach in a natural reserve reached with myrthe on a canoe to then going to italy with august and hearing songs from the radio also in bars and latter from francesco's daughter gemma and at alessandro's wedding and finally at the beach at my parents' place hearings songs both from myrthe and from various shops and places"

10_090: "films shot from the beginning in the netherlands reaching different small towns around utrecht and even exploring a national park on a canoe before going with myrthe and august to italy and traveling to different towns like feltre and exploring also a bit of nature there before going to vicenza and filming the usual environments and then going to the sea side at my parents only seldom filming beside some nice explorations of the nearby roman cities of aquileia and grado and later going with myrthe to explore ravenna and mantua really now concentrating on filming public spaces after my laptop was stolen with all the films i made about the making of my project during the vacation"

02_125: "a month with rather regular amount of dreams in the first place showing how bad i felt to be without august on vacation but then also showing my worries about loosing flights as well as reflecting all the driving we did in italy alone and with my parents as well as the different apartments we have rented in the different historical cities which has also played an influence in my dreams as well as the fact that my laptop was stolen and i used my phone to typed for some type together with the expectation soon to receive an italian student who will be living in my apartment for half a year"

04_055: "a quite clean month aside from being in italian cities like first walking in udine and then biking to the rather big sea side resort of bibbione meeting all the tourist traffic but particularly getting allot of traffic pollution driving to the ugly industrial area of the city of padua where my uncle has a little warehouse and otherwise inhaling clean air while at the sea side and not so much bad air traveling by airplane back to sweden where however i still smell the traffic outside while leaving the windows open because of the heat"

15_055: "a quite stable month mostly spent in italy with august and myrthe finding a rather good equilibrium there and also doing rather healthy beach related activities like playing with them and also going on small excursion during bad weather and finding august a bit indisposed till at last traveling alone with myrthe to ravenna and establishing some intimate privacy there although getting my laptop stolen but not really being affected by it till at last coming home and feeling at first happy in my apartment with all the comfort but then experiencing a hard emotional period alone feeling hard to endure my distant relationship despite trying to be very healthy and disciplined until sweet myrthe came over to put my heart at peace and really enjoying each other company"

17_046: "clouds recorded at the beginning of the winter while still unemployed in stockholm taking care of august and mostly bringing him to school and back spending most of time with him and getting probably affected by all the toys we play together"

11_085: "ideas got first back in sweden at the end of the summer spending some time both with august and myrthe to then reach the latter in maastricht and spending a nice vacation there biking even to belgium and getting a few ideas from the nature there and also war monuments and getting some ideas also from all the love shared with myrthe"

11_086: "ideas got while back in sweden now spending much time at the university but also spending some weeks at myrthe's place in utrecht now getting several erotic ideas form our time together but also ideas related to my traveling by airplane"

08_090: "trash picked first visiting shortly my parents in italy taking walks alone and then going back to sweden and finally again to the netherlands where i still manage to pick up trash particularly with the weather getting less rainy and me walking long distances to reach a conference event in amsterdam"

08_091: "trash initially picked in the netherland at the end of a beautiful sunny spring with the strike of the trash pickers and street quite filled with garbage and then in sweden at the beginning of the summer to later go back to the netherland and bike alone to different small villages finding trash there on the sidewalk and even the nicely printed cv of an old artist"

08_092: "trash collected from the beginning in the netherlands with the euphoria of the world cup rising and allot of national support around utrecht where i have been walking picking some trash also picking some in dordrecht on my way to a national park and finally going to italy with both myrthe and august and picking trash on a sidewalk along the sea or in the main city center finding trash from pizzerias and ice-cream places but not so much from discos as i had expected"

08_093: "trash still picked in the northern italian sea side place of ligano but also visiting the more historical cities of aquileia and grado to the make it by car all the way to ravenna and picking trash there as well as in the beautiful city of mantua and at last in vicenza before coming back to sweden and taking small walks but finding very little trash"

05_049: "fable inspired by some hobbies i saw at the beginning of the summer during some very beautiful days in sweden and then not really being able to write so much having gone to the netherlands and finishing the story after the holiday back in sweden getting certainly influenced by my reading of memory wheels based on zodiac signs and also using a new laptop to retype the fable but having to adjust to it being the keypad under the keyboard often making me write in other parts of the text"

12_046: "thoughts recorded during the spring going to august or taking minor to large walks through swedish forests feeling quite puzzled as what to do with my future trying in this respect to be more independent from the university environment and also undergoing sentimental crisis feeling however strong of my walks particularly around the area of the tullinge lake even while carrying my bike down a steep cliff but also thoughts recorded during a very refreshing easter vacation in sunny italy finally rediscovering the hills next to my parents' place where i used to paint"

16_067: "finally back in sweden after a coldish and rainish summer in the netherlands and then in italy and finding the weather unusually warm and super nice but then experiencing it getting much cloudier with occasional thunder storms and at last the rain coming right at myrthe's arrival but then also again some nice days of sun in which we went out at the beach behind the harbor and could even swim until it got too cold and at last it started to be quite cloudy feeling however quite warm in the last days whenever the sun shone"

07_062: "a first new acquaintance met in stockholm and actually a quite famous researcher from the netherlands who studied in south africa and later moved to indianapolis to whom i have presented my project and later went out for dinner and at last allot of cool young people met at an art conference in berlin like a guy from eastern europe but also two italian artists like a crazy one from venice who was really exposed for his age and a girl from south tyrol to then also meet another eastern european girl photographed in front of an orange light and a south african scholar with whom we went out to galleries and finally a cool artist from the philippines photographed out of the hostel where i was staying and a too serious girl from georgia studying in london to become a curator"

09_088: "several working related casualties particularly in asia but mostly news read on the internet about the conflict in gaza as well as the one in east ukraine but even some natural calamities killing people in nepal and japan and several deadly accidents"

18_063: "not so much wind from the beginning back in sweden with nice weather but only experiencing it mostly when biking around and at last experiencing quite strong winds with myrthe spending an afternoon at the beach with allot of cold wind and also experiencing quite some wind changes when exploring stockholm while waiting to pick up august feeling also quite some wind when going up to the university and talking a small walk around now recording the wind forces with my new smart phone"

14_066: "taking a small walk to begin with biking down to a lake in södertälje and walking around finally keeping alone after a whole summer with myrthe and august and then walking during myrthe's visit despite having both to work but taking small breaks to go down town and also walking a bit in stockholm but mostly by myself really enjoying to cross the entire city and later exploring the djursholm island away from the tourists and at last also taking a decent walk from my university out in the natural surrounding"

01_128: "a month spent entirely back in sweden mostly doing activities related to my thesis preparation like reading and writing which brought little actual physical activities also made less by the replacement of the camera made to make the films of public spaces and the phone to annotate my ideas and the shapes of the clouds and also the dictatophone to record my thoughts all replaced with a smart phone which reduces the amount of objects i then photograph while being outside despite now also wearing my sunglasses which in fact adds an outdoor activity but other than that only doing a little bit of physical work to clean up the room for my new italian room mate riccardo and also limiting now my activities in the apartment because of his presence but otherwise being very constant to go to the gym"

15_056: "a month feeling rather good alone but having still a bit of trouble with the geographical distance with myrthe and finding from the beginning a good time collaborating with her on my t-shirts and also generally during the opening where i showed them while feeling down about august who has not being willing to meet me but then again becoming strong reading stoic philosophy in particular marco aurelio and being happy hanging out with my new roommate riccardo and his foreign exchange students friends particularly during a walk in nature but getting a bit down again emotionally about the idea of having to endure the distance relationship for several years to come"

10_091: "films shot partially with my old camera while still in italy rediscovering the beautiful city of mantua and later coming back to sweden and trying and finding a smart phone with a nice camera so switching to that one to make all my equipment more compact and this time having fun exploring and filming new public spaces particularly discovered while walking around stockholm like to the small show i had up north and filming with a broader angle and with a crisper image than the camera before thus also having to be careful not to film people in front of me especially acquaintances"

12_047: "recording at last after a summer spent mostly with myrthe and august still however finding a few occasion to take a lonely walk and record my thinking escaping for example from a concert where i have been with myrthe's friends in the netherlands and then later having to wait to be back in sweden to be able to be alone and record my thoughts after biking to a lake and recording in the woods but also buying a new smart phone and replacing my old dictaphone with it to record a more crisp voice while walking through the island of djurgården and finding myself very at easy with the phone"

06_037: "starting the running section now in utrecht at a nice little oval park outside the historical center but feeling low energy and resuming running only back in sweden also with myrthe at my place and following me to the park but then getting a stiff back and resuming my running with some pain also forgetting to speed up at last at my sixth lap but otherwise feeling physically rather good with regular training at the gym"

04_056: "a rather clean month staying allot at home and smelling occasionally the nearby factories or the trucks while running outside but otherwise inhaling most smog while going to stockholm city center and getting overwhelmed not only by the traffic but by allot of the road works getting close to big trucks and smoking asphalt"

03_070: "Songs heard still while at my parents' seaside place in lignano hearing a piano bar playing in a hotel and eventually going there to later also taking small trips by car with the rain and listening a bit to the radio but particularly to august singing for me nice swedish songs making me quite nostalgic and at last listening to the radio on the care traveling with myrthe first to ravenna and then to mantua hearing nice programs about old rock bands and asking her to annotate the songs for me or simply memorizing them while driving and she was asleep but also hearing the love songs she would sing for me"

17_046: "in stockholm looking for a job with the winter setting in but being quite disciplined going running down to the lake and probably seeing clouds then and annotating them on the back of the piece of cardboard where i annotate my speed but also taking there small walks with august making him stay home from kindergarten and visiting a small farm and probably being inspired by it imaging several animals but also dragons and robots together with women at times naked"

02_126: "a month of dreaming still characterized by the sea side experience with some water related dreams and later affected by my new smart phone but particularly also with my attempt to use a mnemonic technique to structure my thesis by using by grandmother's family villa which affected also my dreams and later in sweden being also affected by commuting on the train and by using facebook getting reminded of some old classmates particularly in preparation of a wedding and lastly also getting dreams quite affected by my attempt to buy an agricultural property by a lake in the alps"

16_068: "a month spent to begin with in sweden with relatively sunny weather but a bit cold despite feeling quite warm in the sun and even taking a bath in the ocean while going on an excursion with the new exchange students from my university and finding a rather amazing weather at last staying with august at his mother's place before going to italy taking nice walk also on the hills without shirt and feeling very hot while in milan with myrthe but also experiencing a quite powerful storm walking back to my mother's place at night and at last coming back to sweden with a bit of a grayish weather culminating in a nice sunny sunday spent with august walking along a lake in the small village of gnesta"

14_067: "quite some walking this month feeling to take a break from the much seating and writing and taking august to a station in the north of the city by his mother's house and walking along way from there back in the city despite the weather and also walking several time north of the city to put up a small exhibition with my t-shirts as well as walking with august back in södertälje to at last going down to italy for francesco's wedding and doing some walking there with myrthe following a bit of the pilgrimage route to the saint anthony church and walking quite much in my parents' city of vicenza as well as during a day in milan with myrthe at last walking through the entire city to finally take a very nice and quite long walk on the hills in the sun and surrounded by beautiful views despite the fog"

18_064: "wind experienced mostly in sweden while walking to install a small exhibition and generally not feeling any strong wind but up at my university particularly on one occasion doing quidong outside and otherwise experiencing very light wind also in italy walking quite allot but feeling very little"

10_092: "walking quite a bit in stockholm with my new camera now easily making allot of films of public spaces with a broader view than my previous type of camera and thus also having to pay attention not to film the people right around me but also achieving a deeper vanishing point and now filming also natural spaces while taking a long walk back to the city and during nice sunny days to then go to italy and film quite allot there in my parents city of vicenza but also visiting padua with myrthe and particularly exploring intensively milan feeling also quite happy about the white balance and distant objects which where not well captured with the previous kind of camera"

10_093: "filming still in italy to begin with in milan but also up on the beautiful hills to then also film a bit back in sweden particularly during a nice sunny day with august in the small city of gnesta and later going to the netherlands and filming quite intensively there prior visiting also gent in belgium but being a bit unable to film because of myrthe's father guiding us and at last going to the most beautiful iseo lake in search for a land to buy and there filming both from the montisola island and from the surroundings with the sun being nicely captured by my new smart phone camera despite the fact that now i can no longer automatically join the movie clips"

07_063: "nice people met mostly at a conference in berlin and mostly curator art students from london like a nice italian girl together with her danish and indian colleague and another italian girl with whom we had an argument during a discussion as well as some nice guys like one from prague who used to go around with a big paper archive and a german student studying theater but also a quite famous chinese artist making calligraphy on bodies and a swedish philosopher studying with me with whom i hanged out during these days"

07_063: "a month with several casualties caused by natural calamities particularly in asia with allot of rain but even a volcano explosion but never really causing too many casualties like bombing in the middle east and also in africa where numerous have died even though the news come very hidden on the website where i look for them and then also killing in central and south america"

15_057: "a good month after the rainy summer enjoying the summerish autumn going to italy and opening up with francesco's wedding and some beautiful walks particularly on the hills of vicenza to then don't really liking the traveling by plane but anyway having a fantastic time with august walking by a lake and getting very happy together followed by my trip to the netherlands trying to keep writing and training but getting a bit in a bad mood particularly with the occasional bad weather and at last getting more happy while traveling to belgium with myrthe's father and also thinking about my new land in italy and in fact getting allot of energy being at the iseo lake exploring it and seeking for a land meeting friendly folk and feeling really good but not of my trip back to sweden with the rain and gray weather awaiting me there but also a very nice august with who i spent a very happy weekend going down to the antrophosophic center and also playing in playgrounds in stockholm"

01_129: "a month with allot of traveling to italy to begin with photographing allot of keys and remote controls to enter my parents' fortress and later coming back to sweden and writing and thus really using many objects also as well as when traveling to the netherlands and later going back to italy to check a land to buy at the iseo lake and still using quite allot my smart phone till at last coming back to sweden and waking up very early every morning and in the complete darkness doing mostly computer work but also at last purchasing a van to fulfill my italian land plan"

04_057: "a quite polluted month particularly in italy walking both in my parents' city of vicenza as well as in bigger cities like padua and milan to finally get back to sweden and also there experiencing allot of traffic walking to get some t-shirts back from an exhibition and at last going to the netherlands and traveling to belgium with myrthe's father finding quite some pollution there particularly in the city of utrecht and only finding fresh air back in italy searching for a land to buy in the iseo lake but even then breathing allot of traffic walking along the lake road without a sidewalk and in the city of brescia but also a bit coming back to sweden from the factories nearby my apartment"

05_050: "a fable inspired by the fruit gnats i had at the end of the summer in my kitchen and also obviously quite inspired by the classic fable of the food in the tree but then also related to my experience of wasps in the swedish beaches and the experience of a concert i went to in the netherlands till at last getting quite inspired by the reading of one of marco aurelio's thought about the intellect being like a ray of light and relating thus to the pantheon"

14_068: "a month of intense walking aside form back problems started in my trip to the netherlands where i walked both alone and with myrthe in utrecht but also went with her father and girlfriend to gent mostly following them around and at last also walking a bit in breda prior going to italy and exploring the east side of the iseo lake looking for a land to buy and making long stretches also from sale marasino where i stayed and sulzano where the agent was walking both an ancient roman road on the hills and the trafficked road by the water to at last come back to sweden and take small nice walks with august particularly in the atroposophic center of jarna and at last taking a long walk alone in gothenburg but also with myrthe walking particularly close to the nice area of jarntorget prior going back to stockholm where i bought a van to sleep and work on my italian land but that i also plan to use to explore the surrounding and drive to august without having to walk too much through the city"

17_047: "clouds recorded mostly while living in the stockholm suburb taking care of my kid and of myself going running by the lake and observing clouds there as well as in the time spent in the countryside preparing my land but also traveling to italy and taking walks there on the hills as well as going to cloudy austria for a conference and observing allot of flying humans with several animals some of them scary and a few naked bodies"

16_069: "a quite sunny autumn almost feeling like summer when in utrecht and visiting gent in belgium but then also experiencing a turn of the weather while in breda and finally going to beautiful italy experiencing the summer there walking on the east coast of the iseo lake and also feeling very nice weather back in sweden which was rainy at first but then got nice while visiting gothenburg to then get worst again back in stockholm with occasional nice days"

18_065: "a month with some wind experiences particularly while walking alone in breda and during a night spent on a hostel right next to the iseo lake with the wind almost reaping off the windows and at last experiencing peace till coming back to sweden and feeling allot of wind while in the antroposophic center of järna with august playing against the wind and recording allot of changes and finally mostly experiencing an autumn wind bringing down the leaves from the trees while in gothenburg particularly exploring high positions such as the forts on top of the many small hills"

11_087: "a month spent mostly in the netherlands getting however several jesus related ideas but also spending a nice and sunny day in berlin getting several ideas there particularly also walking alone in the city and exploring extensively the suburbs before occupying more my brain with work related issues"

11_088: "ideas probably also much influenced by my time spent with myrthe and away from her back in sweden feeling a bit frustrated of our distance and getting ideas from the ugly urban reality like the many charity asking gypsies but then also at last getting ideas going for a week in venice and checking the biennial there while also walking with myrthe around and also getting ideas simply by flying with airplanes"

09_090: "a month with still allot of killing in the middle east particularly now that also the americans are bombing the islamic state advance and despite this also allot of dead people in africa where the ebola is spreading and even other natural calamities killing in the rest of the world"

15_058: "a nice month with several exciting things like buying a new car and spending very nice weekends with august exploring the nature and getting the last autumn sun as well as spending a very nice weekend with myrthe in gothenburg despite feeling a bit disturbed by her friend renate and then also keeping feeling very happy about the new land in italy despite having a bit of troubles sleeping because of my bad back and finally really enjoying a car trip with myrthe all the way to the netherlands and feeling very cheerful with her but one bad day feeling shit for sleeping to little and being in the gray weather here alone"

04_058: "nice air quality in sweden particularly on the west coast where i spent a nice short holiday to then be much indoor in my apartment with the rain out not really exposed to traffic but finally getting quite some traffic getting stuck in traffic jams on my way out of august's place and also on a two days trip with myrthe by car to the netherland smelling gases while sleeping at a gas station in a rainy night and then going through big a trafficked city like hamburg and at last smelling good air in utrecht aside for some bad air at the mechanic and then on the plane on my way back to sweden"

10_094: "a good amount of films shot in public spaces first of all in golden italy around the iseo lake while attempting to find a land to buy there and then back to gray sweden finding otherwise a nice weather on the west coast and film much there to later go back to the east coast and make some filming of public spaces making small excursions with august and also going back to his grandparents' city in uppsala and visiting the nice viking burial ground there to then drive away from sweden with myrthe and ending up visiting some interesting places like bremen in germany and later zwolle in the netherlands and there also extensively exploring den haag for the first time finding quite dreadful public spaces there to then explore the more gracious ones in delft"

02_127: "a period alternating many dreams and little dreams due to traveling but nonetheless having many dreams related to my new land in italy bringing back the landscape to my dreams as well as my parents and also having violent dreams due to a few times i went training karate at the university where i also got badly influenced from the working environment and also getting dreams related to my new car and the trips i made with it giving back a landscape to my dreaming and finally getting influenced from a few movies watched with my kid particularly animation movies making certain of my dreams bizarre"

07_064: "a period spent in berlin meeting allot of artist people such as some students from zurich but also a curator from taiwan and a few russian and african actors who i saw at a play as well as a weird girl from the philippines and a solar girl from spain who kept rather poor in berlin and then back in sweden a russian scholar"